wish list..... up! look on left. =)

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17....16.....15... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

missing him

if u keep checking ur phone for smses, even if ur phone doesn't ring. and everytime the phone rings u just repeat his name over and over and over again and sighs when its not him, u sigh.

if u keep thinking if u're getting irritating by msg-ing him, and keep telling urself to not feel this way, to just treat it as if its nothing..

if u just want to see him right now..

- thats when u noe u've fallen into the pit.

home sweet home. =)

not as sweet as i thought it would be actually. sigh. heavy rain the other day, it seems. and the roof leaked. again. not one, not two, but 3 holes!!! ARGH. pissed me off.

so yea. father changed my room lay out, yet again. sigh. and i have to repack all my stuff- in my whole room.=( SO BORING LA.

hmm.. so yea, finished my exams before the rest but i think i quite screwed it, but heck la. i'll study harder next sem. heh.

so i started packing my stuff from hall back home yday. quite sad while doing it. seems like as if i wun be coming back hall at all anymore.. father gave me his word yday, that i can come back the following sem!! yay!! =) yea. u guys heard it here first. hahaah...

so yea.. a date with aunty tmr- need a hair change =) i can hardly wait.

its not really that exciting actually to finish exams first. everybody hasn't!! hai.. waiting waiting..

spent my entire day at home today. it's been one month since i stepped in the house. home gfeels good. mother cooked a lot for dinner just now. =) hehe. feel loved. yay.
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sometimes its hard to strike a balance between ur self gains and ur fren's. because you will never know what they are thinking.

hey dude: i miss you. =)

i DIed.

i died in that fna paper.

i totally died.

sigh. at least serene thinks its the "mother of all papers"

i pray that it is and i'm not one of those in the lefties. oh God.. please, no..

oh well.. can't do much now too anyway. i just don't want to do that module again.

can't imagine. i knew i wouldn't cry after the paper. the feeling wasn't there- to cry, that is. but it was near to that limit, i noe. and how did i know?

well, we were watching tv a few min ago, and then the tyrailer of crimewatch came up, it was abt that serial rapist who didn't even let a 69 yr old lady off!! that was all that was needed for me to start crying.

i

was

so

tramautised!!


GaWD!! evil creatures, men are! :(

lets all sigh together.

its sickening when u noe u studied everything abt it, but still not prepared for the exam. because its as if u nv studied anything about it at all! that is so frustrating and i am hence, frustrated.

don't know if i had plan it right, i definitely like the idea of finishing things all at one go, and not having to bother abt it again. (father-trained) but its so sickening to study all at one time. this is crazy. its not like A levels where everything is asked more or less abt the same thing and u have 2 blardy years to revise. this is in wat 12 weeks. dammit. but i'm not complaining (ya rite); uni life is great.

i promise to do better next sem. i think this sem buang already laa.

its not that i want to be pessimistic. i know i wun die, as how as i've been claiming i would like 24/7. and i know that all things work for the good of those who love Him. but i guess i'm just easily influenced by how others feel. aiyah. sian.

i just hope that more than half of ppl taking fna paper this mon is feeling worse than me. i really hope they feel like that.

its so weird how much interest i have for sth, but i just simply can't do well in it. hai. (i think this is the 9834878347278499265433rd time i sighed today)

i can't wait for wed.
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thanks for the tea. thats the first time i really felt happy today! =)

happy 23rd birthday corny-moo-a-moo-a-moo-a-moooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo....

=)

i'm so full from dinner.. i can puke out a cow.

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and so, the coutdown starts. 30..29..28......

we were the reason

i finally found the reason for living
its in giving every part of my heart to Him
everything that i do, every word that i say
i'll be giving my all just for Him..

we were the reason that He gave His life
We were the reason that He suffered and died
for a world that was lost
He gave all that he could
to show us the reason to live.

and so i pray.. for a guy who will love God more than me.

i pray for understanding and wisdom and i pray against temptation. i pray for your commitment, i pray for ypur relationship with Him.

i love you.. if you love Him.

and i pray.. and i pray...
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happy 16th, mentoss. =)
happy early 20th, chong chong. =)
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thank you, Jesus, for taking my place on the cross..

random

ok this is going to be random.

i think guys in collared tees, berms and a pair of nike dunks low are just so attractive.

ok. back to fna.

(i told you it was random)

to all u ppl who think i'm a love sick fool:

think again. i'm stronger than you think i am.

thank you very much.

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stressful week. went crazy. very crazy.

treated myself to a 11 hour sleep on thurs night and after a good session of erm gossip with zhenfeng- hahahaahahah.. which we promised each other it will nv happen again- 8 hour sleep starting from 5 am, although i still feel tired. its time to start the engine and run the race.

13 days. many things to do.. still have projects to do.. revision haven't even started. :(

and i can't wait to act for theatre studies prac!!! the thing is my character says the F word. what should i do man.. i can't change the word. :(

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Bring me back to the heart of worship.

blogging is an avenue for ppl to relax and to pass time, esp so after a meal, when u are so darn full, u can't be bothered to do anything else.
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too much of a drink i had last night, not enough of water. got a lil dehydrated. throat hurts very badly.drank like 4 bottles of water ever since. should be fine soon.

:D
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going for connie bonnie's 21st party later..i miss connie. :(
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this cup of coffee just doesn't taste like any coffee. Because you made it, its the sweetest i ever tasted. :)

someone remind laureen that patience is a virtue; and prayers make time go faster.
i wonder if we will ever end up together. i still vote your hugs as the wamest ever. :) i'll wait, but dun let me wait too long?

naive

i can't believe i actually thought i could change his world. how naive can i get. sigh. and i thought i've grown to be more matured and sensible. sigh.

i drank my first mug of beer today. i'm sure i took more than 1 mug. i think i took at least 2, because i couldn't stop drinking. not because i'm much of a drinker, but just because i was preparing what was to come next, after our little drinking session.

so i took hold of the opportunity, grabbed every little chance that i had; embraced it with every ounce of energy i had. my heart stopped when you...

nvm. its not that impt, isn't it. just that it was my decent first.

and i sort of think that u robbed me of that.

oh well. what can i say now. now that i learnt the truth.

i smile, thinking of how dumb i am.
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as i've said, i am a selfish little girl.