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propriety, dammit! wat is wrong with you!

needtostopneedtostopneedtostop!!!

today + everyday

Today is a great day! basically because i went shopping. Felt bad that the others had to study, so i slipped away when jamie was out paying rent. i bought them our fav Daim choc and exclusive treatment to Jamie: Hemkop chicken. But the standard drop already, chicken getting smaller and saltier. =/

"we need to find other cravings." in Jamie's words.

so anyways, i went to h&m, bought a pretty, wide collar black jacket that i have specially chosen to bring it with me to russia this thurs. paid a good $90SGD for it, so it better be good. And yay! its black so i can match it with what hidayat gave me for buaya week, my pink scarf. :) and i can wear my ugly red gloves. it matches. hahaha..

anyways, found super good sales ard h&m too.. bought a top and a dress (kids' size, of course) at just 79 Kr = erm.. less than 20 bucks la. really happy. haha.. i love the 3 letters "REA". :D

i handed in my ideation assignment already, so 3 things left: print and hand in my indiv hand in for IB, print and hand in the IB exam assignment and erm... hmm... finish my green tea?

gosh. have been sleeping at 4 am the past week although i'm the one without exams. i watch a movie everynight. hahaha.. kill time ah. oh ya, haven't read my library book. shall do that after this post.

well, I took my younger sister's advice and watched High school musical 2. haha.. i bet that crazy woman has watched it a gazillion times already. but anyway, as of the first sequel, the songs are really nice, and it has those "enjoy your time, grab your chance before its too late" meaning. and i think its really applicable to those struggling with the upcoming of exams back home in school and hall.

enjoy! :)

hmm.. but i think i like the other song better. can't decide. oh well! haha :)



Everyday

Once in a lifetime
means there’s no second chance
so I believe than you and me
should grab it while we can
Make it last forever
and never give it back


It’s our turn, and I’m loving’ where we’re at
Because this moment’s really all we have
Everyday
of our lives,
wanna find you there, wanna hold on tight
Gonna run
While we’re young
and keep the faith

Everyday
From right now,
gonna use our voices and scream out loud
Take my hand;
together we
will celebrate,
celebrate.
Oh, ev’ryday.

They say that you should follow
and chase down what you dream,
but if you get lost and lose yourself
what does is really mean?

No matter where we’re going,
it starts from where we are.
There’s more to life when we listen to our hearts
and because of you, I’ve got the strength to start

Yeah, yeah, yeah!

Everyday
of our lives,
wanna find you there, wanna hold on tight
Gonna run
while we’re young
and keep the faith.

Everyday
from right now,
gonna use our voices and scream out loud
Take my hand;
together we
will celebrate,
Oh, ev’ryday

We’re taking it back,
we’re doing it here
together!

It’s better like that,
and stronger now
than ever!
We’re not gonna lose.
‘Cause we get to choose.
That’s how it’s gonna be!

Everyday
of our lives,
wanna find you there, wanna hold on tight.
Gonna run
while we’re young
And keep the faith
Keep the faith!

Everyday
of our lives,
wanna find you there, wanna hold on tight.
Gonna run
while we’re young
and keep the faith

Everyday
from right now,
gonna use our voices and scream out loud
Take my hand;
together we
will celebrate,

Ev’ryday!
Live ev’ry day!
Love ev’ryday!
Live ev’ryday!
Love ev’ryday!
Ev’ryday!
Ev’ryday!
Ev’ryday!
Ev’ryday!
Ev’ryday!
Ev’ryday!
Ev’ryday!

Ev’ryday!

:( pain.

i wish for a hug.

in STOCKHOLM* laur: thoughts run wild says:
he stay opp premier inn

*in STOCKHOLM* laur: thoughts run wild says:
and ALONG THE THAMES

*in STOCKHOLM* laur: thoughts run wild says:
haha

*in STOCKHOLM* laur: thoughts run wild says:
wah lao

*in STOCKHOLM* laur: thoughts run wild says:
still can remember watch harry potter then all of a sudden

*in STOCKHOLM* laur: thoughts run wild says:
"I STAY THERE!!!"

XJ - SLACKMORE CAMP! says:
rich sia

XJ - SLACKMORE CAMP! says:
u watch signs

XJ - SLACKMORE CAMP! says:
i stay there

*in STOCKHOLM* laur: thoughts run wild says:
i take note already

*in STOCKHOLM* laur: thoughts run wild says:
haha

*in STOCKHOLM* laur: thoughts run wild says:
then just need a little bit of googling

*in STOCKHOLM* laur: thoughts run wild says:
haha

adrian says:
haha

*in STOCKHOLM* laur: thoughts run wild says:
should be able to find his place

*in STOCKHOLM* laur: thoughts run wild says:
haaha

adrian says:
ey the river is like DAMN long la

adrian says:
with the few clues u have about me

*in STOCKHOLM* laur: thoughts run wild says:
find the premier inn lah

*in STOCKHOLM* laur: thoughts run wild says:
hahaha

adrian says:
it's qt hard to hunt me down

*in STOCKHOLM* laur: thoughts run wild says:
then just OPP ma

*in STOCKHOLM* laur: thoughts run wild says:
hahaha

adrian says:
there are MILLIONS of premier inns

adrian says:
haha

*in STOCKHOLM* laur: thoughts run wild says:
facing the river ma

*in STOCKHOLM* laur: thoughts run wild says:
oh shit

*in STOCKHOLM* laur: thoughts run wild says:
hahahahah

adrian says:
like different branches

adrian says:
haha

XJ - SLACKMORE CAMP! says:
river very long leh

*in STOCKHOLM* laur: thoughts run wild says:
dunno leh

XJ - SLACKMORE CAMP! says:
not pond leh

XJ - SLACKMORE CAMP! says:
or longkang in sg

*in STOCKHOLM* laur: thoughts run wild says:
that time harry potter fly like not very long

*in STOCKHOLM* laur: thoughts run wild says:
hahahahahhaha

XJ - SLACKMORE CAMP! says:
near big ben ah

XJ - SLACKMORE CAMP! says:
i think that time fly got fly past big ben

XJ - SLACKMORE CAMP! says:
eh

XJ - SLACKMORE CAMP! says:
maybe he fly supersonic speed

*in STOCKHOLM* laur: thoughts run wild says:
ahahahah

XJ - SLACKMORE CAMP! says:
then cover 500 miles in 1 sec

*in STOCKHOLM* laur: thoughts run wild says:
oh sheeeesh!

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haha.. i got stupid friends who make my day. hahha

xj's confession

XJ - SLACKMORE CAMP! says:
ok laur very pretty lah

just need to record this down. hahaha

today was quite a dramatic one, if i may say so.

i'm just glad all is well again, or so we choose to think. and i like it that way.

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i bumped my head on some metal thing in the toilet a few weeks ago. and it was hell painful.

and its still freaking painful when i rubbed that part of my head.

i miss home. :(

don't do that again, ok?

it makes me start thinking negatively- about... everything.

the exchange plans

i'm going to rooooooomeeeeee..

:)

after, helsinki, moscow, st pertersberg and tallin.

and to LONDON after that!!! :)

gosh my london air ticket cost $18 can. hahaha..

and maybe paris, nice and barcelonia for christmas? need to wait for dad- to see if he's coming with bo- to confirm if i'll join the family or the friends.

if not for the management consulting module i really want to take, I would be going to venice, florence, munich, frankfurt.. and to switzerland again.

=/ ok.. sigh. whatever. its not like i'll not go there in the future anyway. need to go london to be inspired. hopefully i won't go there and be scared. haha u know the inferiority complex thing. and perhaps i may consider kicking my kid out even before O levels. hahahahahah

quote of the exchange?

"must leave some places for honeymoon laaah."

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something is telling me that if i don't treasure what i have right now, i'll totally regret it.

o btw, Gossip Girl rocks. both the guys and the girls are like so hot, i drool. and perhaps, faint.

haha..

stockholm is getting realllllly cold, its scary.

*mental note: need to finish the stupid assigments tmr so i can go h&m and otehr shopping shopping places the day after!

day dream

i realised i've developed a new hobby: daydreaming.

somehow, escaping into my memories or virtual world seems to be somewhere i rather be, most of the times. things go according to my way, and it just literally puts a smile on my face.

and right now, you know what i'm dreaming about?

a fireplace.

gawd. its freezing.

my first europe cinema experience

i know this may be a little late for people who are reading it at the other side of the earth where i lived before coming here, but it is FRESH news for people living in this town.

RATATOUILLE ROCKS.

hahaha... it doesn't help that people say i look like a rodent and i have acquired this love for cooking.

but anyway, my ratatouille experience rocks even more than anything because i got to sit in Stockholm's biggest cinema (as what uncle kang said)-a 900 seater cinema, and i didn't have to sit with good posture although super tall victor sat in front of me, and of course, i paid a gooooooood $18.90 SGD for the movie ticket.

hahaha

but seriously.. worth it.

watching all the characters in ratatouille reminds me totally of my hall darlings, i wonder hoe many of their handphone attachment thingy accessories are still alive and not beheaded.

hahaha... ron, u suck la. hahhahhaa

yay!!

GOd answers prayers! :)

see you in sweden, jo!! :)

please God, let Jo get into NA.

in retrospect, perhaps i was the one who jumped into it.

guess i have to restrain it.

the whining and the song of the night

i'm bored of my assignment. :( so tired. but i have to finish it by tmr! because i have to do the other exam which weighs 50%. hmm

neck muscles are aching.... oh ya. haven't bathe. haha been sitting here for a really long time trying to rewrite my entire essay.

ok, just a little whine for the night.

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jamie mentioned sth about me liking slow paced songs. didn't notice till she pointed it out the other day,"eh. why all your songs always slow slow wan?"

hmmm

i dunno. cos the tune/melody/whatever nice lah. how i know. hahhahaha.. oh well.

lately i've developed a liking for sad songs. i've no idea why. its either that or sad song's melody/tune/whatever sounds really nice, since i hardly pay attn to lyrics unless they are composed for me. (HAHA)

currently, the song that i like to press repeat would be John Mayer's "covered in rain", which was sent to me a long time ago from a certain someone and I am so sure i got the influence from that someone. -.-


Firewoods to fire places
Summer snow and fallen places
Now were people watching other people, people watching you and i
Standing by the missing signs at the cvs by the checkout line
Put your quiet hands in mine
Cause your the brightest thing I got

When youre covered in rain
Cause Im covered in rain
Cause Im covered in rain
No Im covered in rain

Come december lydia left
Mentioned something about it being for the best
And I cant say I disagree
Now Im standing facing west
Tracing my fingers round a silhouette
I havent gotten used to yet
But its the brightest thing I got




just to make the post complete.

back to my essay.

my theory is true.

okay, i realised something in class today.

a majority of the people in my INt Biz class did internships at investment banking.

and in spore, i don't...like know.. anybody... who does internships.. at investment banking...

oh sheesh! i bet my theory on my post below is so true: Westerners get the high flying jobs, because they are independent at an early age.

gofigure.

i think i'll chase my kid out of the house after o levels and tell him/her that its for her own good- do come back and find me when u're an investment banker.

oh yea. i make a good mother.

hahahaha...

i know i know i know!

but i can't help it if i still feel.... jealous, right?

:(

empty nest syndrome

eh i found this when i was doing my research for my assignment, and i thought it was quite interesting..

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Empty-nest syndrome

Written by Christine Webber, psychotherapist and lifecoach and Dr David Delvin, GP and family planning specialist
http://www.netdoctor.co.uk/womenshealth/features/ens.htm

How can you help if you're the young person leaving home?

If you're a teenager who has left home - or is about to go - and you know your mum is really suffering, what can you do?

First of all get her to look at this article. Secondly, if she's very upset, get her to talk things over with a close girlfriend or go to a doctor.

But after that, don't make the mistake of trying to curtail your activities to please her.

Your development depends on you finding your adult feet, and in going off to learn new things, do new jobs and make new friends and relationships. That's the way of the world.

The empty-nest syndrome is actually your mum's problem - not yours.

Of course you'll want to be sympathetic and kind to her. After all, she does love you very much: she wouldn't have empty-nest syndrome if she didn't.

But don't allow yourself to be pressurised into coming home more often than you want, or can afford. And don't fall into the trap of having to call her every day.

Arrange with her when you will phone her and stick to that. Please be fair about this and remember to call when she is expecting you to.

An extra email or text message on top of that will probably help to cheer her up. But don't do so many that she comes to expect them. They should be a pleasant surprise for her - and a pleasure for you to do, not a duty.

Don't forget, this is a time when you're forging your independence. She's got to do the same.
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its the first line that struck me, "if you're a teenager..", its really the difference between Western and Asians,: how independent they are and how dependent we are at that age. perhaps now i get it why people with a "western" mindset at the age of 23 feels embarrass in getting ang pao money.

but it really makes me wonder, so does leaving your home earlier allows you to be more independent and thus allow you to be more career oriented? If you look at it, is that the reason as to why the west has so much more' stronger' business hubs- London, New York, Copenhagen.. compared to Asia, which has perhaps smaller hubs mainly Tokyo, HK, Singapore, Shanghai.. and if you observe it, they are mainly expats from the west. ok, i say observe because i can't find any evidence, hahaha..

alright i think i'll get back to my 10 '300 word' essays.

i finish3 liao. 7 more. urgh.

having a relationship is good.

because you get to understand what type of a girlfriend you are.

i've seen the similarity and concluded what type i am.

haha.

i don't know whether to laugh or cry.

hahaha.

hmm..

just some thoughts and a lil on prague

what i really want right now is....

hmm i would complete that sentence, but i guess i've been a little emo the past few days that i got my avid readers a little worried. haha

well, yea. life goes on and i can't stop anything.

had a good great talk with him and i guess somehow, i'll just leave it to how God will put it.. don't want to think about anything anyway. its emotionally draining and i get people especially a certain one, worried. but sometimes, its inevitable to think. whether or not u expect it to happen- and that sucks. but anyhow, i day dream my days away.

8 months 8 months 8 months.. hmm.. i think we're heroes, and victors of our own little conquest.

thought about what you told ur fren.. and yea, i concluded that we can very much define the period ourselves. since i've never experienced it before, you can create it for me! hahaha

right. i'm just waiting for roomie to come out of the toilet so i can brush my teeth.
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these days have been tiring perhaps it was because of prague.

prague is pretty pretty pretty. although thinking back it was more of the prices of the place as well as the pretty pretty st vitus church that makes it sooooo pretty pretty. okay. you got my point.


yep. mmm.. walked a lot on a swollen right foot because of a silly sprain cos of my heels during the city hall dinner. but it was alrite. i think my calf muscles have all firmed up. haha.. and i can wear that h&m pretty cropped grey caprice that was on sale the other day. :) yay.

bought crumpler(AGAIN), cos its like cheap. hahaha.. but shix, if you read this dun worry, our quality much better, hahaha.. tell u more soon. :)

yep. roomie's out, time to brush teeth.

:D

back from prague

back from prague and feeling tired all over.

europe is so beautiful with culture and history so rich.

will blog more about it soon.

not sure why, but just damn tired.

emotional wreck

i broke down again.

but i managed to tell someone my fears, and the pressures i'll face once i returned.

God said if we ask, He'll give, but we'll have to bear the consequences.

i really don't know if i can do it all over again.

i'm just freaking scared, and i don't know what to do.

bro showed me the positive light to all these. yes, but i need confirmation.

yes, i'm scared. i'm utterly scared till i can't stop my tears now.

why do we repeat mistakes?

sigh

sigh. why do all of us enter a relationship knowing the landing is going to be hard?

i suck, cos i'm in sthlm and i can't be there for you.

=(

now i understand why the SAC girls grouped together and cry when one of them got hurt by some boy.

because i totally understand how you feel.

*hug* you'll get over this. i know you will.

the kindergarten friend.

omg.

we grew up together, we went to kindergarten together, we went to sunday school together, we went to primary school together.

and i didn't see her any more.

till one night, when i was with him, i saw her on a bicycle.

and i didn't think much. he told me she was hot. i was like "..what."

and now i see it..

omg. gee..

i dunno what to say..

is it me? or is it her?

ah, there's that feeling again..

i get it quite frequently these days.

i can't exactly put a word to describe it, but its sort of like a tingle, or a longing... and somehow, through that process, i smile...

i smile because... i don't know why too.

all i know is.. i'm thinking of you.

i hope you're smiling too. :)

wrong choice

i shouldn't have agreed. then i would have realised part 1. the role suited me. the role was mine. i bet i'll have done a better job.

ah. i regret.

and all of those wouldn't have happened.

sigh.

lalala.. =)

i tend to read our conversations over again once i kiss you good night, and somehow, it always put a smile on my face when i close the window.

haha. yea, may be i'm psychotic.

over you.

93 days!

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its been quite a while since i last blogged. school work is piling up,because i've been slacking like crazy. just no motivation to study.

busy being a lovesick fool just waiting for him to come online. haha shit. i'm scared of myself.

oh wells, been dreaming of the day and how it will be like recently.

gawd. think i'm getting fat. when i go back to spore, i'm so going to diet and run ard the park!! ok i dunno what i'm talking now.

but i'm glad i've been able to cook up a few dishes. mummy and daddy will be so proud of me.

no hang on. i think my block commers 0506 will be happy for me too.

yaaaaaaaaaaaaay. i think i did everybody proud.

me = happy

i think i should go back and do my assignments.