GEM project

i can't seem to concentrate. i can't focus on my project. it is SO boring. i really wonder why i never had any violent objections when they agreed on it. I'm sure we could have found sth much simpler to do. =(

or maybe perhaps my mind has been wondering over what he said to me today. perhaps, i should make the decision and not leave it to him too.

ha.

i told him just now about how i hated to watch mr bean when i was young, how i shared his pain when people laughed at him, and he didn't know. later did i know, it was all an act to get people to laugh.

someone commented how compassionate i am, and how i have a heart for others. my MAPP assesment says i should go into the line of counseling; that my personality suited that line 80%.

so tell me, how on earth, seriously can i find my GEM project boring?

gawd. all these self denial.

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i don't know what else to think.