in the midst of my hiragana, i was fb-ing, and i just felt something that i feel so strongly for.

i typed it out... but i deleted it.

somehow, I just feel that I really need to go back to my basics. i need to depend on him wholly like how i used to before.

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school is coming to a complete end, this monday.

katakana, next.

i forgot i have to study.

haha..

oh well. what a crazy week.

i realise i just can't find time to write a good post. maybe soon.

anyhow, yong yong, i hope you enjoyed your birthday.

thanks all who were part of my video, present, dinner and help!

it is 7 am. the last time i closed my eyes was at 3 30 pm and i think i only slept for 15 min. and i woke up at 830 yday.

oh my. amanda, please call me quick. i really need to sleep.

just have to entertain myself somehow somewhere, otherwise i'll be falling asleep already. i just loaded facebook photos. sheesh.

so, that is the end of school. =/ feels weird. like no more school. yea. i dun know.

sigh. after 2 more exams, that would be the end of school officially. =/ hmm

ok i am this close to dozing off. oh my. :(

come on amanda, u have to be up by now! okok play game play game

oh oh! but before i go, i just have to post this up!


oh i didn't know i didn't press publish.

but yay! she called!

watched avenue Q today.

it was alright. though i'm glad i didn't watch this in London. i'ld rather pay more for a classic, although i didn't pay full amount for this ticket anyway. =x

but there goes the association of innocence and sesame street characters.

quite sad about that though. haha.. but oh well, broadway is art; and art knows no boundaries.

art knows no boundaries, but our minds do have boundaries. its just a matter of how much u can push these boundaries, and that is how much u can accept the art piece.

and that explains the popularity of certain art pieces because people have different boundary limits.

itsuxtobeme

corn and i just finished this tv movie thing on hallmrk channel. and i'm totally freaked out.

group of 14 year olds being sexually active and getting syphilis and all is seriously... unthinkable.

i'm feeling quite disgusted now. i'm sorry.

i could type a whole long post about my past week and how crazy my life's been till i grew a pimple in my eye.

it freaking hurts. :(


but anyway, i think that recalling the events would only make me feel more pek chek, so i decided against it.

i hardly blog sensible things lately.

anyhow, my attempt to conserve my limited pairs of contact lens have seem to be justified then.


avenueQ!! here i come! :) can'twaittttt!!!!

i tell you.

it is my last sem in school, and this is my last marketing project.

and i am freaking so gonna get an A for this module and nobody from anywhere in the world will stop me from getting it.

yup. ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD.

just need to write down some where that i'm damn bloody emo now.

its just one of those times when i remembered reading about a blog post of me.

"we argued, and as usual, you always win"

that sentence, since then, has been in my mind everytime i have an argument with someone close. and i laugh at the irony of that sentence.

i remember telling Clara, a decade back, that whether or not i'm right or wrong, all you have to say is 'sorry' and the argument resolves and it just passes. it doesn't matter if i was really in the wrong or right. and it really didn't matter if justice is served.

why?

because i felt that keeping a friendship is more important to me than to have cold wars and such.

a decade later. i regained what i would now deem as a human right.

i argue. and i only say sorry when i'm all calmed down and when i think i really committed something wrong.

and perhaps i can put the past all behind me if the other party also understands on my side why i think he/she has committed wrong to the whole issue as well.

the thing is, i don't expect to win at all.
i just want you to look on things at my side, that I did look at things on your side.

and don't shout at me.

don't.

and ya, ok fine. ron helped with the word 'rain' in the poem.

just the word 'rain'.

the rest is my OWN effort.

wahaha

I was just looking through facebook (as usual).

and i chanced upon some of my uni friends exchange photos.

and so i viewed their album.

seems that to lead their kind of lifestyle in Europe, i definitely have to work extremely hard.

hmmm. then again, i wear t shirts and shorts to school.

maybe it won't affect me much.

a hostelite remains as a hostelite forever.

that sentence doesn't really sound very good.

ok need to change from being one.

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japanese lessons have become tougher after the mid term break. not too sure what the heck is going on now.. but i hope i'm at least on the wave. can't talk fluently and smoothly, for the life of me. need to train more during dates, i guess.

friday night was just great. finally, a night when i could relax. relax relax relax. :)

beer, man, friends, laughter. oh and free chips. wahaha

but such friday nights affect my saturdays. need to do sth about that.

brain is not really functioning very well these days.

i hope someone calls me up for interview soon!

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ron sai is 1 month. tsk tsk so fast.
i'm graduating in 1.5 months. tsk tsk so fast.

happy 22nd birthday, jasmine and troy! :)
love you 2 (and the other 2 as well) very very much! :)

My Sun

You shine your ray of brightness through the windows to my soul.
You make life so colourful, i want the whole world to know.

You wrap your arms of warmth and love around my small sized frame.
You hold my hand and walk with me when'ver it starts to rain.

You give the gift of life and thus, restored my dying soul.
You make me feel so happy, i'm so glad i have found gold.



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happy buaya week, everybody!

i am emoing over something small.

and it makes me think if i'm emoing over sth so small, how can i handle bigger things?

and then i emo again.

just have to keep reminding myself: this is mylast semester!!

PLAY, laureen, PLAY!!!

screw all of you stupid modules!

(except product and brand, cos its my fav, and OB cos u are my core.)

Matthew 5: 29-30

If your right eye causes you to sin, gouge it out and throw it away. It is better for you to lose one part of your body than for your whole body to be thrown into hell. And if your right hand causes you to sin, cut it off and throw it away. It is better for you to lose one part of your body than for your whole body to go into hell.

i've always thought God was joking when he said these verses. but in true fact, he was emphasizing the seriousness of committing sins.

have you ever experienced those times when u did something and then u regretted it? best, u kept on doing it, and the guilt comes back and perhaps, goes away as fast as it comes?

chop off your arm , or gourge out your eye: your problem will be solved.

while he slept, she went out to the rooftop.

she stared at the glass of orange juice in her hands, and she realised what was wrong: he can never understand her point of view, her opinion and the way she does things.

what should she do?

if i ever see that pink dolphin mascot, i will run up to it....

and sit on it.

oh my... the thought of it.

oh... the throat. :(

am i still called special?

bear with me everybody.. i'm reaching the stage where i'm sick of myself.

it is all going to be over.

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gawd. i seriously need to sit down and do work

I was just about to start on my product mgt assignment, the one that i've been trying to start for a very long time, (yes, that one) when i decided to just check my facebook updates first.

I logged on facebook, and realised i've got new wall posts.

i replied to 1 or 2 of my wall posts when almost immediately yingming msned me.

yep, he got it alright. :) happy and sad for him at the same time. haha

he asked me if i was in hall.

sigh.

anyway, it just kicked off this whole "walk down memory lane" thing in my head. for the past year, how i miss this goup of seniors. hmmm. and i think of k lo. wahaha.

anyhow, the lane continued with the events that we've been having on the roof top for the past 3 years and oh gee, harold, aaron, serm, siew wen and all starts appearing in my mind.

how i miss all of them.

it is just so weird... u spent 3-4 great years with people whom u see more than your family in a year. and then when the time comes, they disappear and a new batch of people occupy their rooms. Then there are new people who repeats the cycle all over again.

But the point is.. when will you see them again? will you ever see them again?

I mean, if you are lucky, you get to see serm crossing the street with a girl and no matter how loud u scream "SERM!!!" he just ignores you till u scream "KELVIN TAYYYYY!!!" and he gives you the sheepish face. But how often is that...

sigh. i'm getting emo again.

it doesn't seem like i'll do much for my proj today again. (Yes, that project)

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5th week and i'm still complaining. think ron sai is right.. i've become whinier than the whiny girl. oh dear.