i have a fat face.

ron koped from veron's blog. i really think my face is damn fat. need to lose all the weight, and i'm so determined, i will. but i think my teeth is the also the reason why. haha.. everything blame the teeth. but ok la. at least they chose the one without my teeth showing, but i still look weird. aiyah can we have a re shoot.. i practice the face liao.. =/ REALLYY!!!

but i really like the background pic more than my indiv shot (obviously). i think its so much of an improvement compared to my 'Daphne' pic last dec!! haha.. hmm.. make up does wonders.

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Pastor's dad passed away this morning. sometimes i wonder what happens at the transition.. i'm always afraid i'll lose my way. But now, i know for sure i won't.

i love my Jesus.

Jo's results out tmr.. i dunno what i'm feeling.

the parable of the 10 virgins

God spoke to me today. =) quite directly, i must say.

about a week ago, a close fren confided in me of how tired she's been, tired that she's not being able to be there for everybody that she cares, and she feels so selfish that she neglected them.

i gave her an advice. i told her it's ok to be selfish. to settle ur own needs first before going on to care about others.

that night, i stopped and thought about it: have i told her the right thing? was i right, as a child of God, to tell her to be selfish?

well, i sort of just let it go. till today.

ps ho talked about not missing the boat today. he used the word 'remnant', of what i always thought had a negative connotation attached to it, to describe his sermon today.

"Remnant," he said, " is to be seperated and set apart by God."

Noah and his family (8 of them) were remnants. so were Lot and his 2 daughters, Jacob & family, Joshua and Caleb, Elijah and the 70,000 faithful followers and the Israelites who were going into captivity in eze 12:1-16.

He continued on with examples from the NT. and something struck me when he mentioned about the parable of the ten virgins.

Matthew 25
The Parable of the Ten Virgins 1"At that time the kingdom of
heaven will be like ten virgins who took their lamps and went out to meet the
bridegroom. 2Five of them were foolish and five were wise. 3The foolish ones
took their lamps but did not take any oil with them. 4The wise, however, took
oil in jars along with their lamps. 5The bridegroom was a long time in coming,
and they all became drowsy and fell asleep.
6"At midnight the cry rang
out: 'Here's the bridegroom! Come out to meet him!'
7"Then all the
virgins woke up and trimmed their lamps. 8The foolish ones said to the wise,
'Give us some of your oil; our lamps are going out.'
9" 'No,' they
replied, 'there may not be enough for both us and you. Instead, go to those who
sell oil and buy some for yourselves.'
10"But while they were on their
way to buy the oil, the bridegroom arrived. The virgins who were ready went in
with him to the wedding banquet. And the door was shut.
11"Later the
others also came. 'Sir! Sir!' they said. 'Open the door for us!'
12"But he replied, 'I tell you the truth, I don't know you.'
13"Therefore keep watch, because you do not know the day or the hour.

i'm always stumped by this particular parable. i never knew or really bothered to go and find out why the hell are those 5 virgins so selfish.

but today. today, i knew why.

it is okay to be selfish. nobody is going to look out for you. u really have to take care of yourself in certain issues before taking care of others.

so if remnant has a negative connotation to it, so does being selfish, then i guess it just depends on the situation you are in that determines which category you fall under.

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i read a blog entry yday. and i thought bout it- long and hard. altho the blogger of that post is of a young age of 16, i don't totally agree with the whole post- because she didn't know the research you had done. But me, being 20 and much more mature and perhaps, understanding you better than her, i will have to agree with her main point of her arguement.

i pray that you'll open your eyes and see the truth.

you used to ask me, "who sets what is the truth and whats not?"

i can tell you, i wouldn't know the answer, because the devil turns up many variation of the stories. but think about your life, what u've been thru, what u've experience with Him.

the cold truth/ question to ask is: are u bending the facts to suit what u want to face? what you want to hear? what you think is convenient for you to believe in?

no. i wouldn't dare lecture you. no, i wouldn't dare to scold/raise my voice. who am i anyway- to tell you off, someone who knows more than me?

no, i am not qualified. i'm not condemning or what not to ur new belief, but its because i love you so much thats why i'm saying all this. and i believe u'll probably won't look at me in the same way anymore. i just wnt you to hold on to the truth u've been holding on.

are u still close to Him the way u were?

if you are, then i guess we'll just leave it as that- but i still love you.

Beaitiful Saviour

Jesus,

beautiful Savior.

God of all majesty

risen King.

lamb of God,

holy and righteous

Blessed redeemer

bright morning star.

All the heavens shout your praise

All creation bows to worship you

How wonderful

how beautiful

name above every name

exalted high

how wonderful

how beautiful

Jesus your name

name above every name

Jesus.

...AHHH!

i just realise its 6 months before i turn 21.

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*SCREAMS*

SP photo shoot

urgh. i got home about 1 and a half hours ago. my left eye is tearing continuously ever since i took out my lens just now lianniie helped me with eye shadow just now.

gawd. i hope the pics come out nice, but i doubt so. i mean, not that i dun trust choonie's professionalism... i dun trust all of them la- the pic was so gross and they said i nailed the look. like -.- hello? i look like a 1.chipmink. 2.hamster. 3. beaver. 4. rabbit. take ur pick. =/

sheesh. but perhaps, since my eyes were giving me problems, i couldn't see it properly. plus the fact that i was the only one who could see my fats in the pics, i think i am entitled to my own comments. haiya. i hope i look alrite.

ok fine. i'll just trust choonie.

i mean.. i also got no other choice lor.. hhahahahaha..

joyce is such a darling. i love her soo soo sooooo much! =)

ok i'm still tearing, think i'll go sleep.

*if the pics are decent, i'll post it up.. after all the photoshop. hahahahaa..

sian + random

another day has come and gone...

sian.

i got 3/5 for my finance quiz again. how sian lor. 3 quizes, all 60%. so cute lor, cannot stand.

okay. i am gg to get my A's. jiayou! woohOO.

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hmm. GST rising to 7%!! 0.0 how sian can that get.

the scandinavian countries have really high taxes.

ok. random thought of the day.

remind me to tell u what i think about income gaps in singapore and the asian financial crisis.
that is, after i studied for it.

hmm...

ramblings

blogger's got this really new layout thing, and i really like it. =)

i decided not to include my taggie because i dun really think there's much of a need anyway lah. (but i read the msg liannie.. =) muacks hope u are ok liao! )

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another week has just ended. its 12 more days to exams. altho i haven't started on my mgt sci, at all, i think i'll somehow be able to do well this sem, i hope. i need to pull my cap up this sem, so i can relax a lil next sem, esp since i dun have any excuse of not doing well this sem la. aiyah whatever.

okay.

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new news of cell posting. =) i'm happy. i'm sure it will all start really well. this split is what we really needed. what i dun understand is why are certain people not moving on with their lives? dammit.

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today's mkc was quite hectic. felt really tired today, esp since i felt like i ran the whole prog today. the kids were so rowdy, rarh, i wanted to bite their heads off. =/ but anyways, i still love them, somehow. haha

becky's worship today was great. =)
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hey mentos, angelinny, jo, derek and debbie.. a few more days! =) jiayoujiayou!!

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she closed her eyes and focused on the cross. with one hand placed on her heart and the other raised to Him, she felt her spirit lifted as she sang..

"at the cross
i bow my knee
where Your blood was shed for me
there is no greater love than this
....what can seperate me now?"

"i wish i was in Your presence praising You 24/7"

presentation + resume

i viewed my presentation today on tape. at least i don't really think i look like some animal when i wea formal. haha.. my hair needs another haircut badly. ( or should i just snip it all off again?)

i feel that i could have done a lot more better and am quite disappointed with myself. A presentation is made perfect with a stunning presentator. and i aim to do just that. a little more practice- thats all i need. i know i can do it. and do it well.

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i just did my resume, not very sure if i should included certain things. i really want to include my primary school achievements. hahaha.. but yj said it was too far off, and gave me a face. haha... i was quite active in primary school ok. i have like so many different certificates from my ensalmb to different types of national competitions that shuyun, clara and i just patricipated for the heck of it. hahaha..

As i read my secondary school testimonial, i felt a sense of nostalgia engulfing me. i really miss my secondary school days where we just complained nonstop over the work we had to do, the many stupid activities we had to join. i even remember emceeing a chinese singing competition as well as achieving first place in a chinese drama that i had to act gay. how embarassing it felt, but proud when i went up stage to claim my very first chinese acheivement. in retrospect, i appreciate all of these events. including the folding of those mass leavelets and stacking up those damn dusty chairs every mass session and assemblies. it was all worth it.

i smile as i recall how our 03s75 of SAjc 1st 3 months participated ever so actively in our little wired 'saint' business and won some award that we were not satisfied but proud of. i smile at the crazy timings i had to wake up and still be late for school and be little pets waiting for adoption by our CTs.

i recall my meridian days. on what dr S asked us to intro ourselves by saying what our fantasy is. from Wimbledon and Oscars to acting and singing with ayumi hamasaki, we said it all. =) From the picking of the class reps, to netball first trials, to the nicknames gathered (my fav has got to be the onr from my darling netball coach: twinkle toes.), tohave been scared out of our wits every econs lecture, to trying to scrape through all our tests, to complaining how freaking long our damn time tables are, to making our econs relief teacher cry because we couldn't understand what dd and ss is all about, to publicising events by getting on stage to sing and dance, to grab any chance i can to walk past the bball court (haha), to form secret alliance with the photocomm to get bball photos, to so many other rubbish things that i've done in meridian. the best of course was the incessent updating of our surroundings with my darling jie meis in the canteen during breaks.

i recall my working days. how i figured out how to use the damn photocopier, how i found out my boss secret, how we got so close, how they have become such unfriendly monsters to such close sisters, how they let me msn and email and whatever else that i shouldn't do and how they cover my ass when i was found out. haha. how one quit and how another came. and how i was awarded a huge elmo on my birthday, a purple crumpler when i left, and of course, not forgetting the longest temp staff award ever in the company.

i conclude that my resume is my life story. an interesting one it has been, and i love every moment and every single person that was involved in it.

totally.

=)

today, pastor said what we are gg to do for Christmas this year.

immediately, you came to my mind.

at that point, how i long to turn back time, and somehow deep within me, i wish it is possible; and i wish you'll just ask me and stop pushing me around.

culture + prestige

Asian values build on confucius values that emphasises on order and discipline. Western values build on rights and freedom. This conflict in cultures has resulted in the many global disagreements such as China's human rights.

who decides which culture is right? who decides what is the basic human rights?

culture imperialism: does it really exist?

part 2 soon.
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watch prestige the other day with fai. boi! it was so good and i am so motivated to study now lah! haha..

an obsession can end your life.
which matters more- love or career?
i still feel that Sarah's death is a maligned one.

the most impt lesson:
things are just as simple as it is, no illusions, no magic. it is just that simple.

another to add on my top 10 fav. =)

the prestige is power lah. =)

i think i should go get the book and read it again... hahahahah..
but for now.. its back to culture.

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jia you mentos!! =D