communication problems

i'm happy to noe the reason wasn't me. although i still think i doubt u- a lil. life just has to be as complicating as it is, i guess.

OH well.

lately, i realise i have a serious communication problem. not that i'm hostile or aloof, just that i can't seem to carry on conversations with a certain group of people. it is also not that i need to gain their favour or what not, but i realise that i can't seem to get along very well with them. probably its because of my 10 years upbringing in a girl's school that i'm not expose to certain circumstances,but i really wonder how the rest does it, so easily in fact. by their behaviour, their words, their topics of conversation. i can't seem to handle it. i mean, ya.. there is an exception to some.. who bother to reciprocate the conversation: its either they are friendly, or they know i'm trying hard to make them laugh and to feel comfortable with me.

it was evident in JC.. and much more now.

i underestimated 'my sense of propriety'. and i think u underestimated it too.

afterall, i am a convent girl.

but somehow, i dun behave like the rest. i behave the conventional way- and that is something thought provoking.

hmmm. why do i behave like this?