yawn

ahhhhhhh..

i think there's sth wrong with me la.. i decided to sleep early yday. but after trying to study.. or rather reading up for lecture later.. i went to bed at 12 30. thinking how fresh and ready for breakfast i was gg to be the next day. HOWEVER, i couldn't get to sleep la!!!! like !!!!! i cannot sleep?! like wth. gee.. it was damn bad that i got so frustrated with myself, got up and read my econs notes abt game theory, of which i got a headache theeafter, and managed to sleep. haha.. i think the headache was due to the sitting position, and leaning my head on my red ikea pillow rather than the wall, so it was uncomfortable.

anyways, i struggled out of bed at 8 40 today, just to go down to get breakfast. haha.. breakfast seems to be getting quite bleahk already..

anyways, i really thank God i was in SA for my first 3 months... haha.. at least i can consider those older Saints as my seniors...

we were suppose to hand in our SS Assignment yday and this sr from my hall asked me to help him with it by letting me show him my asignment. the assignment was about listing 10 questions to some general during ww2. and so i showed him.and wth. he actually criticised my work la. i'm like how nice, sharing with u wat i did, and u just criticise it? like HGFJTRDTRDJYGKUHY u. uRGH!! prob i noe i really am that lousy, but it doesn't qualify u to criticise me, after all i really spent my heart on it la ok. i tried reading all the cheem cheem readings and all.. and its blardy history la ok. eeeeeediot. ass.

he totally destroyed my whole mood during the whole lecture. so pissed. not because i'm sensitive here.. but it really sucks to hear such things abt ur work when u put effort into it.

i was gg down the steps of the LT, thinking of saying a good bye to my frens, both from SA, the girl from my tut class, and the guy from my legal group, who were like chao enthu sitting right in front of the lect today which is like so not them. anyway, i didn't bother, because i didn't have the mood. but ivan called my name, asked me to wait up while he walked together with me. while complaining to him, he said is a very loud voice, "WHERE'S ALEX? dare to bully my junior.. LET'S GO FIND HIM NOW!" haha.. he made me laugh. haha.. because he's so skinny and he's anyhow-ing away. haha..

anyways, ivan gave me a lift back to hall from the LT (its far) and before i left, said again "WHERE's ALEX??" haha.. sounds damn childish, but i think he made me feel happier. haha..

thanks ivan, sheena n another SA sr who was there..

late for MNO!! bubye!!

i really had a weird dream today.. u were in it.. i'm having mixed feelings..somehow, i wished it for another reason, then again, that was more than enough. but will we ever get to experience it for the right reason? perhaps yes, perhaps not.

i am a raindrop.

i. am. a. raindrop.

:D

i was talking to winnie darling who lives opp me while standing at our own doorway a few min ago, and we both decided to blog this revelation down. :D

while walking to the toilet to brush our teeth, i told winnie "eh. i love ur blogskin"

of which, we started talking abt her analogy of rain as blessings from God.. and then we started talking abt her phrase "me in a raindrop" instead of "me in a nutshell". so i decided to show off some of my geog intellect by saying "do you know that a raindrop is made up of dust..??" and the condensation nuclei and sorts. (mr chen's gg to be really proud of me! :D)

so while both of us were in the midst of brushing our teeth, and when delphia entered the toilet with the intention of peeing, winnie exclaimed,

"we are also made out of dust!!"

"..and dust attracts water!!"

and both our eyes grew really wide. and we started saying really loud.

"we are raindrops because we attract blessing which is water!!" (Psalm 23:6)

revelation.. and just a few seconds ago...

Princess Winz - i love the rain and cooling weather. i miss the beach!! says:
laureen\
Princess Winz - i love the rain and cooling weather. i miss the beach!! says:
i got somemore revelation
Princess Winz - i love the rain and cooling weather. i miss the beach!! says:
hahaha
laur: Who compares to You? says:
wah
laur: Who compares to You? says:
on the roll man
laur: Who compares to You? says:
hahaha
laur: Who compares to You? says:
wat wat wat
Princess Winz - i love the rain and cooling weather. i miss the beach!! says:
dust ( we) + water vapour ( water =life) = Raindrop ( rain = blessing)
Princess Winz - i love the rain and cooling weather. i miss the beach!! says:
therefore we are given life by God to become a blessing
Princess Winz - i love the rain and cooling weather. i miss the beach!! says:
wahahaha....
Princess Winz - i love the rain and cooling weather. i miss the beach!! says:
i am a blessing!
Princess Winz - i love the rain and cooling weather. i miss the beach!! says:
so are you

if its anything i thank God the most for in Sheares, its a sister in Christ who stays opp me. :)

i love winnie.

..and of course my other neighbours who take care of me, esp the one with the toothache living in 512. hope u feeling better u lemonny connie.

get well soon connie bonnie!!

i just want to lie in your arms, let the world pass me by and let ur love overflow in me.

i cluubbeed. hahahaahha in Blk A's lounge. (in other words, i went lounge-ing)

hhmmm... not that it is a bad thing. just that its quite loserfied. hahaahah.. but its ok. i love the company. i love my seniors. haha.. bona is just ultimately hilarious. serious. hahaha.. and i stil think hairy bro looks like him.. some how la.. dunno where look like also.. just some how.. haha..

hmmm.. on another note. my friend's mother passed away this morning. i hope he's taking it fine.. sigh. sometimes we will only know how to treasure relationships when it happens to others or urself.. when will we ever learn without such unfortunate things happening to us...

hey diana, bin, ling and yi na.. i miss our mj days. no matter how sucky life was then, i dun think i will ever survive it without u all.. and mr fangs. (is he with me ah?? or is he in bin's pencil box??)

and so... life moves on..

to live is Christ, to die is gain. philipians 1 :21

just one of the many many

my watch endorsement photo.

hahah.. just one of the many many.. hahahaha

communication problems

i'm happy to noe the reason wasn't me. although i still think i doubt u- a lil. life just has to be as complicating as it is, i guess.

OH well.

lately, i realise i have a serious communication problem. not that i'm hostile or aloof, just that i can't seem to carry on conversations with a certain group of people. it is also not that i need to gain their favour or what not, but i realise that i can't seem to get along very well with them. probably its because of my 10 years upbringing in a girl's school that i'm not expose to certain circumstances,but i really wonder how the rest does it, so easily in fact. by their behaviour, their words, their topics of conversation. i can't seem to handle it. i mean, ya.. there is an exception to some.. who bother to reciprocate the conversation: its either they are friendly, or they know i'm trying hard to make them laugh and to feel comfortable with me.

it was evident in JC.. and much more now.

i underestimated 'my sense of propriety'. and i think u underestimated it too.

afterall, i am a convent girl.

but somehow, i dun behave like the rest. i behave the conventional way- and that is something thought provoking.

hmmm. why do i behave like this?

Dear GOd..

i wanted to sleep.. but i just had to blog this down..

A certain goood fren who i had not spoken to for a lonnng time msged me yday.. He said he needed some one to talk to. and so i told him to call me.. and when i heard his voice, i knew sth was wrong..

the fact that his mother's days are numbered.. and she's lying in hospital now.. and each time that she's awake,she screams in pain. she couldn't even recognise her husband.. my heart just dropped, as tears stream down my face.

then and there.. i really realise how important my family members are to me.. and how important faith is needed to keep one going. the issue here is not 'Why God allow such things to happen' but rather, it is how we get through this with Him. Since all that works out is for good.. and everything is happening in His timing.

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love
him, who have been called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28

have u hug ur daddy and mummy today?? go and give them one and tell them u love them.

sometimes, i wish i can just spend all my days singing and worshiping u.. so that i'll be stronger in ur word and be a blessing to others. i wish we didn't haf to do go thu wat we are gg thru now, but to live in ur presence, and just proclaiming ur name and shouting ur fame. ..

omg omg omg!!

omgomgomgomgomgomgomg.

i had a photoshoot today!!

i felt like a model.

wahaha.

i can't wait for the photos to be out tmr!! aww maaaaaannnn....

this is killing me. hahaha..

oh gee. i really love my aunty ruth. she always has the best lobangs. hmm..

*thinks.

actually its kiat's. but ahhh.. who cares. i love aunty ruth (and kiat)..

i pray the photos will come out niceeeee...

omgomgomgomgomgomgomg.

shits. stats project is sooooooooooo dead.

dead. tired.

God's will.

i thought i could finally go clubbing on thursday with the hall peeps.

BUT. i just had to fall sick.

there's this little instruction which is the last line at the medicine tag thingy..

"Avoid alcohol"

SO SAD la.

feeling quite miserable- can't make up my mind if i'm hot or cold.

so manny deadlinesss... test this thurssssssssssssss.

traveling to teach krystel..

bleah.

ahhhh.

i'm sick. i caught the flu bug.

for wat rite.

rather catch butterflies.

then again.

butterflies are bugs.

ok. i'll catch birds then.

"i survived one year w/o u... honestly.. it hurts."

evil thoughts

running thru my head.

i shouldn't be thinking of such things. that is wrong.

pure hypocritism.

but i cannot stand him/her anymore!!!!

Dear God.. give me strength.

i remember typing that blogging is gg to be frequent a few weeks back.

ha.

oh well.. life at the moment is quite crazy. and me, getting more indolent by the day, rather choose lying on the bed with eyes closed than sitting on this hard blue chair to blog. (although i heard KR's chairs are worse)

i hate legal. have i said that before? hmm.

been feeling like some caged bird ( or hamster) recently. the ironic part is that its not a 'master' who locked the door of my cage but rather, me, myself and i (the bird or the hamster in me) who willingly took that bunch of keys and lock myself in- willingly or hypnotised, i'm not sure. i feel stuck here. as in life revolves ard this hilly place.. i eat, sleep, shit here for like 5/7 of the week. i hardly contatcted the outside world. (but at least i knew bali was bombed again- my heart aches for them.) and the remaining 2 days that i try to get back my life to normal, with laur co next to me, are spent travelling to krystel's house, teaching jo and to church.

oh gee. i'm starting to contradict myself.. i mean i wanted to stay in hall really badly. and i treasuer my friendships and all that i made here. the rag and the cheerleading times.. but some how, it seems to demand so much from me that i'm getting so irritated. ah. i haven't started to done up the treasury book.

i perfectly understand why one needs and wants a physical somebody of the opposite sex. becos it is that person that he/she seek solace and comfort. he/she feels wanted and important. he/she feels that life is all to live for and wonderful. that life is perfect and carefree. that he/she can exchange the stress and the unhappiness for the love and the warmth a wide-opened arms offer.i understand why they need to have that feeling.

becos at this point in time, i need to feel that too.

not that i'm in self depression mode, i just had this sudden bout of loneliness. so ya i'll be fine la.

wats more pressurising at the moment: i'm getting fat. bleaaaaahhhh... while everybody else is getting thinner. this sucks man. not been exercising though.. sian.

i miss my jc days. i miss you, you, you, you and.. erm.. you.

oh! i got my red striped converse sneakers. :) need to add stuff to my wishlist soon. haha

weiseong asked me if i wanted to go clubbing. hahaah.. hilarious, but sweet. and i can't believe his gf was jealous of me. like wth. eww. nono.

i.want.to.dye.my.hair.again. i mean, come on. have u seen sam lo lately. wth.

and wth. i'm just typing watever thats coming to my mind.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. bin. diana. anybody. drive me ard.

i miss father, mother, corn, jo, gema, mess.

why do i always get stuck in dungeons?

buaya week has started. :)

hahahah..

pretty boy only works at night.. and he's quite low profile.. he doesn't do fanciful things. which is quite boring, actually. erm.. oops

hhahahah

anyways, yesterday morning..he left me an incomplete puzzle, and a CD with the song titles he incorporated into a letter at my front door. sweet. haha..

however, the CD cannot play the songs la.. so sad.. :( but the CD is really cute.. :)

so no word from pretty boy till this morning.. a dozen straw stars supported by a satay stick in a small bottle.. a dozen tiny purple blue stars, a ring and a potpurri of which is hung at my door, with a note to apologise about "the failed attempt to touch me heart" haha.. its nice to be buaya-ed.

and as for my buayee.. hahaha.. his name is everywhere on level 2. haha.. wasted tons of paper.. till i resorted to using magazine paper. haha.. he reciprocated with a chocolate cheese cake that tasted fantastically good. i thought it was from my buaya actually. :( but oh well.. my buayee is hot. haha.. and so is his girlfren. hahhahahahah...

so anyways, as ppl confess their love to each other thru posters on the walls.. in the lifts.., it somehow makes me wonder how many of us actually have this feeling: that we secretly wish this will carry on after buaya week...

janet, sijie and gladys are soooooo lucky!

stats class.

out.

he screamed at me when he didn't even discuss the details properly. wth.

ok. prob i was naggy. i admit, and i'm sorry. but it hurt when he said that

"biz ppl do la.. do..talk so much for what. come here nv do anything only nag."

wth. i went to support my FATHER. not went out with some hot dude. URGH.

u didn't even discuss properly and make ur idea clear to everyone,and u want to go ahead and do it? i mean.. even if i didn't sleep for 40 hours i wouldn't be that insensitive. i would just go hyperly crazy and laugh at everything, lest think straight.

i couldn't stand it when he belittled others who didn't get his idea. he screams " use ur brrraaaiiinnn.." wth. there are ppl who are that insensitive.

furthermore, u screamed at me when i know i was doing it right. i KNOW what i was doing. all i wanted to do was to extend the string at the end so it will be easy to pull but nooooooo.. u made fun of me. and redid it. wth.

there was tension after that between the both of us.. everybody saw it.. i was so pissed and so was he. prob ppl thought i was the one who is at fault. but seriously, u shouldn't just go ahead and do what u think its right without everybody knowing what is gg on. i don't like it.

SAPP!!!!

seriously. ARGH!!

i'm totally disgusted with his actions today. like totally. thank God win was on my side. like seriously. thanks girl. :)

important notes to success in groupwork:

-NEVER EVER EVER look down on others.

-make ur bloody idea clear to everybody. even if it takes centuries to do it.

somehow, i dun think i like u very much anymore.

remember the words of those elderly ppl who once said A levels are done, uni will just be a breeze?

ha.

what liars.

goodness.. its only been the first few weeks of school and i'm already stressed up!! probably becos its hall.. really involved in hall: all the IBG events- including track, nball and cheerleading; a capella auditions; block comm stuff... that probably explains why i'm so tired these days. hardly get to go home to sleep on weekends. there's krystel and jo mo mo to teach.. and i still have to 'teach' yours truly also.

true, uni time table is really cool. haaha.. i have an average of 3 hours of school a day. thats really cool. haha.. and Friday's lect is webcast. even more cool. dun need to get up for lects on friday. which means i can be considered to haf a 4 day week. :)

oh well. i must say i miss my friends esp my jie meis.. haha.. (not becos ling asked me to dedicate it to them) as in all those gossips in the canteen during lunch, the constant complains and whining of certain teachers and PE, and of course waiting for each other to do our business finish in the toilet. those were the days. oh and i really miss diana n ling ling.. quite badly..

met many ppl that i know a few years back.. from kindergarten (yes, kindergarten.) to JC.. weird how they all turn out. all the slangs that were never there, just seem to look as if they were speaking in this way for their whole 19 years of life. bimbotic slangs. but hey, i remember how u spoke last time mans. me remembers. very clearly, in fact. Hmmm. change change change.. people do change.

hmm... uni is filed with people from everywhere.. esp ppl from the top JCs. somehow i just feel so intimidated by them, i feel i can't keep up with them. hmm.. shouldn't feel that way, i guess.. but when some guy- who is my good fren- asks u abt how u did for A's and u tell him in a voice that just shows how proud u are of ur achievements, because u know u worked so hard for such results and u certainly know that it was also a miracle despite the difficult emotional situation i was in, in that point in time.. he just looks blankly at u and say " huh? like that u so happy already ah?"

SaPP! ( a word i learnt from management class)

its not that i habour any hard feelings towards him (its really hard to, actually).. just that it hit me hard then and there, that i really need to work doubly, or 'triple-ly', hard to be on par with them.

face it. i'm not initially clever to begin with. i dun haf the genes of parents who are both doctors, or lawyers or one of each or whatever... gets so irritating soometimes when u talk to children of such genes.

but one thing i know and i claim,

if my God is for me, who can be against me?

yup, u r right.

NONE.

laureen, jia you!!

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WAHAHAHAHAHAH!!! woohOO!!!!

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hey bro.. are u reading this? just wanted to say i miss you. :)

hope u r doing fine!! not sure if i should leavea comment at u-noe-where, becos perhaps u-noe-who doesn't knoe i view it.. i dunno.. so i thought i shan't be rude and anyhow leave my 'footprints'. haha..

anyways.. let me tell u how stressful law class isssss!! goodness.. i hate it. biz law really sucks. interesting, yes. but the ppl there are like.. woh. shooting questions like crazy and i feel so intimidated. :( dunno why also. but i also got ask questions la.. stupid ones. hahaha.. but today i was the first one to shoot my hand up reeeaallly high and answered what b0na fide is. aren't u just proud of ur lil sister. hahahaa...

furthermore, i only managed to get my lappy today.. so all those cases.. gee.. i seriously haf no idea whatever the lecturer is teaching. that lexis place... haha like.. where? huh? what?

but i leant sth: biz law class- u dun go there and learn. u learn, go there and flaunt it. (thank God i didn't go SMU- think i'll faint and die)

my respect for u has thus increase to another level. u lawyers are crazy. crazily clever.

oh.. yes. i've really got so much to tell u.. all these crazy hall events i'm in.. haha.. cheerleading is really fun!! hahahah.. just that u feel very 'touched' at the end f the whole session thingy. hahaha..

yea. i miss you. and i shall go sleep le.. laureen's tired. very tired.. nitey bro. seet dreams. :)

no points for guessing WHERE and WHO'S laptop i'm using.

like no points at all..

blogging is gg to be frequent!!

woohoO!! laureen has a new toy!!

lalala.. who misses me?? hahahah

happy national day!!

fireworks!! *squeals

ah. just got back from hall camp. :) hall is sooo freaking fun. esp my block!!

haha.. words cannot describe how fun the camp has been.. and the frens i made. haha.. oh well.

although my room is like a pigeon hole.. and i haf yet to wash my clothes myself.. haha... oh well.. oops. dun luagh. soon lor. i learn how to use already ok. haha

guess i wun be blogging anytime soon.. until i get my lap top :) sou guys just wait for me to blog again ba. :)

btw, i got into rag dance for sheares!! hahahaa.. ya.. me? dance? u heard that right. whether or not i survive a not is a different thing ba,. haha. 6th aug- laureen goes dancing :D

kbox and nydc dinner tmr before gg back to hall!! woohoo!!

Melvin gave me a book for my 15th birthday. found that book whiile father did some renovations to my room. haha.. filled with dust bunnies. (oops.)

remembered trying to read this birthday present. read it but it didn't register in my mind. so i picked the book up from that shelf, dusted off those bunnies, and started reading it yday.

The Quest For Character- Charles R. Swindoll

The quest for character requires that certain things be kept IN the heart as kept FROM the heart. An unguarded heart spells disaster. A well guarded heart means survival. If u hope to survive the jungle, overcoming each treacherous attack, you'll have to guard ur heart.

just a paragraph; a thought- meaningful one; a fact; a warning.

Are you guarding ur heart?

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hostel. arguement. family. torn. selfish? deprive? understand? money?

I'm clinging on to U. i'm not sure if what i'm doing is right. but if u bring me to it, U'll bring me thru it. its not much of wanting to do things my way, but the way to do what u want me to do.

i had a great day today! ahha. went to trim the ends of my hair.. and did some window shopping.

and i paid for a ZARA top. hahahahahah..

just realise that after i stopped working i nv blog anymore. HMM... hahahaha...

i'm getting the bin syndrome. oh no!!!

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WAHAHAHAHAHA

did i tell u?

how wonderful life is without working? (lets not talk abt the money part)

haha.. k box with ling and bin today! so cool. hahaha.. we should really do it more often and i shall attempt to listen to more jay chou and sun yan zi songs. so i can sing chinese. hahaah

oh well. did i also tell u?? my colleagues got me a purple crumpler bag! :D hahaha.. there weren't any red in that design. so sad lor!! when i told the guy they should haf it in red, he told me. "aiyah.. its sth different. there has always been red in all the designs! so boring" and i was thinking "so stupid. y i want to buy that time nv produce." anyway it costs $139. michelle say she collected $140. just nice. hahaah really bless. definitely gg back to work there during vacation. and pray i wun dread it. i dun think i will la.

went for that concert thingy with daryl today. gee. sat behind this whole group of ACJC kids. who kept turning ard and say " daryl!!"

whatever.

anyway, glad i'm out of JC. haha aren't u guys?

the place where we were at had no reception. prob its already a known fact, but i'm sorry.. as sua ku as i am, that was my first concert at the esplanade. haha. i de ja vu-ed there though. so anyway when there was finally reception ( after the concert finished and after daryl collected his bags while i received more stares from his juniors), there was this unknown number who called me.. so i msged that person.. anddd it was this guy from Sheares Hall. haha..

did i mention to u i got in sheares? obviously with the help from bro. (thanks bro!! :D)

he told me a whole lot of info i can't really remember.. hafta call him again. haha.. so anyway guess what!! looks like i'll be gg for a camp after alL!! how cool how cool how cool. the camp is a week long! i know God will answer my prayer when i complained to him that night.. :) thanks God. :)

oh and i haf to like check in next week or sth.. so fast. i'm so scared. i better learn how to wash my clothes tmr!! AHHH.. hahaha.. see.. disadvantages of being a princess. tsk tsk. terrible.

so haf a big reading date with the other daryl from AC too tmr. i can't wait!!

me at the counter acting professional.



michelle (her drumlet), the Pooh and me




michelle, uncle benny and me. yes. uncle benny's 'ears' are the vitamin C i bought for him as his eyes, they are ferrero rocheh.



yani and meee



uncle benny looking totally spastic



what can i say? its uncle benny. all he needs are ears, and he looks like a donkey.



the web page i face everyday. (notice the yahoo mail and msn at the task bar.....



the couple (tricia and michael) & me. i sit at the table behind.



wendy, me and Judy.( i still think Judy looks sooo oriental!)



esther and me. esther has very big eyes.. dunno why here not as big. haah



eileen, the bookmark and me. michelle say we look alike. do we??



lynn and me.



uncle benny, me and fendi!!




yani, dana( my first fren there!!) and me



a group photowith the pizzas and w/o me. the one sitting down is prema. (no comments)



the dinner at coffee club (SEE HUI LING!!)



and my last pic with fendi!! yay!!!

Uncle theodore reminds me of mr yeo.

period.

Congratulations laureen, you are...

mr brown of www.mrbrown.com

Like that ad for Toys 'R Us, you are that kid who doesn't want to grow up. Except you do. And now you're just a big overgrown kid who doesn't want grow up. You have a warped yet addictive sense of humour. It takes skills to poke fun at serious things and you have no problems doing that. Your peers look up to you and yet you're humble about everything. You are an infantile.

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UNCLE THEODORE! hahahahahahahaah...

i alighted at Aljunid Mrt with a sense of excitement and anxiety on 21st Dec 2004, and a different sense of excitement filled my senses today as i alighted the train and walked the familiar route i took the past 6 months and 23 days, to the office.

during this whole period, the excitement that i had at first seem to wear away as stacks of sickening enrolment forms keep coming in. it was freaking boring. i started out sitting next to the manager, and that kept me literally on my toes. i had a hard time esp after lunch. but God helped me thru it. :)

diana and daniel came.

daniel left

hailing came

diana left

daniel came back

daniel left

grace came

grace left

wu di came

hailing left

wu di left

i thank God for the heaps of boxes that filled up the space i was sitting at. i was being moved to sit opposite fendi. and that was a start of a frenship. haha.. (with all those quizes we shared to kill time.

the pay cheque that i waited eons before i received it. on how i survived 20 days with only $5 in my atm. the constant grumblin and silent cursing i muttered under my breath everyday before my pay cheque came. and when it came, halluelujah. Thank u God.

sth crucial happened on valentine's day. and i gained not just a boss and a colleague relationship, but 2 frens.

when hui ling left, a malay colleague took her place. and oh boy. was i lucky to have her. gone were the days where i thought i would have to lunch alone again. munching on xiao man tous almost everyday and $2 porridges before yani came. running ard the office and sticking my face on the glass door to attract attention mainly to uncle benny to press the dumb button so i can go in, the slacking of blogging and msging and frenstering while doing online forms..

and now thinking of all these, i'm certain i grew: grew more independent, more sensible, more self reliant. and oh. not forgeting growing to become a big spender. becos i'm broke, again.

and another chapter of my life has close.

its my last day of work!! WOOHOO!!!

was surfing thru frenster just now.. weiseong has a really cute fren by the name of marcus. haha.. i think he's cute. haah.. so i "read more" abt him and apparently they were from the same sec sch. which means same sch as corn.. haha.. so i e-mailed corn and ask her.. and she said thats the guy who sat next to her in class! hahaah.. oh sheesh.

gonna have pizza for lunch later!! their treat! woohoo!!

i'm happy. :D

they are actually going to buy me pizza for lunch tmr!

apparently, its the tradition if someone in the office leaves. i'm like the only temp staff they give so much recognition to!!

then again i worked here for 6 months plus. HEY. i deserve it. and oh.. not forgetting the red crumpler bag michelle promise..

am i lucky or am i lucky. :D

ok. i'm coming back to work here once there's school vacation. hahaha..

1.5 days lefffffffffffffft!!!! :D :D :D

thursday- k box with jie mei, concert with daryl aw.
friday- reading book date with daryl li
(whats with all the daryls rite? i also dunno.)
saturday- baptism event
sunday- farewell lunch for erim sim..

talking abt erin.. she's the KC girl i've seen ard in school but have never spoken a word in 10 years. only to haf so much fun and laughter during the 11th year of seeing her ard in mj. the tortuorous training that cused us to all develop stomach aches due to the laughing (esp when elsa, erin and i were in a team); the election of our darling erin into the nball comm so as to give the slackers a voice in the CCa; the stupid jokes we say, criticsof other ppl and not forgetting our cheerleading formation has made nball so much more fun than just running round that dumb track and court, and catching and throwing of the darn ball. (not forgetting the scolding we received when we went marche to eat and got back late..and the HUGE scolding we got from our "dearest" coach. (EEEEEE)..HAHAHA)

after 7 months, we are finally meeting again (i.e "the netball slackers"- elsa, shu yun, erin, joleen and myself), and it will be our last.. before erin come back.. i'm soooooooooooooooo going to miss erin. sigh.

somebody just said sth to me and it really hurt.

somebody who is close to me.

somebody who doesn't understand what i'm facing.

somebody who always thinks he/she is right.

i dun want to go uni anymore. its causing me a hell lot of trouble.

if i could only run away.

ah.. freak. i forgot what i wanted to blog.

*grumbles*

oh. haha 6 more days. :D which means.. erm.. 3 more working days!! haha..

wun be coming to work tmr. having bday party tmr. and shoppinG!! but most prob its the type where ur eyes can only feast.

hmmmmmmmmmmm. work till really late tonite. sians.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAIRY BRO!!

yellow for reggie the duckie. hahahahaha... :D

awwww.... when will that be? hmmm....

When you love someone so deeply
They become your life
It's easy to succumb to overwhelming fears inside
Blindly I imaged I could
Keep you under glass
Now I understand to hold you
I must open my hands
And watch you rise

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sunIf you should return to me
We truly were ment to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

I have learned that beauty
Has to flourish in the light
Wild horses run unbridled
Or their spirit dies
You have given me the courage
To be all that I can
And truly feel your heart will
Lead you back to me when you're
Ready to land

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were ment to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

I can't pretend these tears
Aren't over flowing steadily
I can't prevent this hurt from
Almost overtaking me
But will stand and say goodbye
For you'll never be mine
Until you know the way it feels to fly

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sunIf you should return to me
We truly were ment to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sunIf you should return to me
We truly were ment to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly
So flutter through the sky
Butterfly
Spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

hmm. i'm so bored at work. today productivity level is the lowest. yday productivitty freking hiGH! finish half a file man. so impress with myself.

anyways, very bored.

bleah.

i should be in one of the NUS camps now actually. but nvm.. wun want to do what God doesn't want me to do. so yea. just haf to think of ways to make more frens. hahaaha...

sleppy and so full. had $1.90 nasi lemak for lunch. yea. cheaper than my porridges. hahahaha

porridges.. geddit geddit?? hahaha.. oh nvm.

bcalsbuliqwucheiuh ciuefhlawiufhkwjcnlwkuaehiuqgfrjfvjbpqwkj

yea. bored.

just us. :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NE!!!!!!! :D

INITIAL D is way cool.

jay chou looks really good in the show. haha.. yesssss... its coming from me... haha. he looks good in the movie becos of his character. i think his character is sooo sweet... just that he lacks initiative. and it just reminds me of a certain somebody...

oh well....

memories.

if the bloody freaking camp is bloody freaking full. can u bloody freaking just remove the @#$&*@!$#$& registration form off the ur bloody net.

stupid idiots with no common sense. make ppl happy for nothing. bloody hell.

damn pissed la!!!!!!!!!!!

no camps=lesser friends. damn.
:(

and bro's on his way to perth........

You cannot dream yourself into a character; you must hammer and forge yourself one.
James A. Froude (1818 - 1894)

hellooo. :D

din go to work yday. haha.. thats why u didn't see me online. life's good without working.

managed to push front my last day or work. 13th July. i so can't wait. haha..
13th becos, 14th we are finally gg sentosa. so i guess i shall start losing the tummy i developed over the past few days after dance class. haha then it'll be perfect for 14th. haha.. but i dun think its possible. me and my itchy mouth.

listening to my IRIVER now... ahhh.. i'm so in love with it. keke

fendi admitted missing me from work yday. haha becos i promised him i'll bring my baby (my H10) to show him yday. but i din appear. haha.. imagine how loud he shouted my name this morning when he saw me. haha.. :P maan. feels good to be missed. haha

anyways, while he was just leaving his fingerprints all over my beautiful, wendy came along and got so excited as well. ahahahha.. gee. anyway, she promised to share with me her songs. yes. euphemism for er.. u noe.

yep. 30th.. thats hui qing's bday. happy birthday girl!! although i dun think u see this. and i can't msg u happy bday becos i lost ur contact in erm.. the swimming pool.

and 30th- pass up time sheet day. :D yay. haha.. its the last time sheet of a full month.

Dear God.. let father close the deals..

prob later.

have i ever told anybody the extent of how much i love aunty ruth and my all-time-favourite brother, timothy goh shao wei?!

i love them to bits. as in.. bits. like.. bits.. u noe u noe???

i had a wonderful night last night!!!

hahaha.. went to sim lim and i finally got a mp3 player!! i'm officially a proud member of the iriver gang!! :D along side with ne and bin, of course. (quick. we need membership cards)anyways, its a beauty. uh ah.. *wavers finger in front of ur face* i ain't kidding. its DEEP RED; not just red colour, but DEEP RED. :D

thanks bro for sponsoring part of it!! *muacks muacks muacks*

after sim lim, we went to fish & co at bugis to eat dinner. it was laureen's long awaited treat to my 2 fav aunty and bro. (since after A levels can?)so anyways, before dinner was served, i opened aunty ruth's present to me.and this was what i got:

a latest arrival white and green adidas watch.!!!!

hahahaha... its a beauty tooooooooooooooooo... its like wOH. and its so pretty and sooooooo .. erm ... pretty.haha..

i love aunty rutH!!! :D

while we ate, we talked. hahaha.. we talked about Lord of the rings. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.. oh well.. inside joke. no no!! oh waiT! its not a joke. its reality in the making. *gasp* aunty ruth wants to be the tree!!!

*laughing and clutching my stomach while rolling on the floor*

hmmm..we proceeded to fullerton later for a drink. haha.. aunty ruth's treat.beautiful, romantic ambience, with nuce cushy cushy sofas with beautiful bouncy soft white big pillows to hug. (get the picture?? get the picture??)while drinking and eating that champagne thingy thingy that bro reccomended, bro and aunty ruth were telling the ever so innocent me of what concotions i should avoid. bleah.

my conclusion: i think if it sounds like it leads to my death (like GRAVEYARD) i should avoid it at all cost.

ok, brother and aunty ruth PROMISED to bring me go and chiong. hahaahah.. yes, and we better do it before bro starts work on the 9th...and probably i'll have another educational lessons on drinks i should avoid..

sorry diana, couldn't help u make a lil more cash.. really sorry...

dinner tonight at 85 (not block 85- i learnt my language, diana) with jie meis to celebrate diana's birthday.

:D:D :D :D i love aunty ruth; i love bro tim.

i'm loved and so so so so so so so so so blessed. and i thank God for that.

*p.s/ THANKS YANI FOR THE LUNCH TREAT AT PASTAMANIA YDAY!!! :D

The words that enlighten the soul are more precious
than jewels.
- Hazrat Inayat Khan

how true. how very true.

ah. i'm achIng ALL over. we did the dance more than 7 times yday. all the stretching. oh man..

thank God there isn't any session today. tmr is the real thing though. hahaha.. but its cool and i enjoy myself, apart from the aches.

prob blog later la. chao sleepy.

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY, DIANA CHAN JIEMEI!!!

went for dance class yday.

ohhhhhhhhh boooooooooooooooy. muscles are aching like crap. haha..

becos becks and i didn't go for the first lesson on tues, we were behind everybody in terms of learning the moves for the song. and guess what. we learned the whole song in just 1 day.

the dance is really cool.. haha.. although we are not very good with the moves yet. today is the last day before a performance on sat. haha.. so fast right. i also dunno whats going on

all i noe is that there's this really really pretty girl there.. her name is lydia. and she's freaking freaking pretty. she was from SAjc.. currently, in Laselle. and she's freaking pretty. and when i say freakking. i mean freaking.haha.. oh maaaannnn.... and oh boy, she can move man.

the whole dance thing was really weird at first. becos not only do we know nobody, we dun noe the dance at all. and the blardy instructor was freaking fast and the 2 of us were like freaking staring at each other. but we managed to get it la in the end.

funny, but i can't wait for dance tonight.

i love to dance. :D

heeeeeeeeeeeeeeellllllllllooooooooo everybody. :D

missed me yah?? i noe. its ok. hahahaa..

lots of things happened in church camp. but firstly, there weren't any cute guys there. sians. ok la prob 1 or 2.. but i wan't interested. not intereste enough to go bug aunty stef to help me make frens. so there. but aunty stef was pointing out to me who were pastor's sons and even recommended the photographer to me. like OH PLEASE!! he's 29!! save him for becky. come on!! hahaha.. erm oops.

anyways, the most merorable thing that happened during this whole long stretch of holiday:

yep. our first destination was port dickson.

(to cut the whole story short)

..yep.

so upon arrival, we rested awhile by playing happy family with our room mates, the Ying family kids, namely jaclyn, 14, and carolyn, 9.

and when all the parents decided to go explore the region and look for durian stalls, a fruit everybody has been craving for since dunno when (except certain ppl), the teens n the 2 lil ones (corn, me, angeline, lina, jo n carolyn) changed into our swimming costume (**ARENA**); and got all ready to go for a swim.

jaclyn CHOSE not to bring her swimming costume, and joanne,erm.. u noe, wasn't sth that she can choose. anyway, afraid that father would call me, i entrusted my phone with jaclyn.

while we were in the pool, i noticed jaclyn being very left out sitting at the pool side. forgetting that she had my phone, i asked the teens f we should include jac into the pool.. by pulling her in.. but i decided not to, becos i was afraid if she would to cry, i would haf died.

however, 45 sec later, diane swam up to me and said.. "laureen.. my mummy want to pull jaclyn down too.."

a turn of the head, and u see aunty chris, in the pool, creeping up to where jaclyn was sitting.. and in a blink of an eye.. aunty chris got hold of her legs. joanne, got the hint, and got up and over to the back of jaclyn and gave her a final push.

a push that sealed the fate of my phone- forever.

the loud "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAahhhhh..." was followed by a "LAUREEN! I GOT UR PHONE!"

yep. thats it. it was gone.

but what made me feel even more guilty was not just my phone gone, but hers as well... although we managed to save our SIM cards, we lost our phones.

oh well, at least we still have our sim cards.

hahaahahaah

but that poor girl.. transferred all her contacts from her sim card to her phone, just before the camp. so.. yea.. she lost all of her contacts..

gee.

*guilty*

alrite, that aside. i managed to get a new phone. the most basic samsung phone ever.. no radio, no camera. aiyah. getting my mp3 player le.. need radio for what.

hahahaah.. oh wellx.

oh btw, jaclyn went to get a swimming costume the next day.

**i wonder what jamie is doing in biz camp now.. just thinking of all the fun she's having...

haha.. just read mentos' blog. she sure sounds as if she's having so much fun.

happy for u mentos. :)

hmmm..

sunday was great. haha like realy great. kirby drove us (corn, kiat, dicky and me) to marina after church that day. everybody was so hyped up and all.. have i ever told anybody how great it is to haf a sister's boyfren who can drive? oh well.. its great. like REALLLY GREAT. haha. but hey kirby, i dun just like u becos u can drive ok. haha dun get the wrong idea.

anyways, before the match started and the BC ppl arrived, joyce led jane, jo e mo, joannie, corn and me into our very own Z-L-S-C-C cheer. yes. hilarious; embarassing and "super cute". haha.. eh. we have purple pom poms k. shiny some more.. dun play ah..

saw cherlyn (again! 3 times a week of 7 years), screaming away, and then we had everybody saying "u look very farmiliar.. who's daughter are u??" and then u haf ppl (esp corn) going "HUH.. but u were so small last time.." like whatever man corn. we all grow. -.-

so anyway, i managed to say hi to theodore without being scared. haha.. theodore is HUGE. so scary. and yes. i really was soooo scared. still is actually. THEODORE IS HUUUUUUUGE. oh and grace was in malaysia.. that woman.. urgh.

anyway, corn saw ppl she never liked in church. a particular girl who's name starts with V. corn and bex hate that whole gang to the core man. haha.. and she's not as pretty as i used to think she was. corn's prettier. a kazillion times man. (ok corn. stop smiling to urself)

so anyways, the match started n all... kirbs was good maaan. (hip lah) and so was my darling dicky. hahaha. bro was hip la.. but dunno how come kick the ball dunno go where. hahahaah but its ok, i still love him, and he's still the best becos he scored the only goal from our side! yay!! haha.. yea.. daryl was hip too. aiyah all hip la.

so.. the final score was 5-1. HAHAHAHA. 2 were own goals. hahaahahah.. so funny.BUT HEY. WE HAD SHINY POM POMS. THEY HAD NOTHING. and thats the bottom line. ahahahahaha.. joyce said üsually, if the cheerleading is great, the team usually dun play well. take the movie, BRING IT ON, for example..." we nearly died laughing.

anyway,FYI, everybody's favourite xiao ping ended up injuring somebody. lucky the injury is not serious.

act almost all of them had injuries. hmmm. hahahha..

went for dinner later on at changi village.. had $6 curry fish head. it was goooooood man. corn and i totally devoured it. hahahah.. yea. devoured.

went home feeling very smelly- from all the cheerleading. haha (experience came from our netball "MJC" formation. hahahaha) -and tired. =================================================
the next day, went for that medical check up at nus.

woke up feeling freaking bloated. prob becos of the curry i had the night before. so i tried to shit. but to no avail. felt very irritated. becos i know it'll cause me to be heavier.. (got weight taking later) but there was nothing i could do about it. urgh. have u ever had that feeling... pisses me off man
anyways, drank a cup of milk before leavinig the house. darn. i should haf drank my milk earlier. hahahahaah... i forgot milk helps me man. so anyway, halfway down the hill, stomach was soo painful. half of me was soo happy, 1/4 of me was in pain and the other quarter, was quite pissed (becos i din drink my milk earlier) so anyway, managed to tahan until mrt. hahahahaaha...

and as a result, was late in meeting jamie. hahaaha.. oops.

best part? fanny was there like REALLY early. but heyyY!! jamie and i reached at 9 sharp at clementi!! i was on tiMEEE!!! but felt really bad letting both of them wait for me..haha

the whole check up thing was just so funny. ahaahah.. esp the urine test part.

before taking our ht and wt (1st station):

fanny : oh no! i need to pee.

me: noo.. not now.. can save it for the urine test later.

-laugh-

fanny: oh no! but it'll add to my wt!

me: o ya. o crap.

so anyways, we took our ht and wt. and HEY EVERYBODY IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD:
I GREW 0.5 CM

aiyah. means a lot ok. hahahah.. but hey guess wat also:

jo e mo is taller than me.

how diu lian

urgh.

nvm la. its ok. bleah.

anyway, back to the day, after the whole check up thing and helping jamie find some computer center thingy to collect her fren's lab report.. and perspiring like crazy, jamie and fanny made their way to orchard.. while i slept in the train to tanah merah.

went to the airport to teach vonney maths. i lost touch with maths man. can't even solve partial fractions. teach wat shit. HAHAHA.. vonney.. think u really should go find another teacher. really.. i can't do it lE!! quick go find one.. beg hailing or sth..

after that.. met jo the mo at the airport (father sent her there) then the 2 of us went to city hall to wait for corn. we had about an hour to kill, and i was super sleepy, and jo was hungry, so we walked to delifrance.. treated jo a choc crossoint and i treated myself a cappucino. haha.. then we went to meet corn..

had soup sppon for dinner. it was heavenly. the garlicky foccacia was yum yum, and the cheesy wedges.. mm mmm.. and the soup was like so good la. ahhhh.. freak. hungry.

then corn and i went on our mission: buy our swimming costume.

haha.. in the end we ended up in arena, buying 1 each. becos it was having a discount. hahaha. $49.55. cheap for ARENA swimming costume. hahaha..
went to coffee club for muddy mud pie at raffles city, then the 3 of us hurried to the train station. to go home for despo housewives.

father and mother picked us from simei. haha.. and we were just on time for despo housewives. BUT.. so sick lor.. it was a recap thingy. whatever.
went to bathe after corn came out of toilet. always haf to bateh last. i also dunno why prob becos she's not washing her hair. whatever. always use this reason to bathe first.

so anyway, after bathing, went to take out our clothes from the cupboard to decide what to wear. haha.. and i came across this CHIJ shirt. wahhhh laaaaoooo...

made me so piss.. paid $23 for a super super huge shirt. that wooommmaaaannn cheat my money.. idiots. got soo pissed over the shirt yday. suppperr pissed.

anyway, shall bring it along for my pyjamas. hahahaaa

ok la.. dunno type how many hours le.. very hungry. hhahaha... sians maaann.. tuition tonight with krystel.. and then i can go back home, and the temporary end of laureen making money for the next 6 days.

don't miss me guys. hahahaa.. but i'll miss u. :)


*seeking God is my first priority.
"Dear God, show me ur ways.."

hmmm,, i'm just typing this because i just feel like typing this but there is nothing in my mind to type, so i think i'll just type this sentence.

oh ok. i thought of sth to say.

diana has a pair of new specs and its freaking gucci... and she got the black one. and i see the green one and dammiT!! i'm in love with that green pairrrrrrrrrrrr.. urghh.. like literally in love with that green pair.. that it actually cross my mind too.... erm.. yea u noe.. but.. hey my purple specs cost $380!!! AHHHH.. and i paid it myself, so NO! i'll just stay faithful to my purple specs.

i love my purple specs..

prob after my purple specs, i'll get the green one...

bah. macham so much money.

hmm.. gonna meet pastor, bex, dix n mentos ltr.. gg to river life church. hmm. i dunno. guess its gonna be fun. i'm on the " can't wait to make new frens" mode.

hey my meiridian jie mei men.. sentosa, the monday after i quit work,18th july. i can't wait. and i'm so sorry i'm the cause of us not being able to go out. i am soooo freaking sorry!!!

goooooodness.

my may pay is so freaking little. $800 plus? damm.

UUURRRGGHHH. prob should haf gone to work on my bday. earn much more. *grumbles*

anyways, i wun be coming to work on monday. gg nus for checkup. for what i also dunno just sounds so dumb.

so work on tuesdayyy.. then not working on wed, thurs, fri, mon and tues. hahaahah yea church camp. i can't waaaaaaaaaaaaaait for it. i hope there are cute guys. haha like really. i'm not bluffing. hahaahaha.. oh and i hope there are NUS bizad ppl like me too. so i noe i'm not the only one not gg for the camp.

was reading the book jane gave me last year. haha.. one of the chapters was talking about "a heart that obeys" and interestingly enough, there was this sentence:

"if ur parents ask u to go for a church camp, go for it, even though sth great is happening in school then"

oh well, God speaking to me straight to my heart? i hope He is. and u ppl going, better let me enjoy myself there, because i'll be missing out on 2 camps. 2!! 2!! urgh. and u noe whats the best part. these 2 camps are the only camps that i want to go for!! how sickening can it get.

church camp: 15-20 june.
sheares hall camp: 14-17 june.
bizad camp: 20-23 june.

oh well, gg to a church camp is more rewarding than a NUS camp.
i'm sure it is.

show me the cute guys! c'mon! haahahahha....... alright wrong motive. i know.

bleah. time passing really slowly.

i can't wait to freaking quit.

but i freaking need money.

ah. freak.

shits. my dreams of bangkok have been recuring very often lately. ITS A SIGN!

corny moo!! july!! take leave!!!!!! plllllllllleaseeeeeeeeee...

The keys to your heart:

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

The keys to your heart

i'm hinting to u.. i am i am i am!! are u getting the hint?? its right in front of ur eyes and ringing in ur ears... are u seeing it?? are u hearing it??!!!

*siGh*

hahaahahah.. i'm sooo happy!!

i met cherlyn for dinner yday!!!! she's very much the same!! just that she's more animated than me. (clara.. can u imagine someone more animated than me??) hahahaha..

haven't seen this childhood fren since pri 5? wow.. haha.. and we met on tues toO!! haha.. at aljunied mrt, before i went for work..

and we are gg to meet each other again this sun!! for that soccer match between zion and BC. oh gee.. i feel so exciteddddddddddddddddddddd!! i finally can meet up with all my childhood frens again!!

so we talked so much yday.. where this person went.. how they look now.. **hamster- looking** and how big they grew (as in, literally.) geeeeeeeee... and i get to see ALL of them this sunday!!

oh man!! never seen them since pri 5. hahaah.. and we are all gg uni now. sheesh. thats a freaking long time. still can remember who always wear what dress to sunday sch: for instance, grace loves to wear that blue floral dress.. and clarabelle with her pink plastic specs.. debbie and her shorts.. cherlyn and her 2 freaking long pleats, and laureen looking as toot as ever. theodore as dark as ever, charles the goofy looking one who likes to wear this dark blue shirt with umbrellas on them( and is some huge temasek idol now at TJ.. and there is a CHARLES fan club there. ) (he must be hot man.) hmm. then there's shane. hahaaaaaaa.. "2-3 times the size of his brother." quoted by my favourite fren who calls herself, tweety-lynn. hahahaha.. and last but not least.. there's sung anN!! apparently, he's in meridian. oh goodness. feel so dumb!! i always see him ard but i nv said hi to him because i din noe he was my church fren!! feel like sucha goondoo. oh well.. i'll say hi to him when i go back to meridian. i soooo will!!

we had so much fun reminiscing the past.. and just be amazed as to how time flies like nobody's business. and we are all having highlighted hair and we haf grown so much.

sigh. sunday sunday sunday!!!

*P.S/ if u dun get what i'm saying, it's ok. hahaahahahah.. i'm just too excited!!
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phwoar. i finally remembered i haf this irritating ad to blog about.
haf u heard that radio ad tageted to young pregnant mothers.. and then u haf a certain (pretty) spokesperson saying "... we understand how u feel.."
i really have nothing against our nominated MP. nothing at all. really. (ok ok maybe she's pretty.)

it irks me when she says "we understand how u feel" to these young female teenagers in a moment of folly or whatever u call it, do sth that they shouldn't. and now living in guilt and not knowing what to do... the amt of regret and fear is so much- not that i've experienced it- do u really think u know how they feel unless u were in their shoes before?

and to me, the tone used was not quite what i think it should be if u want ppl to call u and confide their problems with u.

oh well.. its my view anyway.

sheesh.

ah.

watched hitchhiker's yday. its a good show actually, minnie. hahahaha.. and marvin is just soooo adorable!! goodness!! hahaha.. he's so depressed.. hahaha.. i love his stomach.

anyways, had a great time with daryl last night. (li, not aw.) haha.. (except for the part where i had to wait for him.. do u noe how irritating it is to wait outside the cinema.. and seeing ppl just streaming in.. and u can't go in because mr li has not arrived? and the point about missing all the advertisments was depressing enough!! )

so anyway. yea. mr li arrived. at least i was able to watch some advertisments on the big screen.

**hey bin n ling .. u jay chou die-hard fanss.. that movie he's starring in looks good to watch. please dun forget me when u are gg to watch it. (i think its because of edison chen and shawn yue. NOT JAY CHOU.)

so anyway.. walked from orchard to erm.. city hall. goh home at 12 exactly. haha..

so anyways, everybody, i dunno why minnie says hitchhiker is a bad movie.. becos i think the movie is really funny. ok i admit i dun understand a part of it, but hey on the whole, i understood. and HEY.MARVIN IS JUST SO ADORABLE!!!hmm.. u can actually look cute when u are a mentally depressed robot.

this thought has been in my head for a very long period of time...

"sometimes, i wish i'll become an ipod.. i'll lose 'my sensitivity' in the long run"

a song represents how u feel; and this is how i feel:

Artist:
Natasha Bedingfield
Album:
Unwritten
Title: I Bruise Easily

Oh...yeah
My skin is like a map, where my heart has been
And I can't hide the marks, but it's not a negative thing
So I lay down my guard, drop my defenses, down by my clothes
I'm learning to fall, with no safety net, to cushion the blow

I bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me
There's a mark you leave, like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily, can't scratch the surface without moving me
Underneath I bruise easily, I bruise easily

I found your finger prints on a glass of wine
Do your know ur leaving them all over this heart of mine too
If I never take this leap of faith I'll never know
So I'm learining to fall with no safety net to cushion the blow

I bruise easily, so be gentle when you hande me
There's a mark you leave, like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily, can't scratch the surface without moving me
Underneath I bruise easily, I bruise easily

Anyone who, can touch you, can hurt you, or heal you
Anyone who, can reach you, can love you, or leave you

So be gentle
So be gentle
So be gentle
So be gentle

I bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me
There's a mark you leave, like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily, can't scratch the surface without moving me
Underneath I bruise easily, I bruise easily

I bruise easily, so be gentle when you hande me
There's a mark you leave, like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily, can't scratch the surface without moving me
Underneath I bruise easily, I bruise easily

I bruise easily
I bruise easily

wow.. its been a long time since i blogged!! hahaahah..

many many things on my mind (as usual) but due to time constrain.. and my inability to form coherent sentences, i shall not blog much. prob another day..

tuition with krystel tonight (because we cancelled it on thurs)

feeling tired.

i really can't wait to quit.

i need sleep.. but i need $$

thanks vonney for gio top and gio voucher. hahahaha.. silly girl. really lor. :p

sigh. ot till 7 tonight. ciao.

tmr~

its confirmed:

my last day of work is on 15th July.

part of me can't wait for that day to come, and the other part of me knows i wun get a regular income. i got to save my money. i shall not be tempted by giordano sales anymore!!

ya.. rite.

urghhh..

i had nasi lemak for lunch just now, and i'm super sleepy now!! its half hour before work ends *HOORAY* but i haf tuition tonight. 1.5 hours talking crap with krystel. hahahaha. hope i'll live thru it.

oh and guess what all u ppl out there who hasn't seen laureen's nails recently (YES. i have nails already) they are so so soooooo long.. i'm gg to cut them. yes. i'm not kidding. they are veeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeryyy long. hahaahaha...

oh man i'm really falling asleep.

and i've been munching on my xiao man tous. and i can feel my stomach just expanding... an inch by an inch..

freak out. i haf to run. if only i can get rid of that recalcitrant feeling towards running..

hey.. my counter has been jumping like crazy!! can u ppl tag on my taggy?? haha.. come on.. say hi. hahaha. :D

zen neon is super cool.

alrite.

lucky still haf time before my may pay comes.

just waiting for ppl to get it and review it first. haha..

hmmm..

*accomplishment of the day: i finally managed to read the newspaper today! in fact i read all the articles..

yep the huge accomplishment of laureen goh.

wOOhoO!! haha

and the change starts..

THE POWER OF LOVE IS SO GREAT.. THAT EVEN THE STRONGEST SUCCUMB TO IT.

i need to unwind. i need to unwind.

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children these days act so grown up. so irritating. esp those lil kids gg thru their teenage life; "trying to find their identity". crap la.

still dun understand why they love to act an age of which is like 5-6 years older. or izzit becos i'm acting way younger than what i should be? i dunno. i dun think so actually.

y do u want to grow up so fast? won't u feel that life feels as if its being shortened?

little kids hanging out in shoping malls with short mini skirts, skin tight tops, huge ear rings, and.. make up.

whatever la, kid. enjoy ur childhood. y u staring at ppl with such a freaking qian da face.. so irritating, i just feel like slapping ur face.

word of advice: dun act and try to look like as if u are 20 years old when u are like just.. (well, fill in the blanks urself- u noe very well, who u are.); if u want to live a longer life, act ur blardy age.
i tolerated u for very very long already. i'll probably slap ur face if i see you at it again.

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with that said, i feel so much better. its finally out.

hmm.. nus biz and law is moving to bkt timah. so much for thinking i already settled my lodging business.

so anybody wants to tell me when they officially moving out? urgh. so where am i gg to stay. urgh. i hope at least it has 1 sem in clementi area at least. then i can experience hall life there. i'm so looking fwd to making new frens. SO FORWWWAAARRRDDDD. i need more.. frens. haha.. i mean its nice to haf lots of frens.. :D

and so, i just read jing's blog. JING'S GG LAW!! oh great!! another lawyer fren. haha.. at least i noe i wun be gg bkt timah with no lawyer frens. i haf not just 1, but 2 lawyer frens. *beams*
ahh. whatever.

alrite.. at least i still haf jamie. haha... jamie's pretty!! hahahaaha... oh dear. hmm.
frens frens frens.. uni is starting... getting scared. i think i need more clothes "to stock up for uni".(grins at hailing)

bought another yellow gio top yday. haha $11.40 lor. goodness... hahaha... 40 % off. ahhhh... i need my pay. great. may ends tmr.

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thanks joanne for the bottle with green and yellow straws. u are so sweet. :D

thanks minnie for the greeen pencil box and my green "ipod" haahahah!! its in my wallet!!

thanks chong chong (again) for my swatch. ahhh.. i love my swatch. ahahah

thanks lina mentos for ur chocs again.. haha i finished all le, nv let anybody else eat. haha.. its the best 9 chocs i've ever eaten!!

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eh bro.. when i get my may pay........ ok?? hahahaha cannot wait lor.

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despo housewives. despo housewives. despo housewives. despo housewives. despo housewives.

bye!!

I LOVE MY SWATCH!!! thanks chong. *smiles* u r such a darling..

pretty pretty swatch.. :)


hmm.. only blogging now becos michelle asked me to close the database. she has to edit stuff on it so i'm like blogging now.. haha

watched madagasca yday!! its soooo funny. and becos of that had to post phone yvonne's tuition. yet again. sorry girl. make it up to u on wed. :D PAISEH AH

I WANT TO MOVE IT MOVE IT.. I WANT TO MOVE IT MOVE IT..

anyway, i love the stupid penguins! haha.. and erm.. alex, marty, gloria and melman; maurice and the dunno-what-bla-bla-king. (looks exactly as the one that caused us to scream in the zoo!!)

"smile and wave boys; look cute and cuddly."

hmm.. busy busy today. later~at home.

great job minnie!!

vjc band concert was great!! except minnie should have more solos. so i can shout more.

anyways. i finally understand the phrase "dun just hear the music; see the music."

pirates, snakes, elephants, house, war, traitor, lovers, horses..

powerful imaginatiomn?? hahaha i think so.

great job minnie!! btw, we saw u trip and nearly fall... kekekeke

goodness. i totally din blog at work today.

and my status on msn was: busy. haha... u can consider that i worked for every penny earned today. and my eyes are getting very painful becos of long hours on the comp. gee. i hope my degree doesn't get higher. haha.. i really can't afford to let it go higher.

ah. and so, although i haf many thoughts to blog about, i shall just leave it to another day. my eyes cannot take it le..

i can't wait for saturday!!

ah. meridian has made history.

:)

but in my honest opinion, victoria really deserved it la. they controlled the game really well.. haha.. but that goal from meridian was PHWOAR. pretty. very pretty... :D

and that penalty goal from victoria was quite disappointing actually.

it was deja vu after the final whistle was blown after extra time. penalty shoot outs. haha what we lost to yishun a year ago for 3rd place.

but hey. 7-6. we won.

MERIDIAN!! WOOHOO!!!

i feel so proud to be a meridian!!!! haha

hmmm.. was just thinking..

looking at my sec sch frens friendster a/c this afternoon.. with diana..

somehow all my classmates are posing in pictures with their boyfrens!! haha its super shocking to see how much they changed.. (ESP JUAN ZEE AND LING YING!!!) all so pretty now man. haha.. but i feel really happy for them.. having found their partner. HAHA..

but somehow there's that tinge of "sour-feeling" thats coming up. and dammit! i REFUSE to feel that way. so there! happiness is all i feel for my darling classmates.. :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DINAH DEAREST!!

i just had to blog this:

this goes out to all u ppl who thinks i'm such a slacker at work and i get paid w/o working. yes. dun smile smile. i noe what u are thinking.

I CLEARED EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE TO DO.

AND. I HAVE AN HOUR TO KILL BE FORE I KNOCK OFF SO I FOUND STH TO DO. ON MY OWN ACCORD.

u see.. i'm not a slacker after all.

michelle's gonna be so proud of me. :D

hmmm.. i dunno man. just dun feel very well these days.

started on sunday during the bowling thing.. (i'm getting better at bowling. haha.. corn and i manage to hit 72 pins down.. not bad la ok.. haha shut up. dun laugh.) anyways.. head was pain then.. then it continued on monday and then today.. oh dear.. i need prayers, guys..

had scary nightmares yday. 2 in fact. one after another. scared like crap. urgh. and my energy level iz 0 now.. all those dreaming.. i mean.. want to dream also dream of my prince la.. then my energy not wasted ma. ah. whatever.

yani came back from KL yday i think. she bought a lot of food stuff.. its in the pantry now la.. but its not open so i dun dare to go be the first one to take it. also, that woman dunno fly where.. after lunch, disappeared.. cannot go ask her kope one packet here.. haha.. oh well.. will just satisfy my constantly-itchy-mouth, with xiao man tous. its the only thing that is "mine".

hmm.. my mind is in a whirl. some part of me is looking fwd to uni life. and most part of me is not. i dunno why? new environment, maybe? i dunno. but the feeling is disgusting. natural ba.. i guess.. but y didn't i feel this way in JC.. hmm.. dunno maaann..

hmmm... MJ vs VJ in soccer tmR!! its the FINALS!! sheesh. when hai ling told me during lunch a few hours ago.. so excited la.. haha dunno whats my problem also. hahaah

oh wells.. its the 24th. bro will be back soon. :D hope he can make if for dinner tmr with aunty ruth...

"We
all honour heroes:

sometimes for their daring;

sometimes for their righteous;

and

sometimes for their goodness.

But at
one point in our lives,

we all
dream of being rescued."

-Desperate Housewives

sensitivity vs rationality

i need a balance.

was supposed to have a great night out. but God decided to let laureen's time of the month to come, and THUS, i have to stay at home... because the cramps was so unbearable. URGH!!!!

hmm nvm.. guess can blog a lil longer today.

went NUS with yanqi (chimpanzee/monkey) and ne yday. :) had great fun. made a new friend.. Jamie. haha i really had no idea she was from mj too.. like REALLY no idea. hahaahah.. but she knew who i was.. (the word is: WAS) " the bballer's girlfren" hahaha..

HMMM.. at least it wasn't some other title. "bballer's gf" still quite cool la. hahaha.. but i really wonder, we hardly talk in sch and everything. when i asked her how she came to know about it, she said " i saw the 2 of u in the bus.." HMM.. so what?? haahahaa.. gee. we dun do stuff in the bus, man. like hell, no. alrite nvm nvm..

for ur info, everybody, i'm over him.

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i officially declare how much dislike i have for this certain person. HE thinks he's a pro. HE thinks he's like good looking. HE thinks he's clever??

but what HE really doesn't know is that HE has a pathetic, irritating attitude and HE just looks like a "durian seller" as quoted from ne. "the types who shows u the good durians but throw the rotten ones in the bag, instead." the more i think about it, the more i agree. BUT i think the durian sellers will be insulted if we associate them with HIM.

URGH!! HE doesn't know that (another) he had to stick with HIM because nobody else wanted to. HE doesn't know that (e other) he didn't like HIM very much as well, but he still tolerated HIM because he treated HIM as a friend. but what did HE call him?? HE called him stupid for not being able to answer certain concepts/questions whatever. and he doesn't even know... HE is just so disgustingly irritating, i seriously think HE doesn't derserve such a sweet ggirl as HIS girlfren.

best part was HE didn't score as well as him in A's. having a D in ur results is worse that having 2 C's combined.

lousy pathetic iritant show-off disgusting ungrateful durian-seller cheat.

LOSER.

ahhh.. pissed off.

I'M FREEEZIINGGGG...

its sooo cold. goodness.. fingernails all blue.

lucky wore jeans today. so not as cold. but i'm still cold.

getting hungry. crap. can hear my stomach grumbling. i hope fendi does not hear it. so paiseh.. hahaah

eating lunch at 1 today with hailing. grace, the other temp staff, left le, she's gg back china tmr.. hmmm.. just when hailing and i were getting along very well with her.. there'll be another girl coming in.. she's from china too.. hmm.

ahhhhhh.. i'm freezing.

hmm.. this week is a super short one for me man.. only work for 2.5 days.

haahahah.. andd i'm so colllddd..

i need to pee.

When fear and worry test ur faith

& anxious thoughts assail;

Remember God is in control.

And He will never fail.

hmm.. if u were wondering what i had last night for dinner, i had kenny rogers. haha..

i love having meals with my aunty. she just tells u stories that u end up laughing the whole meal. haha..

oh man.. i feel super fat now.. i hafta go run or sth.. but.. my mouth now super itchy la... oh dearrr... :(

nono must resist all temptations.. concentrate.. urgh. difficult.

there's a NUS tea thingy tmr.. gg with yan qi and ne..

haha.. ppl haven't make up their minds..

ah. our decisions are what we are.

oh mann. bored online.

gg to meet sui gou for dinner later!! hope corn comes along. i've been eating good food everyday since sat. i'm a fat pig.

sat: dinner- marche, pacific coffee

sun: lunch- crystal jade
dinner- cafe cartel

mon: lunch- KFC ( only ffordable thing in the zoo.)
dinner- crystal jade (xiao long bao)
* not forgetting 2 ice creams in a day.

tues: dinner- Don sushi.

wed: dinner- undecided but its a treat from sui gou!!!!

ooooo.. die die...

gee..

michelle, uncle benny, hui ling, wendy, eillen and fendi gave me a HUGE elmo and a garfield mouse pad. aiyo. so sweet can. so touched!

haha.. hmm.. the elmo is so hugeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.. and then there's tweety who is huge tooooooooo. i wonder where i'm gg to sleep tonight.

hmm....

and the lions were ALL staring attttt...





and bin's treat to...



thanks bin :D

ooo.. i'm like so tired, i can't feel my legs anymore.

zoo was great fun today. thank God for the rain that stopped. daryl msged me that the weather forecast reported that there will be showers the whole day. but hey prayer changes everything. it only drizzled for like the first hour or so and then it stopped.Faith works. really. it works. Thank u Jesus. :D

oh anyway, let me tell u all sth: zoo charges a student price of $7 (1/2 of the adults' price) and the "age requirement" is 18 and below la!! FED UP LAAAAAAAAAAA..

becoz its so late already, zoo photos which isn't a lot (becos i look gross in it. haha) will be put up prob tmr or sth.. when ling ling sends it to me. haha

after the zoo, ling ling and i went orchard. haha.. ate xiao long baos, went giordano (spent $66.30) and walked the whole of orchard la! haha.. i really mean the whole of orchard. the thing we regret the most is not, not taking any neo prints, but taking far TOO MANY of them!! haha it was the cost of the neo prints that got both of us feeling very lousy after that. haha.. oh man. haha.. i shan't disclose. no way. i'll get scolding.

anyway, our neo prints are very pretty. ok la. not much of the first one. the first wan really waste money. dun talk about it. so pissed. but the rest are very pretty..

haha..

thank u wei ling for spending the ENTIRE day with me. u are just the sweetest, the best and everything else that is nice!! i love you!!

thank u bin and diana for being such great company at the zoO!! we had so much fun, and u bet, it was great fun!!! i love you guys!!

thank u ling, bin, yina, ne and huiting, for the converse voucher!! i'm gg to get my sneakers very soon!! (once i find a nice nice desigN!!!) thank u all so much!!

thank u diana for the 12 green bangles. i love them!! they are so style la, can.. hahaah thank u babe!!

thank u lina for the chocz!! u are such a darling!!

thank u yvonne, stephanie and that stupid chimpanzee aka yanqi, for ur friendster testimonial wishes. u guys are so sweet!!

thanks to all who haf msged me.. 42 in all. thank u all so much. :D

oh.. i feel loved. :D

and.. i'm 19.

ahhh.. hhaha..

had a great time yday.. 2nd bday party, together with philo. celebrated with the church people. haha..corn, kirbs, bex, daryl, dicky and of coz, minnie.

thanks kirby for rushing down.. i REALLY appreciate it..

thanks corn for paying the cab fare for philo and dicky. love you corny moo.

thanks for all of u present. and i hope u guys enjoyed marche dinner, and PCC. hahaahahah.. (a certain someone's club..) we should do this often. haha..

ahh.. and there was my (our) first bday cake during church today. :) oh man.

haha.. will post the photos up once becks sends me the photos. although i haf this really big pimple at my chin.. urrrggghhhh....

mm.. 1/2 an hour more..

19 still sounds ok. i think 20 sounds scary. haha..

hey philip!! u are 20!! haha..

hmmm... starting to miss bro already.

i'm gg to the zoo zoo zoo...
how abt u u u??
wun u come too too too??
i'm gg to the zoo zoo zoo..

ahhhhhh.. what a day.

today i was finally forced to go to the lib in the morning.

the lib is dark, dusty and only consisted of 3 shelves.

what i had to do?
stock taking.

i had to go thru every single book in those shelves. (so thank God there were only 3. any more, i would have died.) so dusty laa.. gross.all the books were about 10 years old or more. and the air con wasn't working. urgh. disgusting. and i had to sit on the floor to look at the books there were like really low. lucky wear pants today. and wei seong had to msg me some chinese sms to irritate me, early in the morning. got to use my brain cells la.

so anyway, managed to finish it before lunch. felt so dirty. eww.

when to eat at our $2 porridge place. they changed the uncle working there, yet again. this uncle is soo freaky. he calls me "kai xin guo". and then he gives that really chee ko peh smile, the types where ujust want to run off. and when he asks me anything else, i'll just point to the food and say.. "ër.. uncle.. wo yao na ge cai."

freaky freaky. gross and disgusting. eww.

prob haf to cross the road and eat the other side already.

after lunch, had to work at prema's desk. its so dark there. i seriously have no idea how she works there. i wun say anything else about her desk. (like for example, her comp has many pop-ups, infected by some spyware la.) oh. i didn't say anything, did i? micheele kept msn-ing me back to stop complaining. haaha.. can't help it. its just me to complain. okok!! i'll try to stop.
uncle pat is fixing prema's comp. she so has me to thank for. so that she can now anyhow surf the net again.

so ya. using michelle's comp now. i think michelle is so nice la. haha.. although i used to think she was so fierce and everything bad, but she treated me to crystal jade's sponge cake just now. haha.. not that i'm easily "bought"with a sponge cake, its just that she's treating me nice, to the extent i'm not afraid of her anymore.. haha.. okok. u can look at it both ways: good, coz i can start joking with her; and bad, start taking her for granted. but of coz, the super efficient worker- me - will not slack. ( becos i've been slacking already. haha)

aiyah whatever.

yay!! its friday. 8 min before i go home and come back on wednesday. and the next time i step into the office, i'll be a year older.

hmmm..

happy birthday adriañ
like as if u'll see it, but nvm. i dun care. ahhaha..

oo!! xiang jie should be in singapore soon! not that i miss him. eww. haha.

Presenting to u..

Laureen's 1st 19th Birthday party- celebrated with my love pentagon: jasmine, dinah, troy and celest. {courtesy of celest[ cos she's the only one with the camera. (love you babe! *muacks*)]}

and first.. me.

it was the first pic taken la ok.

okok next.. me and tweety.

(i love this pic.)

yay!! tweety!! haha..

last nite i slept with tweety on my left, and laur co on my right. but because tweety's head took up half of my pillow, made him sleep above my head. coz the pillow like very small la.. very uncomfortable. hahahah...

and next.. we have ah min, dinah and me..

and.. troy celest and ah min..

troy and me..

jasmine's mango pudding..

and a group photo.. (with tweety)