for my 21st. =)

i want one of those pretty cameras for my 21st for my exchange trip during the later part of the year. =)

just check out the europe map. norway, denmark, UK, Germany...

i want Germany's jersey. particularly number 20. =D

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need sleep. quite badly.

=)

all of a sudden, i feel like crying. the funny thing is i dunno why..

and then suddenly..


[TeamSheares][SWOC][♠.A.C.E.R.S.♠][ABC][BAD Boys][2 GAZA] hAoJiE: " Be the man " - Weijie says:
dun let ppl bully u leh....got big brother poh here....taking care of u

[TeamSheares][SWOC][♠.A.C.E.R.S.♠][ABC][BAD Boys][2 GAZA] hAoJiE: " Be the man " - Weijie says:
wo zao ni!

how sweet is that! =)

rite. no tears. =)

sometimes its not about dress sense, there are many other factors to consider as well.

sigh.

super random ramblings

father missed the turn at the expressway so he asked me to go home myself tmr.

sheesh. ok.

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i finally opened and use the cup daryl gave me on my bday!! i love my minnie mouse cup!! its about 16cm tall!! haha...

i should go compare cups with dominique.. see who has the taller cup. haha..

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i made fai tell me the whole prison break story so i wouldn't be a slave to the series no more. there's just no time.

heh. yea.. its not no patience. its no time.

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sp site coming up by tmr.. thats what they say. let u guys see it once its up. =)

sp runs start on sunday. gawd i have many any lines to catch up with.

my darlin neighbour joyce, is my role model.

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i think i can feel the motivation coming back. its coming. i feel it.

i miss my jc friends all of a sudden..

=(

2 rows in front of me.

i just came back from school. haha.. altho i am still in school. okok fine. hahahaha..

yes. i am feeling better but i still have those a little spates of coughing here and there during lectures today then jamie will say "eh.. shut up."

wah lao. sorry la. hahahahah

today MA lect was quite "...". lots of figures and reasons. didn't really pay much attention becos i was sooooo sleepy. slept quite late the night before.. had my first gossip "updating of surroundings" session with my wing mates, since i moved back to hall. and coughed myself to sleep (again). so yea. was really tired this morning.

BUT. i was totally awake after the break. no. i didn't had coffee. haha it was this ang moh guy sitting 2 rows in front of me and he had "schneider"'s hair!! GAWD!! its freaking nice... alvin offered to help me take a photo of his hair. but.. dun want la. so paiseh. hmm.

OM lect was freaking boing. i felt like i was in some engine school. but anyways, 2 rows in front of me sat this really freaking cute girl. haha.. hmm. lesbian tendencies. oh well.

had milk tea during oM lect. which perhaps explains why i'm quite hyped up. think i'll go do some work now.. i suspect the energy will run out once i start reading the requisites. shit.

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a teenager who acts as if she's older- but deep in her, lies within a child- inquisitive, influenced, vulnerable.

"La Poopay. La Poopay est dan la joujou. Merci. "

2 fake stories. 2 different emotions.

Tutorials start this week and i just came back from class. alvin, angeline and i have got a super good MA tutor. Hopefully, i'll do well in MA! =)

today's human resource mgt class wasn't as boring as i thought it would be, altho i know my brain was sleeping a good 20 min while the lecturer was "singing her own lullaby". i read the readings this week, but damm! somebodywill always cut in before i can speak. looks like participation marks will have a lil prob this sem? maybe. but rarrrh. i read the damm readingS!!

i sat next to this really cool USC girl today. although i didn't really talk to her much until discussion, i enjoyed my conversation with her. don't know if it was her voice, accent, or her smile or all 3 combined, it felt very nice to talk to her. However, our conversation ended quite abrupt, but it was okay. i still felt happy after talking to her. During the course of our conversation, somehow, i felt that the way we talked was quite fake. seems ironic, i noe. but it was a nice but fake conversation. hmm..

immediately after our conversation got cut off, i was walking towards the staircase to go back to hall when i met this new girl from our block. i said hi. she just smiled and look away. and so i decided to be nice and ask her " where u going?" and her fren answered for her their destination and i was like "..oh." She didn't say anything.

In a desperate attempt to be nice or to get myself out of a weird situation, i called, "will u be back in hall for dinner? we can have dinner together!" i guess that it was nice that she stopped, turn around, gave me a sad face and said " erm.. no.. i don't think i'll be back for dinner." and turned ard, walked away. so i just said " its ok. another day lor."

then she told her fren(in front of me)" i have to go back to hall and put my staff down first." so i offered to help and then she had this paisehness expression which i don't know why. but u could feel that she wanted u to help her but for fomality sake (?) she decided to whine a bit. in the end she did and she said thanks and walk off.

well, i dun think i can fault her that much. but as i carried her finance textbook with 2 cables and whathaveu back to hall, i analysed my 2 situations. and i was wondring if this was a cross cultural thingy or was it the medcine i just took that cause me to entertain such useless thoughts.

2 fake stories. 2 different emotions.

...i dunno.hmm.

ok. time to sleep.

urgh

ok. taggy's up. xj, dun complain. haha.. how often u come here anyway. haha.. eh photos haven't load la. paiseh. let u noe once i load. =x

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i'm feeling like crap these few days. dammit. please please please let me get better. it sucks to cough for like 2-3 hours each night before i get exhausted and go to sleep, and not a good one, even.

feel like some old woman.

i skipped class yday because i was having such a bad headache in the morning i couldn't leave my bed. =( i fig that that was the first class i missed in my 2 years of uni life. oh wells.

can't skip anymore. not like i can afford it. i have lots of things to do by tmr. oh gawd. the headache is back. =(

sometimes i just wonder what makes certain guys such asses.

after hearing it, i feel disgusted that i once associated myself with you.

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the throat is super itchy. bleahk. slept for a good 4 hours in the afternnoon, enough to sleep the fever away but certainly not the itch. =/

father and mother was suppose to come to visit me in hall today. but.. father said he cleaned the whole house today and he's too tired to come over.. =(

oh wells. i never noe what to do if i dun have my darling neighbours around me.

*reminder: better tell jamie to take caution once we are in sweden. i hope i dun kill her. hahahaha...

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aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrgh. saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaave meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...

urgh.

i'm feeling lousy.

this sucks.

dan + cover letter + hypothesis

my darling cave man cousin daniel has a gf.

haha! so funny lah. so much for complaining to me those days when we were working. =) happy for u dude. =)

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i have finally completed my cover letter. =) proud of myself. thanks all for the encouragement. hahahhaahha!!

oh well.. guess have to send it for a check before applying. i'll pray real hard before i send it.

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i think i have some disorder within me. i don't understand why i get tired easily. i think its either:

a) not exercising
b) too hyper and thus, enegry depletes faster.

i think i'll test out option b first.

lianyee. u take over the crazy me from here.

*grin*

i'll just tone down now...

2nd day of school (for me)

just came back from intern briefing.

just realised i'm still half done with my cover letter. urgh. can't seem to get down to doing it. =/

disgusted with myself.

its only the 2nd day of school for me and i can already feel the pressure. disgusting lehhhhhh..

gg to watch joycee stretch her long legs now! so proud of her. =)

prob later.

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who wants tix to see me act prostitutish? tix at $14. 7 30pm. UCC.
sms me ok? =) (eccluding hall peeps)

lion + today =)

i saw this pic at yahoo main page. i think its really sweet! =) hahah.. i want a lion to kiss me toooooooooooooooooooooooo.

...oh sheesh. not THAT 'lion'. i want a real wan. and i hope it doesn't bite my face in the process. haha..

mmm.. i feel happy today. =) i really do. i think its because i managed to wake up for bfast, and managed to sleep for quite long hours. ok. my fav day is tuesday. =) i hope it stays that way. haha..

went out with liannie, winnie and xiao hua just now.. we had crystal jade for lunch. it was soooo goooood. and somehow it made me feel loved. i dunno why. =) oh wells. i look fwd to more outings like these!

sp later.. better go remember more lines.

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random thought of the day: if you think i'm just cute, young and brainless; u should really think again. i'm very much deeper than u think i am.

first night in hall (again)

here i am. sitting in my new room A513. smiling to myseld, thinking how wonderful the sem is going to be.

until i started thinking of what i just saw, what i just digested, on top of what that has already happened.

i just told liannie and winnie that it doesn't bother me. True, honestly, it doesn't. i was quite surprised of how i justified my feelings to them actually. -.- altho i meant every word that i said, it just feels so wrong to say that. simply because i've always been preaching about sth else..

i just realise today that not everything can happen the way it were before. no longer can i hold a much decent conversation with you. no longer can we have such talks that i used to enjoy. its just.. weird. and it's just sad.

Thinking about it, i think it goes for you too. i really can't talk or want to meet up with you anymore.. i really have no more feelings for you as well, and i am that glad that we are no longer together actually because u change so much. u have change from the innocent sweet guy i noe to this stranger i didn't believe i once loved. its hard for me, u noe. it really is.

well, i think its because i'm tired thats why i'm feeling so low down. oh well. sp has been moving quite slowly. i am quite afraid not only for myself but for everybody else as well.. we have lots to do. On top of that, there's those 3 non examinable modules to think of. =/ and ministries problems to think about as well.

no, i'm not saying i'm the most poor thing on this earth. certainly not. there is just many things left to consider now during this period of time, i guess.

SP made me realise how far i will go. Yes, acting as a prostitute is really a huge challenge for me. In fact, i'm freaking uncomfortable abt it. i'm just thinking now if it was wrong for me to accept this role? but what can i do about it. sigh. if corn noes about this, i'm sure i'll get it from her. but i do love to act. i do love to perform. but really. how far must/should i go? is it ok?

well.. i'm in hall, my class 95 is on, it's raining, it feels nice and good now.. i think i'll just go take the hairdryer mummy made me bring and blow dry my hair.. then i'll sleep. hopefullly, i wun feel as crap as i feel now.

good. its raining, so the level 6 guys can't play their soccer on the rooftop so i can go sleep peacefully. =)

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hey.. i really hope u're okay ok? i mean.. u can talk to me, u noe.. i'm always there to listen for you, just like how u're always there to hear me whine.. =) and seriously, if i think u are great, than like whatever with whoever who said you are not! Because you are. really. *hugs

an Overview of the year

so i finally can get down to blog my first post of the year. =)

firstly, i feel that this year- the year that gives me the intangible chop of me entering a new phase in my life- is going to pass really fast. hmm.. my time line for this year would look like this:

Jan- Mar: SP
Apr: exams
May-Aug: Intern
sept-Dec: exchange

thats pratically the whole year. hahaha..


so a new year, a new start. thats what we always say every year. which means a new set of resuolutions.. which include trying to squeeze into corn's levis so we dun have to spend more money. haha.. well, looking my age is perhaps one of the more impt ones, i guess..


alrite.
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dude.. u totally disgust me. but anyway, thanks for bringing the drive in my life.

A513.. here i come. =)