:(

sigh.

why should stupid projects pile up at the last min?? this is getting sucky. sian.

i just realised it's a month to the exams and i'm like still quite blur abt almost everything. diedded. see? this is wat u get when u slack off for the first 9 weeks of school. darn.

yday's cmb concert was soooo good!! hmm.. but i didn't really watch it with a happy heart, though. i wished i was performing there as well. i wanted to push the thought aside and just appreciated the efforts of my frens up there, dancing, singing and acting. and i realised i wanted to be up there too.

so since young, i hide behind others. i still do. sometimes i try hard to be someone i want to be, but i'm afraid of the challenges that i face. i left 3 weeks or so. i dun think i'll have any more chances. i shouldn't have rejected my drama opportunity. i shouldn't have wasted my ballet classes when i was young, and i should have taken my piano lessons seriously. whats the use? its all over.

i can't be who i want to be, anymore. my chances are gone. thats so depressing.

i seriously should go and take up some cultural classes in whatever way. i'll prob feel better.

aiyah. i dunno what i thinking la. just that i wish i was a performer.

oh wells.

projects projects projects..........sian diao.