i hope you'll read this:

i was just thinking. why am i subjecting myself to condemnation. i don't think you'll read this, but i really hope you will.

firstly, it isn't entirely my fault: i made it clear in the beginning. i drew the line so clearly right at the beginning. you feel that religion was probably a convenient reason.

then i said, if it weren't for this problem we faced, i'll consider you. i didn't say i'll agree straight away.

and then u asked me if we never had this problem, will i accept you. i told you i had to think about it. and lots of thinking, i did: i told you my feelings for u were not of the same level. I did. and i really couldn't connect on another level which you were on.

and then u said you accepted it. and i was glad.

then u started teasing me about someone else; i told you i'ld rather you.

yes, i agree. that would have been my fault from what i told you yday. The thing is, i didn't lie. At that point in time, i would have really rather you. Perhaps, you can't accept why i change my opinion. and u think i lied to you.

but i didn't. i really didn't at that point in time. the factor was time.

sigh. 1 most impt thing to note: I didn't reject you because of him.

and if you insist that i lied to you, then i'll have nothing to say.

but please, please stop condemning yourself. you don't suck. u really don't. =(

i'll still be praying for you. because, one day i know. that day will come.