i remember typing that blogging is gg to be frequent a few weeks back.

ha.

oh well.. life at the moment is quite crazy. and me, getting more indolent by the day, rather choose lying on the bed with eyes closed than sitting on this hard blue chair to blog. (although i heard KR's chairs are worse)

i hate legal. have i said that before? hmm.

been feeling like some caged bird ( or hamster) recently. the ironic part is that its not a 'master' who locked the door of my cage but rather, me, myself and i (the bird or the hamster in me) who willingly took that bunch of keys and lock myself in- willingly or hypnotised, i'm not sure. i feel stuck here. as in life revolves ard this hilly place.. i eat, sleep, shit here for like 5/7 of the week. i hardly contatcted the outside world. (but at least i knew bali was bombed again- my heart aches for them.) and the remaining 2 days that i try to get back my life to normal, with laur co next to me, are spent travelling to krystel's house, teaching jo and to church.

oh gee. i'm starting to contradict myself.. i mean i wanted to stay in hall really badly. and i treasuer my friendships and all that i made here. the rag and the cheerleading times.. but some how, it seems to demand so much from me that i'm getting so irritated. ah. i haven't started to done up the treasury book.

i perfectly understand why one needs and wants a physical somebody of the opposite sex. becos it is that person that he/she seek solace and comfort. he/she feels wanted and important. he/she feels that life is all to live for and wonderful. that life is perfect and carefree. that he/she can exchange the stress and the unhappiness for the love and the warmth a wide-opened arms offer.i understand why they need to have that feeling.

becos at this point in time, i need to feel that too.

not that i'm in self depression mode, i just had this sudden bout of loneliness. so ya i'll be fine la.

wats more pressurising at the moment: i'm getting fat. bleaaaaahhhh... while everybody else is getting thinner. this sucks man. not been exercising though.. sian.

i miss my jc days. i miss you, you, you, you and.. erm.. you.

oh! i got my red striped converse sneakers. :) need to add stuff to my wishlist soon. haha

weiseong asked me if i wanted to go clubbing. hahaah.. hilarious, but sweet. and i can't believe his gf was jealous of me. like wth. eww. nono.

i.want.to.dye.my.hair.again. i mean, come on. have u seen sam lo lately. wth.

and wth. i'm just typing watever thats coming to my mind.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. bin. diana. anybody. drive me ard.

i miss father, mother, corn, jo, gema, mess.

why do i always get stuck in dungeons?