it hurt when i read that sentence. and it couldn't hurt more to know how much support and encouragment u need now- and i am not in the position to give it to you.

but i can't be selfish. i will give you the space and time you need.

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sometimes certain issues that seem so easy can be so hard. somehow, i feel so unfaithful and so useless.

but everything is in His hands, rite?

i really really really want you to know about God. about how great He is, how deep His love for you is, how He wants to support you through your difficult times...

and so, i tear again-
the burden, oh! so heavy... it hurts.