GOD'S CAKE
>Sometimes we wonder,
>"What did I do to deserve this?" or
>"Why did God have to do this to me?"
>Here is a wonderful explanation!
>
>A daughter is telling her Mother how everything is
>going wrong, she's failing algebra, her boyfriend
>broke up with her and her best friend is moving away.
>
>Meanwhile, her Mother is baking a cake and asks
>her daughter if she would like a snack, and the
>daughter says,
>"Absolutely Mom, I love your cake."
>Here, have some cooking oil," her Mother offers.
>"Yuck" says her daughter.
>"How about a couple raw eggs?"
>"Gross, Mom!"
>"Would you like some flour then? Or maybe baking soda?"
>"Mom, those are all yucky!"
>To which the mother replies:
>"Yes, all those things seem bad all by themselves.
>But when they are put together in the right way,
>they make a wonderfully delicious cake!
>
>God works the same way.
>Many times we wonder why He would let us go
>through such bad and difficult times.
>But God knows that when He puts these things
>all in His order, they always work for good!
>We just have to trust Him and, eventually,
>they will all make something wonderful!
>
>God is crazy about you.
>He sends you flowers every spring
>and a sunrise every morning.
>Whenever you want to talk, He'll listen.
>He can live anywhere in the universe, and He chose your heart.


thanks to all who has been an encouragement.

life has certainly be hard these few days..missing him like crazy (cringe when i see little kids carrying basketballs); but at least i'm not crying as much. haha. actually come to think of it, i've not cried since last wed. achievement.

i feel happy now. but obviously, not as happy as before.

study hard guys. its in 28 days time..

sigh.

i stopped crying yesterday.

healing process has started. although it stops again whenever i see wormy and start to think about the times we spent together.

sigh.

its going to be a long and difficult journey. but i'm sure i'll make it.

i saw him before entering the LT for econs. my heart skipped a beat. i really do miss him. i wanted to run over and hug him and not let go. but all i managed was just a mere wave... well, at least he waved back. it feels like as if i have a crush on him all over again...

came to the understanding that our relationship was never meant to be. and then i realised that there were so many things that i wanted to say that i have never told him. sigh. ok. its getting too personal..

hmmm.. i really regret not doing so.

i managed to start doing some work and able to concentrate a little bit more compared to the days that i have been crying. i think i stopped crying because there were really no more tears left to cry. cannot come out. i cry all finish already...

well.. i will just have to be contented with the 7 beautiful months spent with my very first boyfriend.

and its time to.. sigh.. move on.

the last time i cried so hard was on february 15th.
reason? i couldn't be with the one i love.

i cried again(still am actually), and even harder 2 days ago.
reason? he doesn't love me anymore.

its over.. 7 months of happy memory. ended. just like that.

i'm distraught, addled, agitated, anxious, beside oneself, bothered, concerned, confused, crazed, crazy, discomposed, distracted, distrait, distressed, flustered, frantic, harassed, hysterical, mad, muddled, nonplussed, nuts, overwrought, perturbed, rattled, raving, shook up, thrown, tormented, troubled, unglued, unscrewed, unzipped, wild, worked up, worried..

i love him. i really do..

why.. why.. why must it end this way?

he was different. so different from the rest. he promised to love me forever. i really thought he meant it. i believed him. why did he say things he doesn't mean.

i dun want just 7 months of memory. i want more than that.

why can't we go on..

it hurts. it really does. my world just crashed down on me.

chong.. i want you back.. i love u..

Have You Ever?
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever
Have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything
To make them understand
Have you ever had someone
Steal your heart away
You'd give anything, oh
To make them feel the same
Have you ever search for words
To get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start

Ooh Have you ever find someone
You dreamt of all your life
You'd do just about anything
To look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one
You've given your heart to
Only to find that one
Won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes
And dreamt that they were there
And all you can do is wait
For the day when they will care
Have you ever loved somebody

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms, baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand
How I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
Cuz baby I can't sleep

Oh, Have you ever

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY!!!

yay... haha its so my day man. but there ain't any time to celebrate.. how can... arGH.

stupid woman in the office told me to come back after 1. i finish school at 12 30 today. like the first time in 2 years. and this stupid woman.. ARGh.

hmmm.. i felt much better after what he confirmed just now. i really felt better. seeing that G***G*NA girl during econs lect was really pissing me off. i was scared at that point in time. scared that he wouldn't want me anymore. simply because i have gone to the extent of loving him so much that i just can't imagine my life without him anymore.

hopless? yea. i agree...

haven't been spending time with each othe for more than 1 month plus and its only after 2 months that i'll be able to do so.. after the stupid, big, fat, A's. the time period id so long, yest so short...

think i'm irritating him too much. i just have to fill my brains with econs instead.

but its so difficultttttttttttttttttt.... argh. i'm so screwed.

ok. its past 1 20pm. the stupid woman's colleague should be back from lunch.

i can finally go home. (and read ch 4 of 'drawing near' .. hehe..)