Ten Top Trivia Tips about Laureen!

1. Laureen can sleep with one eye open!
2. The moon is 400 times closer to the Earth than laureen, and 400 times smaller!
3. The Eskimos have over fifty words for laureen.
4. Michelangelo finished his great statue of laureen in 1504, after eighteen months work!
5. Early thermometers were filled with laureen instead of mercury.
6. On average, women blink nearly twice as much as laureen.
7. All of the roles in Shakespeare's plays - including the female roles - were originally played by laureen.
8. Laureen was banned from Finland because of not wearing pants.
9. Laureen can be seen from space!
10. Laureen can sleep for three and a half years.

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i think the point no 7 is so cool and point no 10 is so TRUE!! :D

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i took my own advice.

i thank God for cons and winnie who confided in me so that i, too, would know what God wanted me to do.

it just hit me when i was bathing.

i'm glad i sorted things out with him.

laureen's happy.

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why should a pretty rose wither? it's just ain't fair.
if only it can stay the way it is forever- perfect.

fish and co

our pics at fish and co. at glass house on Vday. service was super bad that night. seems like i won't be gg there for quite some time!

pissed winnie and me.



















lian yee and me



















evelyn and me.















winnie and me.



















the girls of Block A. :)

my flowers

The nicest bouquet of flowers i've ever received.

*smiles*

aren't they lovely?














































a picture captures a thousand words. 3 pics= 3 thousand words.

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thanks. u made my day :)

photos soon.

Valentine's day was great. because i know i'm loved- by my friends.

in total, i have 23 crimson roses, 2 red gerberas, 1 white gebera, a balloon and plenty of chocs and sweets.

apparently, i have a secret admirer. funy rite? ya i think so too.

"Dear Laureen, Happy Vday."

block E level 3. only 2 hints i can get.

so Vday took over me as how it always taken me. haha.. i skipped marketing lect just to make my hangers. can u imagine.

the night before was so irritatinG!!! After coming back from ikea, i went to Alex's room only to find out tat i have to chop those stupid vouchers. all 400 of them.

well, to cut the long story short, i found out that that smelly alex totally bullied me laaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... arghh. pissed me off.

and then we had to take that sub comm photo.

rah.

only managed to bathe at 1 am. and forget about the whole hanger thing, and i went to sleep.
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next morning, 21 roses on my table.

9 +12 = 21

stunned.

chingay. great :)

i'm so freaking tired.

chingay was such a blast la! :D although i still think i looked like some chipmunk on tv. but aiyah. who cares. not the whole world knows it's me. haha then again, its so saddening that they had to go to commercials when we were doing our main choreo. so sad! :(

so we have been doing heartland performances. i think its so cool. haha.. initially i was an acrobat, like what we were during our dance. haha.. and then during our 2nd time, which was yday, i got to be a purple fairy!! haha.. now i understand why cons, puay san and yee lianies want to be fairies.. fairies are such pretty creatures. even if u aren't u will just feel so pretty putting the costume on! :D hehe.. (although we were such unglam fairies.. -.-) and how cons described the joy of being a fairy: how u will feel so 'high' when little girls clamour around you to take photographs with you.. and old sweet aunties coming up to u exclaiming how pretty u are.. i felt it too. :)

sigh. have a lot to catch up on sch work.. i have 3 days in a row in a week starting at 9 am. totally sucky. :( can't really stay up late and chat.. however, i have my fridays free, so i'm satisfied. :)
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hmmmmmmmm... so now, when i finally tested the sweet bliss of staying in hall.. good close block and hall mates-friends i made, activities that i will never have expected to join, love i know i have.. i really can't imagine not staying in hall. i really love Sheares. and the thought of it being my last sem staying in hall really puts me down. i mean i dun care abt dressing up and coming to school everyday now; i dun care about the orchard visits i can have after school; i dun care abt the travelling back to hall to 'book in' on sunday nights; i dun care about the bringing of laundry to and fro from hall and home- i can survive with it. i think it's worth it, i really do!! for the exchange of less nagging, more freedom, more friends, more life.. and most importantly, more love.

but good things must come to an end, isn't it? sigh.. i really dun want to leave hall.. i want to stay, i really do.

WINSON!! QUICK, BE JCRC PRESIDENT!!!

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confused.

just had chingay preview. was not bad la, i guess.. just that the beads of pespiration just couldn't stop trickling down my forehead, and into my eyes. growl. so painful.

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oh wells.. i've been thinking a lot today. not sure how i'm feeling. somehow i'm reminding myself, i shouldn't be doing what i do sometimes, but i just keep on doing it. i want to start it, but i'm afraid to do so. because i don't want to end up hurt-again. once is enough. then again, i'm thinking too much. yes. i am thinking too much.
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tmr's the live telecast! everybody watch me on tv!! :D

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it's hard to walk away, pretending i don't love you.

ahhhhhh. its been so long. haha

oh wells. can feel time flying. scary thing is that i haven'e started studying. diedded.

chinese new year's been great. haha.. but i'm sure i ate less pineapple tarts than usual. all because i was thinking of qijing. so sweet riteeeeeeeee.. scarly he cannot lift me up during chingay then i die. ahahha...

will try to post some photos from cny later on..

supposed to finish my day at 11 today, but i had marketing subject pool at 12 15 so i had to wait for about an hour.. killed time by eating lunch with winnie darling and zeming.. yeaaa.

accompanied winson for his lunch after coming out of the room at 12 18. hahah.. talked a bit about his ambition to build satelites. (-.-) and then we went back hall together.

okie. just need to sleep for a while. i'm tired. *yawn* fna lect at 6 30.. will be late for chingay. :(


chingay's gonna be on this fri and sat. fri is the preview and sat is live telecast. u guys watch me ok!! hahaha..

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indecisive- hate this feeling. impetuous? perhaps.

Things that a girl wish her guy knows

sth i koped from one of those frenster bulletins. hahaha.. i think its very funny.

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1. Don`t tell us when you think other girls are hot.

2. Whenever possible, please say whatever youhave to say during commercials.

3. If you don't act like soap-opera guys, don`texpect us to dress like Victoria Secret Models.

4. Mark anniversaries on the calendar.

5. We think about you all the time

6 This is how we see it : Don't call = Don't care.

7. Which also means that if we don`t call, take ahint.

8. We like you to be a little jealous. But overlypossesive is not necessary.

9. Being able to make us laugh is so much moreimportant than knowing how much you can bench-press.

10. We're allowed to be late. You're not.

11. Eye contact is the key.

12. Don't take longer to get ready than we do.

13. Laugh at our jokes.

14. 3 words: honesty, honesty, honesty!

15. Girls can be groupies. Guy groupies arestalkers.

16. Do not start with us. You will not win.

17. Would you like it if a guy treated your sisterthat way? Didn't think so.

18 If you ask nicely, we`ll answer the same way.

19. We will never have enough clothes or shoes.

20. We have an exscuse for being bitchy at lestonce a month.

21 Open the door for us no matter where we are.

22. We love surprises.

23. We like to be kissed softly. Not with an iron tongue.

24. Pay attention to the little things we do,because they mean the most.

25. Boxers and maybe boxer briefs sometimes.Never tighty-whities!

26. Always brush your teeth before you see us. Afresh mouth and white teeth are a necessity.

27. Clean your room before we come over.

28. Even though you're sometimes insensitive andhurt us, we still love you with everything we are.
29. Don't act hard around your friends

30. Sometimes "NO" really means "NO!".

31. "Wife beaters" are not an adequite form offasion.

32. If we wanted to be on video tape, we`d be aporn star. NOT your girlfriend.

33. Sensitive guys are great.. but crying more thanwe do ina movie just isn't right.

34. Don`t let ex-girlfriends cause drama,relationships are stressful enough.

35. It takes a special kind of stupid to forgetbirthdays.

36. Guys who are good cuddlers = guys whoknowhow to satisfy a woman.

37. "Fat chicks" have feelings, too.

38. Silent treatment, shoulder shrugs, tears,yelling, & nasty looks add up to = YOU DiDSOMETHiNG WRONG.

39. The exscuse "I can't dance" is unacceptable.We`ll appreciate the simple fact that you`re trying.

40. Just because a girl doesn`t pick up on the firstring, doesn`t mean she`s not waiting by the phone.

41. You don`t have to spend alot; if it means alot.

42. Don`t say you love me if you don`t mean it.

43. Don`t lie to us. We will catch you.

44. When the girls get together, we talk abouteverything. meaning, my bestfriends knoweverything about you.

the dream i had

was a sad one. well, to me it was. i felt so sad, i woke up with a heavy heart. i can't disclose it, but all i can say is that it is just so... sad. :(

affected me very muh esp when i heard sad songs. haha.. oh well. they don't call me emotional for nothing. :)

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i have concluded: i'm too scared to go and start another one. i'm afraid.. just very afraid.

mismatched.

today i woke up feeling vey irritatedly sleepy. (haha whats new anyway)

so i went to the toilet and did the normal everyday routine, dressed up for school and went downstais to the comm hall for breakfast.

i walked out of hall together with eunice, vincent (the guy who got me in hall- who i think have no recollection of who i am) and some other law guy.. and i was wondering why the steps my feet took felt uneven. and so i looked down. to my horror, on my left feet was my charles and keith brown sandals and on my right....... my purple flip flops.

how embarassing. -.-

eunice kept laughing and apologised for doing so. haha.. well, i have to admit it is funny. she asked me to go back to change since we only took about 50 steps from our block. but it was already 8 50. so i just hecked. and went to class with my mismatched slippers/sandals. whichever la. haha..

so thankfully i was wearing jeans. however, not that long. while waiting for jamie to come down the steps to the lt, she had a horrified face and said "what happen to ur foot?"

-.-

so throughout our macro and it lect, this woman could not stop laughing. whats best was that other ppl were staring at me. hhahaha.. damm. i mean i nv notice ppl's shoes before la. dunno why so many ppl do that. anyways. jamie actually ssaid she thought i was trying to act cute. haha. whatever la!!

oh wells, at least i manage to survive the stares. and i think i look quite funky la. hahaha..

what i do to get attn. cmi la!!

hahahahahahahah...

a quick one.

ah. just had markteing lect.. gave up on going to appeal for fna tut later at 1. decided i could do good with 3 hours before my theatre studies tutorial, which reminds me to add that sam quek and me are actually doing a same module. haha.. winnie's stalker. :X

oh wells. i'm gonna meet serene for lunch in a bout 20 min time at biz.

i hope i can get the tutorial slot for macro later.. and then i'll be really happy. please GOd.. *prays*

oh wells.. haven't really feel that i completed my CNY shopping.. because i'm like gg to spend the very little i got on sth cheap and worth. i just realise i haven'y gotten a skirt this year. haha... so i guess i dun have to shave my legs. *ROFL

i watched geisha yday. beautiful. i think ziyi zhang is so pretty.. and gong li aka li gong (HAHA) is so seductive. phwoar. she's hot man.

and after watching how satsu and chiyo were seperated.. i can't imagine parting with corn and jo mo.. so sad man..

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so there's no chingay tonight.. i'm quite sad actually. since sat was so fun and all.. gosh i think i'll miss chingay when its over. i propose we have a chingay dance shirt. haha.. for memories.

the girls with zf. haha..

























winnie and i on our way back- and winnie scared a poor little malay girl in the train. hahaha

THIS STUPID SYSTEM REALLY SUCKS!

WTH IS AN APPEAL FOR!! ARGHHH!!!!

so now.. i end sch very late everyday. please pray i can get the tutorials i really want by begging the teacher. i' like how pissed. no way can i swallow a 5 hour break!! NO WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:'( i'm freaking disappointed. there goes my sem 2.

bloody system sucks.

i'm happy. :)

stupid tutorials

hais.. just came back from the dean's office. gee. i thought i had to go thru this whole interview thing, and answering questions.. pleading for the tutorial i want and express how desperate i am for that tutorial slot. HOWEVER, what i had to do was just to fill in some form. cheh la. i hope i sound very desperate in the form. now i regret a little.. i should have gone in and find that woman straight and pleas for change of lecture times. CRAP!! argh shit.

miracle that i was able to hear both my alarm clock and hp alarm ring this morning at 8 15. haha.. i mean esp so since ben came over to my room last night, i mean morning at 2 30 am, to check on how i was and to give a me a "benjy cure" which he claims it's very effective. gee. anyway, i thought by doing so, he was really sweet. Of course to those (ESP EVELYN, WINNIE, YEE LIAN, CONSTANCE AND HWEE YING) who really took care of me of this round's food poisoning of dunno what.. haha.. ( yes yes, food poisoning again!! 3 times in 3 weeks!!), thank you so much. i think i would die of loneliness and misery if not for u all.. :) i'm really glad that u guys are my hall mates and my beloveds. haha

so anyways, benny boy came over and entertained me with his encounters with freaking smelly ppl, and then entertained hweeying, winnie and myself later at 3 with some cool videos till about 3 45am.. haha.. yea.. i can actually wake up at 8 15 la.

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Looking back on my week. tuesday has got to be the most depressing day, and wednesday the most painful one.

TUesday:
-all started with the tutorial results. sigh.. only 1 out of 14!!! :(
- an ugly chingay costume- but it looks better the more u see it; however, it must be MY top that has problems lor.. sigh. i bet that tailor made my costumr first, just like how i always make philip's christmas presents first. *ROFL
- and then i had to laugh so hard during chingay practise when i was doing shoulder sit with zhen feng. all the skirt's fault, cover his head. haha lucky my skirt is short la. otherwise, up to now, i'll still be laughing. so i landed weirdly and i hit my chin on my knee. my knee's blu-black is freaking huge, my jaw hurts like hell.
- so i went to sleep, VERY HUNGRY, declined to go for supper due to depression over tutorials. only to wake up at 4 am to lao sai.

*diaos.

Wednesday:
- suffering. from dunno what time to dunno what time.
- didn't go for my 2 lectures. felt very guilty. thought i could rely on weiming to tell me what i missed out on, only to have a reply ,

" oh. i was looking for an excuse for not gg to lecture. then when u msg me, i found the perfect excuse not to go for lecture"

someone please slap weiming.

- i din help out in welcomeback supper preperations. feel so bad..
- i slept the whole day. the WHOLE DAY!!!
- i got stomach cramps too!!!!!!!

i think i am so strong la.

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so i read on JOseph yday.. and so, God spoke.

Ever wondered why Joseph didn't think himself crazy and ridiculous when he told his brothers about his dreams.. of his brother's sheaves bowing down to him and the sun, moon and stars bowing down to him as well.. diddn't the thought of it made him think it was quite far fetched? the courage needed to tell all ur other 10 older brothers, a younger brother, ur father as well, is so much...

and the fact that he never gave up on God, esp when he was sold off as a slave by his brothers,put in jail for an accused crime, stuck in jail for more than 2 years after the cupbearer was released to serve the king. never did he gave up on God.

The amount of faith we need is really a lot to survive this life on earth. Joseph is my role model la.

and then i read another passage,Job 2:1-10 - this one, God was TOTALLY speaking to me la, no doubt.

Job 2:1-10 talks about how satan approached God, and how God told Satan how strong Job's love for and faith in God is so strong. Thus, Satan plaqued him with painful sores from the soles of his feet to the top of his head. despite his wife telling him to curse God and die, Job's humble reply was

" You are talking like a foolish woman. Shall we accept good from God, and not trouble?" Job 2:10

and so, i read my daily bread. the main point of the reading yday was mainly on being a student as well as a teacher in such situations. student- to learn from these bad things that happen and teacher- to show the world how u overcome it with Him.

i'm obviously not the least happy regarding the tutorials. that i was only given only 1 tutorial slot out of the 14 choices i made!!!!!!! but i am able to learn what i should do when i don't get any slots in the future, which i hope that will never happen. *prays hard* and i pray i get my remaining tutorials!! OH PLEASE LET MEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!

When i fell that day and hit my chin on my knee, i thank GOd that an orh cheh was all i got. Alvin told me last niight while waiting for winson, that his fren hit his chin on his knee, and his chin split.. meaning u could see the bone.. and the blood and all... all i could mentioned then was " THANK YOU GOD."

And i also thank God for just telling me how freaking strong i am, that i never knew. i could tahan food poisoning as well as stomach cramp, and orh chehs and shoulder aches and headaches. haha.. i'm so strong la!! NOW WHO SAID I WAS WEAK??

i feel like i found new meaning in my relationship with God. :) All glory be unto HIm. Amen.
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CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!! AHHHHHH!!! i want go shoppinG!!!!!!!

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Difficulties tend to call out great qualities.

oh btw, i dun noe if u read my blog:

i read ur blog entry and u are so totally selfish.

please la. if the person that left is ur best fren, will u not feel sad;won't you cry? and who are you to comment on what he did to chase her? you are not even him to comment. you don't knoe the whole situation and what has been going on between him and her.

Also, u kids are just so naive. things dun happen just like that. ever wondered why her family must leave? u mean u accept such explanations? all in all, although you got one of the main points right, but you totally don't know the whole picture to comment.

There's more than 1 reason to why people cry when they part.

its because its your issue with the others, i'm not bothering about arguing with you. but i'm with the duck on this one.

just my blog, my thoughts and my jaw freaking hell hurts.

i'm so easily depressed, therefore, i am depressed.

i'm gonna sleep.

stupid tutorials. :(

i'm just so evil. i dun noe how to say it.

oh. i said it already.

anyways, i thought a lot during the bus ride. and i really hate what i'm feeling. becos not only did it consume many brain cells, it made me feel evil. shucks.

i had that stupid feeling at least 3 times already with 3 diff people of 3 different characters . the first one totally put me off. completely. in retrospect, i was super evil.

the second, grew from disgust to sth completely unexpectedly different... and then to.. devastation.

the third, i just experience today.. went from good to 'urgh', back to good and then 'urgh' again.

i reallly hate this feeling. and i have no idea how to go abt getting rid of it.

sometimes, i really hate being laureen goh. simply becauses when she tries to please people instead of herself, she gets hurt. and when she pleases herself, she hurts others.

sigh.

sometmes i believe i will never be able to find it.
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i would blog abt sth else, but i noe that people affected by this incident are reading this. so i shan't say it. just that although i'm cool abt it already.. money, esp to me, doesn't come easy. i don't live a luxurious life as you think i do.

sometimes i pretend, sometimes i do it because i want to, sometimes i do it because i have no choice, and sometimes i do it because it is only right. but if you don't understand what or how the system is working or works, u seriously cannot judge a person by her appearance.. because you do not know that she's actually putting on a front.

sometimes its difficult, but i know there's a rainbow. wait till i get my sunshine.. wait till i get it; i'll show it to u, that you totally have underestimated me.

i'm not ambitious; but i defend my God.

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a frightful experience- no words can describe.

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on another note, bash was fun!! mos is huge. i love the retro and white room!! i love my hall mates!

clubbing is fun la!! dammit.



winnie and me. :D

early morning

just came back not too long ago from supper.. had a milo dinosaur and 3 mouthfuls of louis' prata. i'm proud to say that this is my first supper staying in hall (and i'm not kidding).

somehow, i'm overwhelmed with thoughts: stupid, emotional and dunno what else type of thoughts.

not sure what it is, but just everything in general. of my life, my frens, sch, and memories-beautiful and sad.

and i just had to give up reading my marketing notes becos i realised none of my IT notes went to my head. Preoccupied, thats the word.

time passes really fast, i still can't believe i'm in uni. heh. its all happening so fast and i'm getting quite afraid. i know that i've grown up a lot more as compared to 2004 and 2005- in terms of maturity and spiritually. some times i believe my brains are finally workingand that they have been dormant and stuck at the age of 12.

so i turn 20 this year. ha. how frightening. i've been on this earth to close to 2 decades. thats freaky. somehow it just seems like i just started kindergarten ydays. in my green and white kinderland uniform, waiting for the sch bus and crying my lungs out when i was pushed into the bus. i really have a strong dislike for that stupid aunty who assisted the driver in the bus, telling mother to just not worry abt me screaming and crying. (becos corn was braver than me- in terms of first day of sch) But its thanks to that sickening aunty that i learnt wat it meant to be independent.

as years go by, kinderland was bearable. and there was primary sch. i believe those years in the white, black and red building and in the blue and white uniform which i wore for half the years of y life have got to be the best ones. i started taking public transport to school in primary 6.. all the waiting at the bus stop for the bus, the running from one end to another to check which bus: 197,32 and 40 was departing first so that we can get to sch on time. the screaming of when which bus we (paulene, denise and myself) were each in charge of came first. and going to Caltex after school everyday to eat Hersheys' chocolate. ha. i was getting more independent.

and after all these years, the lessons that i learnt, the happiness that i experienced and the pain that i felt, have all been so unique to me. The fact that i'm blogging at this atrocious timing at 4.27 am in hall just goes to show how my story of independence has unfolded.

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when u put ur trust and faith in one person who u really look up to, and to find that in time to come, things change and he/she is no longer the person you know. how would you feel?

i just want to let you noe that i cried. i cried not only because i had never imagine such an outcome; i cried because i feel that you are going the wrong way and i am in no power to tell, rebuke or beg you. and all i can do is just pray and wait for God to speak to u.

But have your eyes been blinded by the things of the world? that your vision is block and you just see what you want to see instead of the real thing? i pray, and i'll keep on praying.. because i look up to you.
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Angels worship at your throne...
My Redeemer lives.

shifted back to hall le..

:) okie. gtg sleep. wanna eat breakfast tmr!

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i think my timetable this sem won't look that good.

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the early bird catches the worm.

winnie!! i love u so much!! thank u for solving my worries!! gosh!!

muacks muacks muacks muacks muacks muacks muacks muacks muacks muacks muacks muacks

ah...

another week passed. school's starting tmr. how boring. really. well.. at least we are moving back to hall.. which is another boring thing- only the moving of MANY things back and the smaller toilet and the absence of family and laur co, etc.

but oh well.. new year, new sem, new start. start to study again.. *yawn

dokies. i have yet to pack my stuff to bing back to hall.. all those bidding of mods getting me really cranky and crazy. i hope weiming doesn't kill me for my choice. i feel so guilty. but hey. its my results. then again.. only left 12 spaces. please God.. let me take it.

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today was a cold, rainy wet day. best to be at home, snuggled under my blanket.. with laur co next to me..

but oh well. gg to church is more worth and impt.

before service started, i read what i didn't read the day before.. GEn 18-20.. i think. too lazy to check la. anyways, how appropriate for me to have read the whole event of how Abraham bargained with God over righteous ppl living in Sodom and gomorrah; how Lot's family was saved and how Lot's wife looked back and turned into a pillar of salt..

i didn't really think much abt it simply because i heard this story over a million and one times. no revelation.

during the message, uncle kng yan preached abt passion.. that u will only get a deep and real passion only when u have a revelation.

later, during thr combined MKC-Youth prayer, pastor asked us abt our desires. not only that, he emphasised to press on forward, to move on, not to look back on what we have previously done, our records and memories. how appropriate was it for him to say

" in Luke... the shortest verse... and it says.. 'Remember Lot's wife'."

how appropriate.

how my heart totally just understand what made me read that oh-so-famous passage that morning.

God was speaking to me. then and there. right into my heart. i heard it.

and He said very clearly,

"Laureen, press on forward. Don't look back. Remember Lot's wife."

How wonderful God is, to know exactly what has been in my heart the past year.

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2006: a new start, a new life, a new me.
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daryl (aw), u idiot. y didn't you tell me. anyway i'm moving back to hall.. nearer to ur side; and i still have ur christmas present. ha. ok. we really haf to meet soon. haha. tell ur sis and bro i'll miss them. *sigh

yay!! we celebrated evelyn's birthday today!! hahaha

although she said she expected the card becos constance and i were caught off guard. *grumbles* but she didn't expect the cake!! yay!! haha.. i'm such a sweet fren. *smiles* keke.

anyway, evee.. hope u like the slippers. haha.. sorry man.. they didn't have yellow ones. :(

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ah! winson found sponsors!! haha.. he's soooooo zai la. he clinched UOB sponsor la.. clinched doorgifts sponsor la.. gee.. starts to feel like a 1 man team. aiyah but wth. hahaha... woots! less work for all of us! hehe. but i think we should at least find one each ba.

sometimes i think he treats us too nice till i totally dun really care abt what he thinks. hahaha. such as coming in 1 hour late for meeting. hehe.

oh wells, at least he has my respect for tolerance level. haha..

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people should really be professional by being sensitive when they do their jobs. seriously.

there's this 'tiko' in dance. i'm damn scared of him now. wth la.

sigh. we all have to run far far from him.

i actually shiver when i think of how he said it and his lecherous expression on his face. seriously, nothing can go more tiko than that.

ok. i need a "biao bao". eh. nono.. "bao biao".

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meeting dawn, myra and jan tmr!! its been 3 long years. how sad eunice can't ake it tmr. :(

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'memories are meant to be remembered, not to be lived in.'

~stephanie low.

in His time

ooh!! i forgot to add that i was on TV on the 1st!! haha.. looking ah ma, and i thought people wouldn't recognise me but 2 people already said " I SAW U ON TV!" GEE..

i blame it on qi jing's blue pants. although there's no link. but i dun care. haha

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dokie. i was thinking if i would actually see her a few days ago.. and i saw her on 31st. at BISHAN la. hahaha how SCARY la.

hmm.. i really thinks she's pretty. and i really thought they were really mfeo. i mean, ya. but gee.. she's much prettier than the current one. seriously. i rather the former's attitude, character, personality , whatever compared to the latter. and she talks to me lorrrrr.. and i can clique with her better too..AND SHE'S SO PRETTY LOORRRR.

prob its the change in mindset that caused me to not have a strong liking for her. but..

gee. no buts.

sigh. so sad.. but oh well.. it's his choice anyway. its more of who touches his heart more than who touches mine.

but i really think she's pretty. at least prettier than the other. and i rather her. ok u get my point.
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i had a dream again last night. i can't describe it. i don't know if i've been anticipating it; desprate for it; not wanting it. i totally have no idea.

the missing birds got me all in a frenzy. why?
1. sense of responsibility?
2. becos i care how he will treat me?
3. or.. because of him??

EWWWW. yucks. gross. wth.

oh goodness.. i'm quite scared. but i don't know the real reason. this is killing meeeeee.

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ok i read someone's blog. then i felt very sad all of a sudden.

ahhh shits. not that i dun haf faith; its just the waiting that is causing me to suffer from anxiety.

bah. whatever.

so if people can move on.. why can't i?

ok. my theme song for the year..

"i like to move it move it.."

ok. i'm sick. somebody help me.
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bin ling diana yina: hellu. discusiion of time tables soon, please!

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if everyday was simply a holiday; how wonderful life would be.

oh! i forgot!!

HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY EVELYN!!!

*SMILES* i really hope u had a happy day. :) oh come on.. check out ur new swatch! u better say u r happy.. hahahaha!! but i'm really happy for u la!! :D

alritey. today started off not very good. haha

i was woken up by a sharp pain in my stomach at 4 am in the morning laaaaaaa!!! fed up. went to the toilet and Lao-ed everything out. hehe.

and then again at 9 am. of which i refused to get out of bed by then, so i went back to bed, with a sms to winson that i'll be late for meeting which was at 11. hahaha..

perhaps i was boasting abt the good food i ate the day before that i kena food poisoning of a certain dimsum. i dunno. i only realised at night when i told father that i've been laoing and he too, went to the toilet for the similar cause more than 3 times. hahaha..

and while corn, mother and jo are perfectly fine. i wonder how ah kong is.

ah. see where i got my weak stomach genes from. cheh.

on my way to hall, i msged winson, telling him i was leaving house at 11. and told him i was gg to hall although i wasn't feeling very well because of his marketing meeting and if i died halfway, he better save me. of which he replied " ya, i will save u. but please reach hall safely."

oh wells.. so i reached hall at 12 45. heh. hahahahah... evelyn and winson were waiting for me la. so paiseh. but hey. i treated them chicken rice.. with winson's " ji fan jia rou" (like some carnivore) and i think the aunty who packed the chicken rice knew i was late for my meeting or sth.. she decided to punish me by giving me the packet with lots of fats, skin and bones. while the other 2 ( esp the "jia rou" wan) totally boneless.

fed up.

anyway, like as if i was in any condition to eat chicken rice, i ate less than 1/2 the pack before i threw it away. so oily. yucks.

so we started filming our MV of which i dun have much comments for because i zhao halfway, when my stomach gave me problems again..

dance later was just cleaning throut so it was quite boring yet funny. i mean how can it not be funny when u have aaron doing his mambo moves. hahaha.. and his facial expressions are so irrrritatingly irritating, haha.

so no stunts todat.. not even shoulder sit with zhen feng. because i told him i'll totally fart in his face if he couldn't make it. ahahahahaahah.. and if qi jing spinned me, i'll just vomit everything out. hehe.

so yay. managed to had a stunt-free day.

before we left hall, had a talked with puay san and constan-teeny. realised i was actually oblivious to what was gg on ard me.. hehe..

so while i took the bus home with constance, we talked abt someone else and how we all find him eye catching; while i was wondering if the opticion in harbour front was still open because i ran out of my contact lens solution.

oh just FYI, the opticion was closed la. sian.
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life's difficulties are to make one better- not bitter.

someone, remind me that please.

had such a great day today!! :D (or rather yday)

becos it was mummy's birthday, we went to eat dimsum buffet at tung lok.. in east coast! haha.. whats so funny was that chong was asking me which restaurant actually had dim sum buffet.. and i ended up eating it instead of him. haha.. :X

anyways, ah kong took a bus down to our place before father drove us all to
the restaurant. Ah kong got hp la. so hip man. hahaha.. his ringtone is the irritating ketchup song la. even more hip. oh well.. what to do. its MY ah kong ma. hahahaha...

and there we were.. eat until we all nearly burst. ah kong was the first to give up because he had breakfast before meeting us. and i was obviously 2nd. haha.. mother said i was controlling my diet. i'm like o please.

anyways, we sat there till the buffet ended. and we sent ah kong home.. proceeded to Tamp mall to watch Narnia. whats so beautiful about this movie is not the movie itself; but my whole family watching together. :) haha.. so happy lor.

Narnia is a gooood show. really.

anyways, after walking ard Tamp for a while, mother insisted we had to eat sth for dinner even though all of us were super full. haha.. so mutton soup, it was! yummy. :D

when we reached home.. we cut the Mango ice cream cake corn bought the day before. tasted great.

anyway, i'm super full now, i can puke out a cow.

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i dreamt another dream last night..

i dreamt i saw a few words beside my name on ur reflections.

i wish it were true; i wish i could just stop being a fool.

mummy

HAPPY BIRTHDAY mother Goh!! :D

i love you~ :D

becky just asked me to join daryl, dicky and herself at orchard. siao lor.. os late liao.. hahaha.. not that i actually mind la.. just that its raining now and i dun want to dress up for juat a short period of time.. wastes so much energy...

haha i just read winnie's reflections of her 2005.. so being ever so bored i shall just do mine now..

Reflections on 2005.

January: oh yes. i started work at SAA. wahaha.. quite fun. managed to earn money. increased frequencies of shopping trips. happiness level increased. esp from setbacks faced from the previous year. start of $2 lunches which only includes porridge, peanuts, luncheon meat and vegetables.

Feb: even happier when i found out my boss and her subordinate's secret. life at SAA improved tremendously. Pay for Jan came in super late. quite pissed abt it. start of wok for diana and daniel.. CNY was great. :) although it just wasn't as happy as the year before. but nvm.

march: cannot really remember much, but all i noe was i was still working, and still happy with mypay. pay kept on increasing although i kept on slacking. Results of A's released. thank GOd. :)

April: tuition kid. GEE. new experience.

May: zOO!!! :D

June: dunno la. chose uni liaoo rite? major decision. super headache.

July: finally ended work. din play very much but still.. haha.. managed to get mother's union award. woohOO!! aunty ruth and bro tim celebrated my bday hahah.. my deep red IRIVER and my adidas striped watch. bro helped me pull strings for hall. :)

Aug: a/c starts to run dry. no money liao. sch starts.. hall starts. :)

Sept: trying very hard to adapt..

Oct: Krystel's exams. major headache.

Nov: Exams.

Dec: CHINGAY. diaos. Church skit: BEautiful. :) exam results too. :D

it feels like i don't know you anymore.

sigh.

Christmas

i can sing this over and over and over again!! :)

Christmas isn't Christmas

Christmas isn't Christmas till it happens in your heart
somewhere deep inside you is where christmas really starts
so give your heart to Jesus and u'll discover when you do
that christmas, is really christmas for you

Jesus brings warmth like a winter fire
a light like a candle glow
he's waiting long to come inside
as he did so long ago

Jesus brings gifts of truth and life
and makes them bloom and grow
so welcome Him with songs of Jooooooooooooooooooooooooooooyyyyyyyyy
and when He comes, you'll know that..

Christmas isn't Christmas till it happens in your heart
somewhere deep
inside you is where christmas really starts
so give your heart to Jesus and
u'll discover when you do
that christmas, is really christmas for you!!

Merry Christmas everybody!!!! :D

i dunno

hhahahaha.. a certain person just asked me sth so funny. i felt like laughing.

u noe.. the roariing type of genuine happy- mouth-open-really-wide laugh, i always have...

but this laugh wasn't a similar one.. the question pierced right through my heart, i ended up about to cry instead.

haha.

i appreciate all u guys who would ask me to cheer up. but some things, are just not that easy to change ur mindset, not that i want to be in a pathetic state, but things are just the way it is.
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d c c,

i l u v m. i s d. i d n k i u s l m. b i w u d. w s m o w o l, s i h b a 1 y p. b b t l-s f t i a, i s j c f y. i s d g j r u f t.. i g s j, i w t b t g u. p, i j l R, i l w l; b p i n!!! i j w t l i y a o a, t f y w; t h y h b; t f u b o m n; a u r t m t y l m.

and that is all i want for Christmas. will u grant my wish?

love, Laur.

P.S/ but oh. u wouldn't understand it, would u? simply because.. i can't say it out... its illegal, its prohibited, its not allowed; its forbidden.

but i know, deep in my heart, sth will happen, some one will come, and tell me.. " it's all been a bad dream."

and i'll open my eyes, to a new day, a new chapter, a new life; and i'll embrace it with wide- opened arms, because i know.. someone is waiting; some where.. out there.. in the glorious sun, and the beautiful meadows, anticipating me with the same feelings.

i just have to wake up.. WAKE UP!!

urgh. and we wonder, why is it a chore to get out of bed.

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S C C K: I L U V M, U J D K I, n u'll nv noe it.. never..

because.. i can't make the same mistake. ever ever ever again.

Perhaps. Love.

watched "perhaps. love" yday. because stupid cinemas refuse to give pride and prej. a bigger theatre; have very rude aunties who don't understand wat "service with a smile" means; and atrocious timings.

i was strongly against watching the movie actually. but somehow, minnie won. hahaha... oh well, nvm.

so yes, i agree it was a good movie. zhou xun is a good actress. the more i watch her, the more i think she's pretty,. with longer hair, of course.
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so corn's not gg with us to shanghai... again. she didn't join us for bali last year. there are like many things i want to say. but i somehow, can't piece the sentences together. i just wish it would be the last trip she won't be coming. i like my family to do things together.
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yday, marks the end of the $8 in my atm. hahaahah... its 2 digits now. WOOHOO! and i believe it will grow.
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"Say that sentence; that comes from ur heart.

say that you love me ... all along.

Perhaps.. you loved me."

shanghai

WOOHOO!! i'm gg to fly over the skies!!

shanghai!!!!

aeroplane fOOD!! wooHOO!

so.. i'm going to spend my holidays gay dancing away. ha.

its fun.. getting flipped all over again. haha.. but yday's stunts have left me with a potential orh chech on both sides of my waist. and there's practise later..

i can conclude that gay dancing helps us to bond better. that supper at 85 on tues was really good. thank God for zeming who has the car, and drove us home. hahaah.. reached home at 1 30am, tired and drained, but still had the energy to play a gfew rounds of spider, before i slept like a pig till the next morning.

yday was horrendous. had blk comm meeting as well as sp marketing meeting. met winnie at tamp to go to hall..

marketing meeting was bad. like reaaal bad, simply becos i've not been calling people at all.. i haven't even called today yet. i simply can't be bothered i think the fact that the virus in my lappy has taken further action once again.. and i can't even log on. sucks. screwed. winson is gg to kill me.

oh well.. time to go for another gay dance.. :)

AHH

hahaha.. So.. its over. Jane is officially married to Benson. hmm.. its really very funny, yet not surprising, as to how many people have the same impression of him as me. gee.

anyways.. shots after the dinner: my official debut. hahaha

my first Bacardi Coke.

me, with a big smile

laureen and her Bacardi

and its me and the drink again!!

i finished it. ALL of it. hahahahaa.. and felt soooo hot after that. hahaha..

woohoo!! :D

KHATWEE

Tommy:

haha.. i dunno when and how u'll see this.. but i'll just be nice and post sth here for u.

oh please lor hor. haha anyway, its KHATWEE becos since ur passport does not have ur english name in it, i changed the Y to a T. unless u wanna include ur TOMMY in front, then it would be TOMMY NG KHAY WEE. if not.. NG KHAT WEE is it. yep. sounds great. hahaah.. enjoy US, U (as)S. and stop sounding like u r being forced to go and act alll pathetic la. so irritating lor u.. U S. oh ya.buy us branded stuff i dun care too!! hahaha buy B1 and B2's pyjamas. so we all can wear it. ahahahahaha

"my parents force me to go US wan la.. i don't want to go lor.."

shuddup la u. haha


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HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY LIN WEI LING!! I LOVE U MANY MANY!! :D

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exams.. are finally over. hair is finally not BLACK.

many many things to DO!! meetiing frens from everywhere.. dinners and lunches, (window) shopping, wedding to attend, move my stuff out of hall and into the lounge.. get all ready for Christmas, PLAY SPIDER. HAHAHAHAHAHA.. oh yes.. and being daphne.

exciting exciting.

but its so difficult when there's $8 (yes, still $8) in ur atm only. i think i can only drink plain water when ppl eat. hahaha.. i am so pathetic.

foodcourt, anybody?

Hairy: 1 dec.. dinner.. with diana and me?? shall we ask bennie minnie and tommy too?? and prob dinie?? hahahaha..

SHITT!!! dammIT!!

i'm like addicted to the Spider game. shit shit.. this is lie really bad.. i'm like not studying.. but playing spider.. and econs today was really bad. oh nooooooooooo...

i thought it was over.

i thought i would be brave enough.

but somehow, i was wrong. i realised my fears, yet again.

its just amazing how that picture we took, out of the other thousands that night, was perfect- in every way- even though, the background was unbelievably sucky.

but it still turned out perfect.

i think i'm confuse all over again.

i'm consoling myself.. because i know u are not the reason; but there's this nagging feeling inside of me, i can't seem to get rid of it.

yes yes. i wonder why too.

"..an immature 19 year old who just can't seem to think the way other 19 year olds can.."

hmm... i dunno..

firstly, i don't think u'll read this. but anyway,

i hope u didn't mean it.. what u said.. that day when u called and i sort of like shutted u up..

i'll catch up with u after exams!! reallYYYYYY!!!

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hmm.. its a certain "once-a-good-fren"'s birthday today. heard she's in aust. i dun really hate her. i just dislike her.. simply becos of her obsession with changing boyfrens. then again.. i dunno la.

where, o, where does true love lie?

in awe

yayyy.. 1 down. :) like finally la. haha..



it's amazing how God knows what i'm thinking. :)

immaturity

i seriously don't get it. why am i always the last to finish my exams. URgh.

ok that sounded so immature. but still... URGH.

i need a trip to do sth to my hair. i can hardly wait

then again, my atm left only $8...still. sian laaaaaaaaaaaa.

guess i'll just have to beg ard. oh! i have CNY angpao money!! :D $50 left though. hahaahahah

aiyah whatever la.. last 3 chapters of mno. GREAT.

i still have legal to worry about: anyone!! tell me!! is auction considered selling in the course of business??!!! can s 14 of SOGA apply?? anybody?? bro???

aiyah. actually i'm not as stress as compared to others la. i think actually i'm quite relaxed. prob i should have gone smu. ahhh. then again, i think i'll just die there.

ah whatever la. dunno what i'm typing also. bleah.

i need to go out. AGAIIIIIINNNN.

all of a sudden i miss my secondary sch frens- a lot. including the smelly steph and the stinky sam

KILL MEEEE.

i hate studying.

give me my holidays.

yawn

ahhhhhhh..

i think there's sth wrong with me la.. i decided to sleep early yday. but after trying to study.. or rather reading up for lecture later.. i went to bed at 12 30. thinking how fresh and ready for breakfast i was gg to be the next day. HOWEVER, i couldn't get to sleep la!!!! like !!!!! i cannot sleep?! like wth. gee.. it was damn bad that i got so frustrated with myself, got up and read my econs notes abt game theory, of which i got a headache theeafter, and managed to sleep. haha.. i think the headache was due to the sitting position, and leaning my head on my red ikea pillow rather than the wall, so it was uncomfortable.

anyways, i struggled out of bed at 8 40 today, just to go down to get breakfast. haha.. breakfast seems to be getting quite bleahk already..

anyways, i really thank God i was in SA for my first 3 months... haha.. at least i can consider those older Saints as my seniors...

we were suppose to hand in our SS Assignment yday and this sr from my hall asked me to help him with it by letting me show him my asignment. the assignment was about listing 10 questions to some general during ww2. and so i showed him.and wth. he actually criticised my work la. i'm like how nice, sharing with u wat i did, and u just criticise it? like HGFJTRDTRDJYGKUHY u. uRGH!! prob i noe i really am that lousy, but it doesn't qualify u to criticise me, after all i really spent my heart on it la ok. i tried reading all the cheem cheem readings and all.. and its blardy history la ok. eeeeeediot. ass.

he totally destroyed my whole mood during the whole lecture. so pissed. not because i'm sensitive here.. but it really sucks to hear such things abt ur work when u put effort into it.

i was gg down the steps of the LT, thinking of saying a good bye to my frens, both from SA, the girl from my tut class, and the guy from my legal group, who were like chao enthu sitting right in front of the lect today which is like so not them. anyway, i didn't bother, because i didn't have the mood. but ivan called my name, asked me to wait up while he walked together with me. while complaining to him, he said is a very loud voice, "WHERE'S ALEX? dare to bully my junior.. LET'S GO FIND HIM NOW!" haha.. he made me laugh. haha.. because he's so skinny and he's anyhow-ing away. haha..

anyways, ivan gave me a lift back to hall from the LT (its far) and before i left, said again "WHERE's ALEX??" haha.. sounds damn childish, but i think he made me feel happier. haha..

thanks ivan, sheena n another SA sr who was there..

late for MNO!! bubye!!

i really had a weird dream today.. u were in it.. i'm having mixed feelings..somehow, i wished it for another reason, then again, that was more than enough. but will we ever get to experience it for the right reason? perhaps yes, perhaps not.

i am a raindrop.

i. am. a. raindrop.

:D

i was talking to winnie darling who lives opp me while standing at our own doorway a few min ago, and we both decided to blog this revelation down. :D

while walking to the toilet to brush our teeth, i told winnie "eh. i love ur blogskin"

of which, we started talking abt her analogy of rain as blessings from God.. and then we started talking abt her phrase "me in a raindrop" instead of "me in a nutshell". so i decided to show off some of my geog intellect by saying "do you know that a raindrop is made up of dust..??" and the condensation nuclei and sorts. (mr chen's gg to be really proud of me! :D)

so while both of us were in the midst of brushing our teeth, and when delphia entered the toilet with the intention of peeing, winnie exclaimed,

"we are also made out of dust!!"

"..and dust attracts water!!"

and both our eyes grew really wide. and we started saying really loud.

"we are raindrops because we attract blessing which is water!!" (Psalm 23:6)

revelation.. and just a few seconds ago...

Princess Winz - i love the rain and cooling weather. i miss the beach!! says:
laureen\
Princess Winz - i love the rain and cooling weather. i miss the beach!! says:
i got somemore revelation
Princess Winz - i love the rain and cooling weather. i miss the beach!! says:
hahaha
laur: Who compares to You? says:
wah
laur: Who compares to You? says:
on the roll man
laur: Who compares to You? says:
hahaha
laur: Who compares to You? says:
wat wat wat
Princess Winz - i love the rain and cooling weather. i miss the beach!! says:
dust ( we) + water vapour ( water =life) = Raindrop ( rain = blessing)
Princess Winz - i love the rain and cooling weather. i miss the beach!! says:
therefore we are given life by God to become a blessing
Princess Winz - i love the rain and cooling weather. i miss the beach!! says:
wahahaha....
Princess Winz - i love the rain and cooling weather. i miss the beach!! says:
i am a blessing!
Princess Winz - i love the rain and cooling weather. i miss the beach!! says:
so are you

if its anything i thank God the most for in Sheares, its a sister in Christ who stays opp me. :)

i love winnie.

..and of course my other neighbours who take care of me, esp the one with the toothache living in 512. hope u feeling better u lemonny connie.

get well soon connie bonnie!!

i just want to lie in your arms, let the world pass me by and let ur love overflow in me.

i cluubbeed. hahahaahha in Blk A's lounge. (in other words, i went lounge-ing)

hhmmm... not that it is a bad thing. just that its quite loserfied. hahaahah.. but its ok. i love the company. i love my seniors. haha.. bona is just ultimately hilarious. serious. hahaha.. and i stil think hairy bro looks like him.. some how la.. dunno where look like also.. just some how.. haha..

hmmm.. on another note. my friend's mother passed away this morning. i hope he's taking it fine.. sigh. sometimes we will only know how to treasure relationships when it happens to others or urself.. when will we ever learn without such unfortunate things happening to us...

hey diana, bin, ling and yi na.. i miss our mj days. no matter how sucky life was then, i dun think i will ever survive it without u all.. and mr fangs. (is he with me ah?? or is he in bin's pencil box??)

and so... life moves on..

to live is Christ, to die is gain. philipians 1 :21

just one of the many many

my watch endorsement photo.

hahah.. just one of the many many.. hahahaha

communication problems

i'm happy to noe the reason wasn't me. although i still think i doubt u- a lil. life just has to be as complicating as it is, i guess.

OH well.

lately, i realise i have a serious communication problem. not that i'm hostile or aloof, just that i can't seem to carry on conversations with a certain group of people. it is also not that i need to gain their favour or what not, but i realise that i can't seem to get along very well with them. probably its because of my 10 years upbringing in a girl's school that i'm not expose to certain circumstances,but i really wonder how the rest does it, so easily in fact. by their behaviour, their words, their topics of conversation. i can't seem to handle it. i mean, ya.. there is an exception to some.. who bother to reciprocate the conversation: its either they are friendly, or they know i'm trying hard to make them laugh and to feel comfortable with me.

it was evident in JC.. and much more now.

i underestimated 'my sense of propriety'. and i think u underestimated it too.

afterall, i am a convent girl.

but somehow, i dun behave like the rest. i behave the conventional way- and that is something thought provoking.

hmmm. why do i behave like this?

Dear GOd..

i wanted to sleep.. but i just had to blog this down..

A certain goood fren who i had not spoken to for a lonnng time msged me yday.. He said he needed some one to talk to. and so i told him to call me.. and when i heard his voice, i knew sth was wrong..

the fact that his mother's days are numbered.. and she's lying in hospital now.. and each time that she's awake,she screams in pain. she couldn't even recognise her husband.. my heart just dropped, as tears stream down my face.

then and there.. i really realise how important my family members are to me.. and how important faith is needed to keep one going. the issue here is not 'Why God allow such things to happen' but rather, it is how we get through this with Him. Since all that works out is for good.. and everything is happening in His timing.

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love
him, who have been called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28

have u hug ur daddy and mummy today?? go and give them one and tell them u love them.

sometimes, i wish i can just spend all my days singing and worshiping u.. so that i'll be stronger in ur word and be a blessing to others. i wish we didn't haf to do go thu wat we are gg thru now, but to live in ur presence, and just proclaiming ur name and shouting ur fame. ..

omg omg omg!!

omgomgomgomgomgomgomg.

i had a photoshoot today!!

i felt like a model.

wahaha.

i can't wait for the photos to be out tmr!! aww maaaaaannnn....

this is killing me. hahaha..

oh gee. i really love my aunty ruth. she always has the best lobangs. hmm..

*thinks.

actually its kiat's. but ahhh.. who cares. i love aunty ruth (and kiat)..

i pray the photos will come out niceeeee...

omgomgomgomgomgomgomg.

shits. stats project is sooooooooooo dead.

dead. tired.

God's will.

i thought i could finally go clubbing on thursday with the hall peeps.

BUT. i just had to fall sick.

there's this little instruction which is the last line at the medicine tag thingy..

"Avoid alcohol"

SO SAD la.

feeling quite miserable- can't make up my mind if i'm hot or cold.

so manny deadlinesss... test this thurssssssssssssss.

traveling to teach krystel..

bleah.

ahhhh.

i'm sick. i caught the flu bug.

for wat rite.

rather catch butterflies.

then again.

butterflies are bugs.

ok. i'll catch birds then.

"i survived one year w/o u... honestly.. it hurts."

evil thoughts

running thru my head.

i shouldn't be thinking of such things. that is wrong.

pure hypocritism.

but i cannot stand him/her anymore!!!!

Dear God.. give me strength.

i remember typing that blogging is gg to be frequent a few weeks back.

ha.

oh well.. life at the moment is quite crazy. and me, getting more indolent by the day, rather choose lying on the bed with eyes closed than sitting on this hard blue chair to blog. (although i heard KR's chairs are worse)

i hate legal. have i said that before? hmm.

been feeling like some caged bird ( or hamster) recently. the ironic part is that its not a 'master' who locked the door of my cage but rather, me, myself and i (the bird or the hamster in me) who willingly took that bunch of keys and lock myself in- willingly or hypnotised, i'm not sure. i feel stuck here. as in life revolves ard this hilly place.. i eat, sleep, shit here for like 5/7 of the week. i hardly contatcted the outside world. (but at least i knew bali was bombed again- my heart aches for them.) and the remaining 2 days that i try to get back my life to normal, with laur co next to me, are spent travelling to krystel's house, teaching jo and to church.

oh gee. i'm starting to contradict myself.. i mean i wanted to stay in hall really badly. and i treasuer my friendships and all that i made here. the rag and the cheerleading times.. but some how, it seems to demand so much from me that i'm getting so irritated. ah. i haven't started to done up the treasury book.

i perfectly understand why one needs and wants a physical somebody of the opposite sex. becos it is that person that he/she seek solace and comfort. he/she feels wanted and important. he/she feels that life is all to live for and wonderful. that life is perfect and carefree. that he/she can exchange the stress and the unhappiness for the love and the warmth a wide-opened arms offer.i understand why they need to have that feeling.

becos at this point in time, i need to feel that too.

not that i'm in self depression mode, i just had this sudden bout of loneliness. so ya i'll be fine la.

wats more pressurising at the moment: i'm getting fat. bleaaaaahhhh... while everybody else is getting thinner. this sucks man. not been exercising though.. sian.

i miss my jc days. i miss you, you, you, you and.. erm.. you.

oh! i got my red striped converse sneakers. :) need to add stuff to my wishlist soon. haha

weiseong asked me if i wanted to go clubbing. hahaah.. hilarious, but sweet. and i can't believe his gf was jealous of me. like wth. eww. nono.

i.want.to.dye.my.hair.again. i mean, come on. have u seen sam lo lately. wth.

and wth. i'm just typing watever thats coming to my mind.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. bin. diana. anybody. drive me ard.

i miss father, mother, corn, jo, gema, mess.

why do i always get stuck in dungeons?

buaya week has started. :)

hahahah..

pretty boy only works at night.. and he's quite low profile.. he doesn't do fanciful things. which is quite boring, actually. erm.. oops

hhahahah

anyways, yesterday morning..he left me an incomplete puzzle, and a CD with the song titles he incorporated into a letter at my front door. sweet. haha..

however, the CD cannot play the songs la.. so sad.. :( but the CD is really cute.. :)

so no word from pretty boy till this morning.. a dozen straw stars supported by a satay stick in a small bottle.. a dozen tiny purple blue stars, a ring and a potpurri of which is hung at my door, with a note to apologise about "the failed attempt to touch me heart" haha.. its nice to be buaya-ed.

and as for my buayee.. hahaha.. his name is everywhere on level 2. haha.. wasted tons of paper.. till i resorted to using magazine paper. haha.. he reciprocated with a chocolate cheese cake that tasted fantastically good. i thought it was from my buaya actually. :( but oh well.. my buayee is hot. haha.. and so is his girlfren. hahhahahahah...

so anyways, as ppl confess their love to each other thru posters on the walls.. in the lifts.., it somehow makes me wonder how many of us actually have this feeling: that we secretly wish this will carry on after buaya week...

janet, sijie and gladys are soooooo lucky!

stats class.

out.

he screamed at me when he didn't even discuss the details properly. wth.

ok. prob i was naggy. i admit, and i'm sorry. but it hurt when he said that

"biz ppl do la.. do..talk so much for what. come here nv do anything only nag."

wth. i went to support my FATHER. not went out with some hot dude. URGH.

u didn't even discuss properly and make ur idea clear to everyone,and u want to go ahead and do it? i mean.. even if i didn't sleep for 40 hours i wouldn't be that insensitive. i would just go hyperly crazy and laugh at everything, lest think straight.

i couldn't stand it when he belittled others who didn't get his idea. he screams " use ur brrraaaiiinnn.." wth. there are ppl who are that insensitive.

furthermore, u screamed at me when i know i was doing it right. i KNOW what i was doing. all i wanted to do was to extend the string at the end so it will be easy to pull but nooooooo.. u made fun of me. and redid it. wth.

there was tension after that between the both of us.. everybody saw it.. i was so pissed and so was he. prob ppl thought i was the one who is at fault. but seriously, u shouldn't just go ahead and do what u think its right without everybody knowing what is gg on. i don't like it.

SAPP!!!!

seriously. ARGH!!

i'm totally disgusted with his actions today. like totally. thank God win was on my side. like seriously. thanks girl. :)

important notes to success in groupwork:

-NEVER EVER EVER look down on others.

-make ur bloody idea clear to everybody. even if it takes centuries to do it.

somehow, i dun think i like u very much anymore.

remember the words of those elderly ppl who once said A levels are done, uni will just be a breeze?

ha.

what liars.

goodness.. its only been the first few weeks of school and i'm already stressed up!! probably becos its hall.. really involved in hall: all the IBG events- including track, nball and cheerleading; a capella auditions; block comm stuff... that probably explains why i'm so tired these days. hardly get to go home to sleep on weekends. there's krystel and jo mo mo to teach.. and i still have to 'teach' yours truly also.

true, uni time table is really cool. haaha.. i have an average of 3 hours of school a day. thats really cool. haha.. and Friday's lect is webcast. even more cool. dun need to get up for lects on friday. which means i can be considered to haf a 4 day week. :)

oh well. i must say i miss my friends esp my jie meis.. haha.. (not becos ling asked me to dedicate it to them) as in all those gossips in the canteen during lunch, the constant complains and whining of certain teachers and PE, and of course waiting for each other to do our business finish in the toilet. those were the days. oh and i really miss diana n ling ling.. quite badly..

met many ppl that i know a few years back.. from kindergarten (yes, kindergarten.) to JC.. weird how they all turn out. all the slangs that were never there, just seem to look as if they were speaking in this way for their whole 19 years of life. bimbotic slangs. but hey, i remember how u spoke last time mans. me remembers. very clearly, in fact. Hmmm. change change change.. people do change.

hmm... uni is filed with people from everywhere.. esp ppl from the top JCs. somehow i just feel so intimidated by them, i feel i can't keep up with them. hmm.. shouldn't feel that way, i guess.. but when some guy- who is my good fren- asks u abt how u did for A's and u tell him in a voice that just shows how proud u are of ur achievements, because u know u worked so hard for such results and u certainly know that it was also a miracle despite the difficult emotional situation i was in, in that point in time.. he just looks blankly at u and say " huh? like that u so happy already ah?"

SaPP! ( a word i learnt from management class)

its not that i habour any hard feelings towards him (its really hard to, actually).. just that it hit me hard then and there, that i really need to work doubly, or 'triple-ly', hard to be on par with them.

face it. i'm not initially clever to begin with. i dun haf the genes of parents who are both doctors, or lawyers or one of each or whatever... gets so irritating soometimes when u talk to children of such genes.

but one thing i know and i claim,

if my God is for me, who can be against me?

yup, u r right.

NONE.

laureen, jia you!!

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hey bro.. are u reading this? just wanted to say i miss you. :)

hope u r doing fine!! not sure if i should leavea comment at u-noe-where, becos perhaps u-noe-who doesn't knoe i view it.. i dunno.. so i thought i shan't be rude and anyhow leave my 'footprints'. haha..

anyways.. let me tell u how stressful law class isssss!! goodness.. i hate it. biz law really sucks. interesting, yes. but the ppl there are like.. woh. shooting questions like crazy and i feel so intimidated. :( dunno why also. but i also got ask questions la.. stupid ones. hahaha.. but today i was the first one to shoot my hand up reeeaallly high and answered what b0na fide is. aren't u just proud of ur lil sister. hahahaa...

furthermore, i only managed to get my lappy today.. so all those cases.. gee.. i seriously haf no idea whatever the lecturer is teaching. that lexis place... haha like.. where? huh? what?

but i leant sth: biz law class- u dun go there and learn. u learn, go there and flaunt it. (thank God i didn't go SMU- think i'll faint and die)

my respect for u has thus increase to another level. u lawyers are crazy. crazily clever.

oh.. yes. i've really got so much to tell u.. all these crazy hall events i'm in.. haha.. cheerleading is really fun!! hahahah.. just that u feel very 'touched' at the end f the whole session thingy. hahaha..

yea. i miss you. and i shall go sleep le.. laureen's tired. very tired.. nitey bro. seet dreams. :)

no points for guessing WHERE and WHO'S laptop i'm using.

like no points at all..

blogging is gg to be frequent!!

woohoO!! laureen has a new toy!!

lalala.. who misses me?? hahahah

happy national day!!

fireworks!! *squeals

ah. just got back from hall camp. :) hall is sooo freaking fun. esp my block!!

haha.. words cannot describe how fun the camp has been.. and the frens i made. haha.. oh well.

although my room is like a pigeon hole.. and i haf yet to wash my clothes myself.. haha... oh well.. oops. dun luagh. soon lor. i learn how to use already ok. haha

guess i wun be blogging anytime soon.. until i get my lap top :) sou guys just wait for me to blog again ba. :)

btw, i got into rag dance for sheares!! hahahaa.. ya.. me? dance? u heard that right. whether or not i survive a not is a different thing ba,. haha. 6th aug- laureen goes dancing :D

kbox and nydc dinner tmr before gg back to hall!! woohoo!!

Melvin gave me a book for my 15th birthday. found that book whiile father did some renovations to my room. haha.. filled with dust bunnies. (oops.)

remembered trying to read this birthday present. read it but it didn't register in my mind. so i picked the book up from that shelf, dusted off those bunnies, and started reading it yday.

The Quest For Character- Charles R. Swindoll

The quest for character requires that certain things be kept IN the heart as kept FROM the heart. An unguarded heart spells disaster. A well guarded heart means survival. If u hope to survive the jungle, overcoming each treacherous attack, you'll have to guard ur heart.

just a paragraph; a thought- meaningful one; a fact; a warning.

Are you guarding ur heart?

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hostel. arguement. family. torn. selfish? deprive? understand? money?

I'm clinging on to U. i'm not sure if what i'm doing is right. but if u bring me to it, U'll bring me thru it. its not much of wanting to do things my way, but the way to do what u want me to do.

i had a great day today! ahha. went to trim the ends of my hair.. and did some window shopping.

and i paid for a ZARA top. hahahahahah..

just realise that after i stopped working i nv blog anymore. HMM... hahahaha...

i'm getting the bin syndrome. oh no!!!

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call me Jay.

WAHAHAHAHAHA

did i tell u?

how wonderful life is without working? (lets not talk abt the money part)

haha.. k box with ling and bin today! so cool. hahaha.. we should really do it more often and i shall attempt to listen to more jay chou and sun yan zi songs. so i can sing chinese. hahaah

oh well. did i also tell u?? my colleagues got me a purple crumpler bag! :D hahaha.. there weren't any red in that design. so sad lor!! when i told the guy they should haf it in red, he told me. "aiyah.. its sth different. there has always been red in all the designs! so boring" and i was thinking "so stupid. y i want to buy that time nv produce." anyway it costs $139. michelle say she collected $140. just nice. hahaah really bless. definitely gg back to work there during vacation. and pray i wun dread it. i dun think i will la.

went for that concert thingy with daryl today. gee. sat behind this whole group of ACJC kids. who kept turning ard and say " daryl!!"

whatever.

anyway, glad i'm out of JC. haha aren't u guys?

the place where we were at had no reception. prob its already a known fact, but i'm sorry.. as sua ku as i am, that was my first concert at the esplanade. haha. i de ja vu-ed there though. so anyway when there was finally reception ( after the concert finished and after daryl collected his bags while i received more stares from his juniors), there was this unknown number who called me.. so i msged that person.. anddd it was this guy from Sheares Hall. haha..

did i mention to u i got in sheares? obviously with the help from bro. (thanks bro!! :D)

he told me a whole lot of info i can't really remember.. hafta call him again. haha.. so anyway guess what!! looks like i'll be gg for a camp after alL!! how cool how cool how cool. the camp is a week long! i know God will answer my prayer when i complained to him that night.. :) thanks God. :)

oh and i haf to like check in next week or sth.. so fast. i'm so scared. i better learn how to wash my clothes tmr!! AHHH.. hahaha.. see.. disadvantages of being a princess. tsk tsk. terrible.

so haf a big reading date with the other daryl from AC too tmr. i can't wait!!

me at the counter acting professional.



michelle (her drumlet), the Pooh and me




michelle, uncle benny and me. yes. uncle benny's 'ears' are the vitamin C i bought for him as his eyes, they are ferrero rocheh.



yani and meee



uncle benny looking totally spastic



what can i say? its uncle benny. all he needs are ears, and he looks like a donkey.



the web page i face everyday. (notice the yahoo mail and msn at the task bar.....



the couple (tricia and michael) & me. i sit at the table behind.



wendy, me and Judy.( i still think Judy looks sooo oriental!)



esther and me. esther has very big eyes.. dunno why here not as big. haah



eileen, the bookmark and me. michelle say we look alike. do we??



lynn and me.



uncle benny, me and fendi!!




yani, dana( my first fren there!!) and me



a group photowith the pizzas and w/o me. the one sitting down is prema. (no comments)



the dinner at coffee club (SEE HUI LING!!)



and my last pic with fendi!! yay!!!

Uncle theodore reminds me of mr yeo.

period.

Congratulations laureen, you are...

mr brown of www.mrbrown.com

Like that ad for Toys 'R Us, you are that kid who doesn't want to grow up. Except you do. And now you're just a big overgrown kid who doesn't want grow up. You have a warped yet addictive sense of humour. It takes skills to poke fun at serious things and you have no problems doing that. Your peers look up to you and yet you're humble about everything. You are an infantile.

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UNCLE THEODORE! hahahahahahahaah...

i alighted at Aljunid Mrt with a sense of excitement and anxiety on 21st Dec 2004, and a different sense of excitement filled my senses today as i alighted the train and walked the familiar route i took the past 6 months and 23 days, to the office.

during this whole period, the excitement that i had at first seem to wear away as stacks of sickening enrolment forms keep coming in. it was freaking boring. i started out sitting next to the manager, and that kept me literally on my toes. i had a hard time esp after lunch. but God helped me thru it. :)

diana and daniel came.

daniel left

hailing came

diana left

daniel came back

daniel left

grace came

grace left

wu di came

hailing left

wu di left

i thank God for the heaps of boxes that filled up the space i was sitting at. i was being moved to sit opposite fendi. and that was a start of a frenship. haha.. (with all those quizes we shared to kill time.

the pay cheque that i waited eons before i received it. on how i survived 20 days with only $5 in my atm. the constant grumblin and silent cursing i muttered under my breath everyday before my pay cheque came. and when it came, halluelujah. Thank u God.

sth crucial happened on valentine's day. and i gained not just a boss and a colleague relationship, but 2 frens.

when hui ling left, a malay colleague took her place. and oh boy. was i lucky to have her. gone were the days where i thought i would have to lunch alone again. munching on xiao man tous almost everyday and $2 porridges before yani came. running ard the office and sticking my face on the glass door to attract attention mainly to uncle benny to press the dumb button so i can go in, the slacking of blogging and msging and frenstering while doing online forms..

and now thinking of all these, i'm certain i grew: grew more independent, more sensible, more self reliant. and oh. not forgeting growing to become a big spender. becos i'm broke, again.

and another chapter of my life has close.

its my last day of work!! WOOHOO!!!

was surfing thru frenster just now.. weiseong has a really cute fren by the name of marcus. haha.. i think he's cute. haah.. so i "read more" abt him and apparently they were from the same sec sch. which means same sch as corn.. haha.. so i e-mailed corn and ask her.. and she said thats the guy who sat next to her in class! hahaah.. oh sheesh.

gonna have pizza for lunch later!! their treat! woohoo!!

i'm happy. :D

they are actually going to buy me pizza for lunch tmr!

apparently, its the tradition if someone in the office leaves. i'm like the only temp staff they give so much recognition to!!

then again i worked here for 6 months plus. HEY. i deserve it. and oh.. not forgetting the red crumpler bag michelle promise..

am i lucky or am i lucky. :D

ok. i'm coming back to work here once there's school vacation. hahaha..

1.5 days lefffffffffffffft!!!! :D :D :D

thursday- k box with jie mei, concert with daryl aw.
friday- reading book date with daryl li
(whats with all the daryls rite? i also dunno.)
saturday- baptism event
sunday- farewell lunch for erim sim..

talking abt erin.. she's the KC girl i've seen ard in school but have never spoken a word in 10 years. only to haf so much fun and laughter during the 11th year of seeing her ard in mj. the tortuorous training that cused us to all develop stomach aches due to the laughing (esp when elsa, erin and i were in a team); the election of our darling erin into the nball comm so as to give the slackers a voice in the CCa; the stupid jokes we say, criticsof other ppl and not forgetting our cheerleading formation has made nball so much more fun than just running round that dumb track and court, and catching and throwing of the darn ball. (not forgetting the scolding we received when we went marche to eat and got back late..and the HUGE scolding we got from our "dearest" coach. (EEEEEE)..HAHAHA)

after 7 months, we are finally meeting again (i.e "the netball slackers"- elsa, shu yun, erin, joleen and myself), and it will be our last.. before erin come back.. i'm soooooooooooooooo going to miss erin. sigh.

somebody just said sth to me and it really hurt.

somebody who is close to me.

somebody who doesn't understand what i'm facing.

somebody who always thinks he/she is right.

i dun want to go uni anymore. its causing me a hell lot of trouble.

if i could only run away.

ah.. freak. i forgot what i wanted to blog.

*grumbles*

oh. haha 6 more days. :D which means.. erm.. 3 more working days!! haha..

wun be coming to work tmr. having bday party tmr. and shoppinG!! but most prob its the type where ur eyes can only feast.

hmmmmmmmmmmm. work till really late tonite. sians.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAIRY BRO!!

yellow for reggie the duckie. hahahahaha... :D

awwww.... when will that be? hmmm....

When you love someone so deeply
They become your life
It's easy to succumb to overwhelming fears inside
Blindly I imaged I could
Keep you under glass
Now I understand to hold you
I must open my hands
And watch you rise

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sunIf you should return to me
We truly were ment to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

I have learned that beauty
Has to flourish in the light
Wild horses run unbridled
Or their spirit dies
You have given me the courage
To be all that I can
And truly feel your heart will
Lead you back to me when you're
Ready to land

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were ment to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

I can't pretend these tears
Aren't over flowing steadily
I can't prevent this hurt from
Almost overtaking me
But will stand and say goodbye
For you'll never be mine
Until you know the way it feels to fly

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sunIf you should return to me
We truly were ment to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sunIf you should return to me
We truly were ment to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly
So flutter through the sky
Butterfly
Spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

hmm. i'm so bored at work. today productivity level is the lowest. yday productivitty freking hiGH! finish half a file man. so impress with myself.

anyways, very bored.

bleah.

i should be in one of the NUS camps now actually. but nvm.. wun want to do what God doesn't want me to do. so yea. just haf to think of ways to make more frens. hahaaha...

sleppy and so full. had $1.90 nasi lemak for lunch. yea. cheaper than my porridges. hahahaha

porridges.. geddit geddit?? hahaha.. oh nvm.

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yea. bored.

just us. :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NE!!!!!!! :D

INITIAL D is way cool.

jay chou looks really good in the show. haha.. yesssss... its coming from me... haha. he looks good in the movie becos of his character. i think his character is sooo sweet... just that he lacks initiative. and it just reminds me of a certain somebody...

oh well....

memories.

if the bloody freaking camp is bloody freaking full. can u bloody freaking just remove the @#$&*@!$#$& registration form off the ur bloody net.

stupid idiots with no common sense. make ppl happy for nothing. bloody hell.

damn pissed la!!!!!!!!!!!

no camps=lesser friends. damn.
:(

and bro's on his way to perth........

You cannot dream yourself into a character; you must hammer and forge yourself one.
James A. Froude (1818 - 1894)

hellooo. :D

din go to work yday. haha.. thats why u didn't see me online. life's good without working.

managed to push front my last day or work. 13th July. i so can't wait. haha..
13th becos, 14th we are finally gg sentosa. so i guess i shall start losing the tummy i developed over the past few days after dance class. haha then it'll be perfect for 14th. haha.. but i dun think its possible. me and my itchy mouth.

listening to my IRIVER now... ahhh.. i'm so in love with it. keke

fendi admitted missing me from work yday. haha becos i promised him i'll bring my baby (my H10) to show him yday. but i din appear. haha.. imagine how loud he shouted my name this morning when he saw me. haha.. :P maan. feels good to be missed. haha

anyways, while he was just leaving his fingerprints all over my beautiful, wendy came along and got so excited as well. ahahahha.. gee. anyway, she promised to share with me her songs. yes. euphemism for er.. u noe.

yep. 30th.. thats hui qing's bday. happy birthday girl!! although i dun think u see this. and i can't msg u happy bday becos i lost ur contact in erm.. the swimming pool.

and 30th- pass up time sheet day. :D yay. haha.. its the last time sheet of a full month.

Dear God.. let father close the deals..

prob later.