SigH. eyes are red, swollen and puffy.
how much is friendship really worth?
after careful considerations, tears, and puffy eyes (yes. more of it), one will never noe how ur friends really treat u.
SIgh. i think my problem is not as big as it is compared to his mother. father told me that she was crying. she blames herself for this child. dammit. whats wrong with me.
had a crappy day today, but i managed to get thru it.
i totally feel better after crying. thank u God for tears. thank u for chong.
till i feel like blogging again.
Wednesday, July 28, 2004
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
you.
i thought i could trust u with my troubles.
but were you there to share it? no.
what did you do? you laughed.
you.
you think its a small matter?
i dreamt of looking after a retarded boy last night. he tried to kill me. i woke up in tears.
if he was able to make me freak out and cry, i don't think so.
you.
what?
i'm sensitive?
deal with it. its MY character. too bad.
you.
thinking i'm over-doing it?
think again.
if you were me, what would u do?
2 of you.
the ones who are supposedly protecting me.
u asked me to overcome my fear and to think of the mental situation he is in.
yes. i agree.
BUT DID YOU THINK OF HOW I FEEL? WHO SHOULD U SIDE? AT LEAST SHOW ME THE CONCERN THAT YOU ARE OBLIGED TO GIVE ME?
ALL OF YOU.
I'M DAMN HURT.
identify urself in which category you are in.
GOD.. where are you.. =~(
i thought i could trust u with my troubles.
but were you there to share it? no.
what did you do? you laughed.
you.
you think its a small matter?
i dreamt of looking after a retarded boy last night. he tried to kill me. i woke up in tears.
if he was able to make me freak out and cry, i don't think so.
you.
what?
i'm sensitive?
deal with it. its MY character. too bad.
you.
thinking i'm over-doing it?
think again.
if you were me, what would u do?
2 of you.
the ones who are supposedly protecting me.
u asked me to overcome my fear and to think of the mental situation he is in.
yes. i agree.
BUT DID YOU THINK OF HOW I FEEL? WHO SHOULD U SIDE? AT LEAST SHOW ME THE CONCERN THAT YOU ARE OBLIGED TO GIVE ME?
ALL OF YOU.
I'M DAMN HURT.
identify urself in which category you are in.
GOD.. where are you.. =~(
Thursday, July 22, 2004
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
ARgh. okay. this is gg to be the last post i'm gg to blog in a long while. i so have to start studying.. no more blogging for me. so yah, haha dun bother reading about my life.. for the next 50 plus days? well.. at least till prelims end.
life is getting a bit crazy for me.. i'm really really starting to think what God's purpose for my life is after reading the book. is life just my temporary stay on earth as what the book says? so why are we studying so damn hard anyway? its not as if we are all going to live forever. shouldn't we take the time to do worthwhile stuff like.. i dunno... just sth besides studying. i'm really seriously honestly tired of everything in my life.
*stares at the ceiling* WHATS MY PURPOSE, GOD? tell me so i won't feel sick of my life!
we fought the day before again.. he asked me if i really wanted 'us' to continue. i wasn't sure. i wanted to give him up due to the many factors that is self-explainable. but then again.. i just love him so much. i spent a long time crying before i replied. i said yes. i want 'us' to continue. did i do the right thing? or did i do the wrong thing? all i know is i love him. is it wrong to be with someone who u are not supposed to be with actuallY? i don't know. sigh. i really don't know.
its back to maths.
life is getting a bit crazy for me.. i'm really really starting to think what God's purpose for my life is after reading the book. is life just my temporary stay on earth as what the book says? so why are we studying so damn hard anyway? its not as if we are all going to live forever. shouldn't we take the time to do worthwhile stuff like.. i dunno... just sth besides studying. i'm really seriously honestly tired of everything in my life.
*stares at the ceiling* WHATS MY PURPOSE, GOD? tell me so i won't feel sick of my life!
we fought the day before again.. he asked me if i really wanted 'us' to continue. i wasn't sure. i wanted to give him up due to the many factors that is self-explainable. but then again.. i just love him so much. i spent a long time crying before i replied. i said yes. i want 'us' to continue. did i do the right thing? or did i do the wrong thing? all i know is i love him. is it wrong to be with someone who u are not supposed to be with actuallY? i don't know. sigh. i really don't know.
its back to maths.
Monday, July 19, 2004
alritE. hands up u little kids who's been reading my blog... gee.. i didn't noe u guys would actually have the time to come read about my life.. dun u have to study?? haha.. must have been influenced by a certain hwa chong junior college guy..... correct rite? argH. haha ( sorry bro)
ok. so u noe about my deepest darkest secrets. dun come and anyhow now ah.. especially angeline and probably, lina.. later i tell a certain someone that u all dying for her to teach u to play softball so u can play with her and enjoy the most of her company.. waHAhaHahaHAHA. thats worst than exposing my secrets, ain't it. haha.. so if i hear anything.. i'm gg to change my addie. so u all better dun say anything............... or else u wouldn't be able to read any more about my life.... haha btw, look forward to gg out with u girls this week. *smiles* so u can tell me about each other's secrets too.. then we'll be like the er.. secret 4 or sth.. wahahaha. by the way.. u seriously can leave me a note on my taggie. at least i can say hi to u all..dun so shy la. aiyah. haha *pSSSTtTTtt.. i hear minnie has a blog.. go find it. hahaha
yea.. so back to serious stuff.. watched spidey 2 yesterdae.. it was an awesome movie man!!!! went "diu-ing" at everything i saw ydae till chong said i was crazy. wahahaha..
we quarelled last night though. but its my fault i guessed. i told him i chose laur-co instead of him.. but he doesn't noe the real truth.. he says he places so much importance on me and since i dun reciprocate he doesn't want to be hurt so badly if i leave him. but.. thats my reason for choosing laur co instead of him... i dun noe la.. i guess i'm being really selfish.. cried before i slept last nite. couldn't wake up this morning... siGHz. he msged me during recess that he has forgiven me. and i love him so much more now.
sigh.
ok. so u noe about my deepest darkest secrets. dun come and anyhow now ah.. especially angeline and probably, lina.. later i tell a certain someone that u all dying for her to teach u to play softball so u can play with her and enjoy the most of her company.. waHAhaHahaHAHA. thats worst than exposing my secrets, ain't it. haha.. so if i hear anything.. i'm gg to change my addie. so u all better dun say anything............... or else u wouldn't be able to read any more about my life.... haha btw, look forward to gg out with u girls this week. *smiles* so u can tell me about each other's secrets too.. then we'll be like the er.. secret 4 or sth.. wahahaha. by the way.. u seriously can leave me a note on my taggie. at least i can say hi to u all..dun so shy la. aiyah. haha *pSSSTtTTtt.. i hear minnie has a blog.. go find it. hahaha
yea.. so back to serious stuff.. watched spidey 2 yesterdae.. it was an awesome movie man!!!! went "diu-ing" at everything i saw ydae till chong said i was crazy. wahahaha..
we quarelled last night though. but its my fault i guessed. i told him i chose laur-co instead of him.. but he doesn't noe the real truth.. he says he places so much importance on me and since i dun reciprocate he doesn't want to be hurt so badly if i leave him. but.. thats my reason for choosing laur co instead of him... i dun noe la.. i guess i'm being really selfish.. cried before i slept last nite. couldn't wake up this morning... siGHz. he msged me during recess that he has forgiven me. and i love him so much more now.
sigh.
Thursday, July 15, 2004
aRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! stupid stupid stupid!!! i hateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee to write essays!! arGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh.
so many essays to write and do... argh.. i dun feel like studyinggggggg..
oh btw.. my maid found laur co under my sister's bed. i think she kicked him off the bed!! ass.. poor laur co.. when i asked her where she found my precious,she said to me "under jolene's bed. only can see the legs." poor laux.. he must have been screaming for help...... mummy asked me to go put him to wash.. weelll.. forget it man.. laux not gg for any bath soon.. i miss him too much to let him go and bathe. wahahahahhaha.
chong went for medical... not in school todae.. :(
hmm.i think we are back to the blogging-crazy business.. coming to the library at every break just to find additional stuff to put on the blog.. haha.. i still need to find sth for my cursor.. hmmmmmm.... anybody noes where to get a nice one?? haha tell me k?
yea.. weiling's asking me to go eat fries now.. shall go eat before pe. hahahahahaha.. so ironic.
tmr's fridae!!! wooHOO!!! there's cell and i can see my beautiful 'family' again.. haven't seen aunty ruth for eons.. wahahahaha..
i miss chong.
so many essays to write and do... argh.. i dun feel like studyinggggggg..
oh btw.. my maid found laur co under my sister's bed. i think she kicked him off the bed!! ass.. poor laur co.. when i asked her where she found my precious,she said to me "under jolene's bed. only can see the legs." poor laux.. he must have been screaming for help...... mummy asked me to go put him to wash.. weelll.. forget it man.. laux not gg for any bath soon.. i miss him too much to let him go and bathe. wahahahahhaha.
chong went for medical... not in school todae.. :(
hmm.i think we are back to the blogging-crazy business.. coming to the library at every break just to find additional stuff to put on the blog.. haha.. i still need to find sth for my cursor.. hmmmmmm.... anybody noes where to get a nice one?? haha tell me k?
yea.. weiling's asking me to go eat fries now.. shall go eat before pe. hahahahahaha.. so ironic.
tmr's fridae!!! wooHOO!!! there's cell and i can see my beautiful 'family' again.. haven't seen aunty ruth for eons.. wahahahaha..
i miss chong.
Wednesday, July 14, 2004
arGH. I’am so pissed. Somebody took laur-co away from me last night! I couldn’t sleep wellllll!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dammit. Poor laur-co.. I miss him.. I hope I can find him soon so I can go to sleep peacefully with him in my arms.. hehe.. sounds so erm.. haha
Wasn't a good morning.. it so isn't..…some family thing happen.. sigh why must she keep on lying after all the warnings.. I'm really pissed off with her.. she says she understands.. but its not true.. she doesn't.. I’m sure she is going to get big caning tonite.. I feel so angry.. but on the other hand.. I feel sympathetic for her.. but how should I really feel?? I have no idea.. sigh.. am I making any sense at all in the first place???
And then during break, I rushed to the library to blog.. but only to be pissed off again when the page read, "blogger is under maintanence for 2 hours." Dammit. Anyway, I found a game to add to my blog. Its quite cool la.. go guess the number.…
Sad matters (that wants me to just rant at everything and at whoever who hid my precious son, laur-co) aside, I got back my geog paper today.. 46! I passed.. haha.. but aiyah.. wth la.. the marks doesn't really tally with the effort I have put in.. sigh.
Anyway.. the good news is that chong O'ed his physics!! Yay!! I'm so happy for him!
Wasn't a good morning.. it so isn't..…some family thing happen.. sigh why must she keep on lying after all the warnings.. I'm really pissed off with her.. she says she understands.. but its not true.. she doesn't.. I’m sure she is going to get big caning tonite.. I feel so angry.. but on the other hand.. I feel sympathetic for her.. but how should I really feel?? I have no idea.. sigh.. am I making any sense at all in the first place???
And then during break, I rushed to the library to blog.. but only to be pissed off again when the page read, "blogger is under maintanence for 2 hours." Dammit. Anyway, I found a game to add to my blog. Its quite cool la.. go guess the number.…
Sad matters (that wants me to just rant at everything and at whoever who hid my precious son, laur-co) aside, I got back my geog paper today.. 46! I passed.. haha.. but aiyah.. wth la.. the marks doesn't really tally with the effort I have put in.. sigh.
Anyway.. the good news is that chong O'ed his physics!! Yay!! I'm so happy for him!
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
WAHAHAHA. i found such a chio skin... or a brown skin.. rather.
the "fight" was between scooby doo or this girl.. but scooby lost because he had such a small box for my navigation. stupid scooby.... he got my vote actually.
stayed back after econs to do this with dian ah. i feel so happy now.. like as if i did something really big. wahaha.. yea.. and the mood thing is so cuteeeeeee.. see? it says "ACCOMPLISHED" which is exactly how i feel now!!
thanx diana for teaching me do these stuff and helping me with my blogskin. she has a new blogskin too!! her blogskin is really really nice too.. go check it out! all thanx to mamafai. haha (the person who created these blogs. talent lor, i tell u.) hahaha
okie.. shall go home le.. got lots of geog stuff to do.. sianx..... bubye.. *smiles* =P
the "fight" was between scooby doo or this girl.. but scooby lost because he had such a small box for my navigation. stupid scooby.... he got my vote actually.
stayed back after econs to do this with dian ah. i feel so happy now.. like as if i did something really big. wahaha.. yea.. and the mood thing is so cuteeeeeee.. see? it says "ACCOMPLISHED" which is exactly how i feel now!!
thanx diana for teaching me do these stuff and helping me with my blogskin. she has a new blogskin too!! her blogskin is really really nice too.. go check it out! all thanx to mamafai. haha (the person who created these blogs. talent lor, i tell u.) hahaha
okie.. shall go home le.. got lots of geog stuff to do.. sianx..... bubye.. *smiles* =P
hmmm..... i passed my GP!! wEEeEEEeeEEEeee.... hehe by a mere 5 marks. haha.. but who cares.
mmmmm just had geog tut.. that lai lai came to talked to us about the university admission. i think i can't get into SMU le.. my dumb SAT which i retook again sucked.. after spending so much time on my verbal.. i had only 480 (38% national)!! and my maths.. 690 (92% national). like whatever lor.. SHEESH.
anyway, i think she's so fake.. dunno la.. anyway its only 7 weeks left to prelims. (dammit) yup.
anywaex. yea. i'm bored.
hmm. mr chen says he is gg to give us back our papers tmr.. hope i dun fail too badly..
mmm.. chong~ dun worry about ur grades k.. 7 weeks left.. we will pia together!! u will so love chemistry after 7 weeks.=) i'm sure of it. love u. 8)
mmmmm just had geog tut.. that lai lai came to talked to us about the university admission. i think i can't get into SMU le.. my dumb SAT which i retook again sucked.. after spending so much time on my verbal.. i had only 480 (38% national)!! and my maths.. 690 (92% national). like whatever lor.. SHEESH.
anyway, i think she's so fake.. dunno la.. anyway its only 7 weeks left to prelims. (dammit) yup.
anywaex. yea. i'm bored.
hmm. mr chen says he is gg to give us back our papers tmr.. hope i dun fail too badly..
mmm.. chong~ dun worry about ur grades k.. 7 weeks left.. we will pia together!! u will so love chemistry after 7 weeks.=) i'm sure of it. love u. 8)
Monday, July 12, 2004
wahahahaha. BREAK. wahahahahahaha. mr chen never come. wahahahahahahahaha. finish school at 2:15. wahahahahahahahaha. can go home to sleep. wahahahahahahahahahaha.
hmmmmmm.... yay.. 8 weeks or so left to prelims. i'm doing not goooooood man.. not goooooooooood... i passed my maths on the dot. 45%. i O'ed my econs which was so super disappointing... felt terrible that whole day.. although i still feel like shit whenever i think about it.. siGHx. still got geog.. i think it will suck too.. i'm preparing myself for a F. damn it la.. studied really hard ok... well.. at least i pass my maths la. but wth. its only on the dot.
yahhhhhhhhhhhhhh..... haha.. we celebrated becky's birthday on the 2nd. we had macdonald's party!!!! how cool is that lor.. get to wear party hat and all... hahaha and the youngest 'kid' there was 13 years old la!! the oldest was... hmmm... i dunno. wahahaha.. anywae the chairs were really tiny.. philip's chair didn't break.. surprisingly. hahaha feel so mean. he better not read this. but i dun think he sat on it la.. we played games and it was all so fun.. the younger 'kids' were so embarrased about the party hats.. i kept on assuring them that its bukit merah and nobody comes here.. but then jaclyn said her friends always go there.. and i'm like, "ur friends got no life!" but like as if i got a lot of life like that...
yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh... and it was on the very same day that i was so freaked outtttt.. john(this 13 year old boy, who is erm.. not really like us,mentally. (is that the way to say it in a more polite tone?)) kept staring at me. oh HELP!! i'm so freaked out by himmmmmmmmmm.. besides the constant stares during worship and sermonfor like how many months already.. mei msged me on that very day that his sister told her that he has been writing 'john likes laureen' and pasting it all over his room. HELPPPPp... i sought help that following sunday.. from my brother, the handsome lawyer. haha.. he wasn't of much help in terms of blocking me from the stares. i've decided to sit next to philip. hahahaha but that is if he's not on the drums.. so meanwhile,, bro.. i still need u. hahaha... love u BRO!!
yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh... i went out with chong for sakae yday for lunch.. i put the $10 in his pocket. i hope he didn't wash his shirt-with the $10 still int there. hahaha.. love u CHONG!!
hmmmmmm.... yay.. 8 weeks or so left to prelims. i'm doing not goooooood man.. not goooooooooood... i passed my maths on the dot. 45%. i O'ed my econs which was so super disappointing... felt terrible that whole day.. although i still feel like shit whenever i think about it.. siGHx. still got geog.. i think it will suck too.. i'm preparing myself for a F. damn it la.. studied really hard ok... well.. at least i pass my maths la. but wth. its only on the dot.
yahhhhhhhhhhhhhh..... haha.. we celebrated becky's birthday on the 2nd. we had macdonald's party!!!! how cool is that lor.. get to wear party hat and all... hahaha and the youngest 'kid' there was 13 years old la!! the oldest was... hmmm... i dunno. wahahaha.. anywae the chairs were really tiny.. philip's chair didn't break.. surprisingly. hahaha feel so mean. he better not read this. but i dun think he sat on it la.. we played games and it was all so fun.. the younger 'kids' were so embarrased about the party hats.. i kept on assuring them that its bukit merah and nobody comes here.. but then jaclyn said her friends always go there.. and i'm like, "ur friends got no life!" but like as if i got a lot of life like that...
yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh... and it was on the very same day that i was so freaked outtttt.. john(this 13 year old boy, who is erm.. not really like us,mentally. (is that the way to say it in a more polite tone?)) kept staring at me. oh HELP!! i'm so freaked out by himmmmmmmmmm.. besides the constant stares during worship and sermonfor like how many months already.. mei msged me on that very day that his sister told her that he has been writing 'john likes laureen' and pasting it all over his room. HELPPPPp... i sought help that following sunday.. from my brother, the handsome lawyer. haha.. he wasn't of much help in terms of blocking me from the stares. i've decided to sit next to philip. hahahaha but that is if he's not on the drums.. so meanwhile,, bro.. i still need u. hahaha... love u BRO!!
yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh... i went out with chong for sakae yday for lunch.. i put the $10 in his pocket. i hope he didn't wash his shirt-with the $10 still int there. hahaha.. love u CHONG!!
Wednesday, July 07, 2004
YO. haha.. its been longg. time sure flies. wahahahahha... home computer sucks.. in school now.. yea.. hmmmm...
no inspiration to blog now especially after mid years.. i studied damn hard la... never studied so much before.. but wth la... i think i'm still gg to do badly.. so much for studying during the hols. :(
well.. met up with my KC jie meis that day.. read this man..
*SCREAM* i was the last to noe about her deepest secret.. stupid woman.. but wth. still love her anywae.. hahahahha....
mmmmmmm.... k la.. lots of thing happened... but really got no mood to bloggy now.. another day k.. i mean.. when i finally find another computer....
no inspiration to blog now especially after mid years.. i studied damn hard la... never studied so much before.. but wth la... i think i'm still gg to do badly.. so much for studying during the hols. :(
well.. met up with my KC jie meis that day.. read this man..
*SCREAM* i was the last to noe about her deepest secret.. stupid woman.. but wth. still love her anywae.. hahahahha....
mmmmmmm.... k la.. lots of thing happened... but really got no mood to bloggy now.. another day k.. i mean.. when i finally find another computer....
Friday, June 04, 2004
WOW. i'm 18. time sure flies.
haha... anywaes.. just finish doing some SAT stuff.. stupid words.. so chim.. who bothers about those chim words anywae.. who understands?! siGH. anywae.. its on this sat and i am so not prepared for it. DIE. should have started earlier. (HAHA)
yeA!! FOP is on sat!! and chong's gg with ME!!!!!! gee.. i hope he'll enjoy himself there... coz i noe i'll be having a fun time priasing God.. hillsongs rock manx.. darlene's voice is to die for.. keep on teeling corn i want to rob her voice on wednesday during the worship seminar...
anywae.. after the worship seminar ydae.. we went to dicky's house.. played 'captain frisbee' hahaha.. and big bro tim kept on insisting its a ball. coz he kept on saying "run for the ball!" and i was screaming back, "it's not a ball!" but what the heck la.. i dun think he bothered much about me. haha.. his team was losing anywae.. HAHAHA (ok.. dun kill me)
yea.. had a fun night last nite.
i was suppose to go for dinie's dinner last nite.. but hey dinie.. dun worry.. there'll be other nites k??? dun worry man... haha
hmmm.... it was only when i reached home then i remembered tt i had econs test the next dae!! so chio rite.. haha anywae.. was studying halfwae when i saw big bro tim's handsome face appeared from nowhere.. hahaha... anywae, i did msg him.. but he didnt reply me.. so nvm la. lawyers are very busy wan.. even during holidaes they have more important "clientele"(client) to "regale" (entertain) rite?? hahahha... (using new words which i leant leh.. not bad rite..) so anywae.. big bro tim. hahaha hope everything's fine with u.. and ur mission to "clinch a VERY SPECIAL deal" for Christ is still going strong... because i'm pressing on too... we must JIAN CHI ok?! the GOH brother-sister team unites!! wahahahahaha.. sorry. getting crappy. hahaha...
ok la.. anywae its 1 day to SAT. (SUCKS) 1 and a half daeto FOP. and i'm looking forward to it.
Everyday, it's You i'll live for
Everyday, i'll follow after You
Everyday, i'll walk with you, my Lord
Its You i live for everyday
Its You i live for everyday
Its You i live for everyday
haha... anywaes.. just finish doing some SAT stuff.. stupid words.. so chim.. who bothers about those chim words anywae.. who understands?! siGH. anywae.. its on this sat and i am so not prepared for it. DIE. should have started earlier. (HAHA)
yeA!! FOP is on sat!! and chong's gg with ME!!!!!! gee.. i hope he'll enjoy himself there... coz i noe i'll be having a fun time priasing God.. hillsongs rock manx.. darlene's voice is to die for.. keep on teeling corn i want to rob her voice on wednesday during the worship seminar...
anywae.. after the worship seminar ydae.. we went to dicky's house.. played 'captain frisbee' hahaha.. and big bro tim kept on insisting its a ball. coz he kept on saying "run for the ball!" and i was screaming back, "it's not a ball!" but what the heck la.. i dun think he bothered much about me. haha.. his team was losing anywae.. HAHAHA (ok.. dun kill me)
yea.. had a fun night last nite.
i was suppose to go for dinie's dinner last nite.. but hey dinie.. dun worry.. there'll be other nites k??? dun worry man... haha
hmmm.... it was only when i reached home then i remembered tt i had econs test the next dae!! so chio rite.. haha anywae.. was studying halfwae when i saw big bro tim's handsome face appeared from nowhere.. hahaha... anywae, i did msg him.. but he didnt reply me.. so nvm la. lawyers are very busy wan.. even during holidaes they have more important "clientele"(client) to "regale" (entertain) rite?? hahahha... (using new words which i leant leh.. not bad rite..) so anywae.. big bro tim. hahaha hope everything's fine with u.. and ur mission to "clinch a VERY SPECIAL deal" for Christ is still going strong... because i'm pressing on too... we must JIAN CHI ok?! the GOH brother-sister team unites!! wahahahahaha.. sorry. getting crappy. hahaha...
ok la.. anywae its 1 day to SAT. (SUCKS) 1 and a half daeto FOP. and i'm looking forward to it.
Everyday, it's You i'll live for
Everyday, i'll follow after You
Everyday, i'll walk with you, my Lord
Its You i live for everyday
Its You i live for everyday
Its You i live for everyday
Saturday, May 15, 2004
WOW. haha.. i'm gonna be 18 in 2 days.... or rather 1 dae.. thats like super old la.. aiyoh.. seriously i think i better start growing up..
today in school was ok la. haha.. had sports dae todae... although diana didn't really came out tops... i'm still so proud of her.. all of us are... hahaha.. =] yep..
after the thingy ended.. jie meis went tampines to celebrate my birthdae.. went kenny rogers. super full lor.. in fact i dun think i'm gonna eat kenny rogers in the next few years... haha.. they bought me a cheese cake from coff bean.. it was really cheesy. haha..
we took neo print after that.. i wanted to treat them for the neo print.. but they insisted that they did not treat me dinner.. so they treated me neo print.. haha..
gosh.. i'm looking forward to tomorrow......... ahhhhhhhhh.. hehe
oh ya.. i shaved my legs. haha no more tropical rainforest.. deforestation just happened. but soon la reforestation will take place.. however.. haha.. few strands refuses to come offf...... hehehe *gRinz* ok i'll shut up.
today in school was ok la. haha.. had sports dae todae... although diana didn't really came out tops... i'm still so proud of her.. all of us are... hahaha.. =] yep..
after the thingy ended.. jie meis went tampines to celebrate my birthdae.. went kenny rogers. super full lor.. in fact i dun think i'm gonna eat kenny rogers in the next few years... haha.. they bought me a cheese cake from coff bean.. it was really cheesy. haha..
we took neo print after that.. i wanted to treat them for the neo print.. but they insisted that they did not treat me dinner.. so they treated me neo print.. haha..
gosh.. i'm looking forward to tomorrow......... ahhhhhhhhh.. hehe
oh ya.. i shaved my legs. haha no more tropical rainforest.. deforestation just happened. but soon la reforestation will take place.. however.. haha.. few strands refuses to come offf...... hehehe *gRinz* ok i'll shut up.
Wednesday, May 12, 2004
wow.. what a day.
just came home not too long ago.. not suppose to come online.. but i decided to do so.. because mei's doing her assesment now.. its finally gg to be her last paper tmr.. but she saed she's gg to get back her papers tmr.. so i guess its the same la.. hope she manages to pass... *siGH*
to bin and diana... i'm really sorry for letting u all wait.. i didn't check my phone.. i'm sorry... aiyoh. i feel so bad that u 2 waited for me to close to an hour.. i'm sorry i'm realllllyyyyyyy sorry...........
to yina.. chio la.. buy new phone.. so ex lor the phone.. u better treat it nicely.. haha confirm super happy now.. dun do anything bad to ur phone hor!! or i think i will xin tong for u. haha
to wei ling... how was band? hahaha.. hope it was filled with fun... HAHAHAHA..
to ne.. sorry for being such an ass today. haha can't help it.. the maths questions todae was super dificult lor. anywae.. thanx for sitting with me todae.. u rock man...
just came home not too long ago.. not suppose to come online.. but i decided to do so.. because mei's doing her assesment now.. its finally gg to be her last paper tmr.. but she saed she's gg to get back her papers tmr.. so i guess its the same la.. hope she manages to pass... *siGH*
to bin and diana... i'm really sorry for letting u all wait.. i didn't check my phone.. i'm sorry... aiyoh. i feel so bad that u 2 waited for me to close to an hour.. i'm sorry i'm realllllyyyyyyy sorry...........
to yina.. chio la.. buy new phone.. so ex lor the phone.. u better treat it nicely.. haha confirm super happy now.. dun do anything bad to ur phone hor!! or i think i will xin tong for u. haha
to wei ling... how was band? hahaha.. hope it was filled with fun... HAHAHAHA..
to ne.. sorry for being such an ass today. haha can't help it.. the maths questions todae was super dificult lor. anywae.. thanx for sitting with me todae.. u rock man...
Tuesday, May 11, 2004
helloooooo bloggie. haha.
whats up mannnnnn.. sianx.. gonna turn 18 soon... sounds really old. sounds really mature.... sounds reallly... not me. geez.. guess i have to grow up like really soon.... damn.
yep.. i'm broke man. i need to save money. like really save money.. spent more than 40 bucks last sat when we celebrated queen mother's birthdae. its time to stop eating in school and start starving. saves me from 2 things: 1.money and 2.calories. need to find the self determination again.... *sianx*
siGHx. wonder why its so hard to teach mei. her attitude reallly sucks la.. so rude.. and becoz of her being so rude.. corn and her are at war again.. and i, as usual, am their middle person.. sigh.. i hope mei reallly listend to all the nagging and is trying to change as what she claims..
was thinking of abel ydae.. dunno why.. just suddenly came into my mind.. has beeoneons since i last talk to him.. hope he's fine..
gee.. i think its all the fries and the chilli i shared with diana just now.. stomach feels really hot.. the milk i just drank doesn't seem to be helping. dammit...
thinking of chong now.. hmmmmmmmmmmm... thinking.. wondering.. pondering.. missing... *hehe*
whats up mannnnnn.. sianx.. gonna turn 18 soon... sounds really old. sounds really mature.... sounds reallly... not me. geez.. guess i have to grow up like really soon.... damn.
yep.. i'm broke man. i need to save money. like really save money.. spent more than 40 bucks last sat when we celebrated queen mother's birthdae. its time to stop eating in school and start starving. saves me from 2 things: 1.money and 2.calories. need to find the self determination again.... *sianx*
siGHx. wonder why its so hard to teach mei. her attitude reallly sucks la.. so rude.. and becoz of her being so rude.. corn and her are at war again.. and i, as usual, am their middle person.. sigh.. i hope mei reallly listend to all the nagging and is trying to change as what she claims..
was thinking of abel ydae.. dunno why.. just suddenly came into my mind.. has beeoneons since i last talk to him.. hope he's fine..
gee.. i think its all the fries and the chilli i shared with diana just now.. stomach feels really hot.. the milk i just drank doesn't seem to be helping. dammit...
thinking of chong now.. hmmmmmmmmmmm... thinking.. wondering.. pondering.. missing... *hehe*
Laureen's birthday wish(es)- hehe
1. big white shirts.
2. big nice bag. (big enough to stuff stuff in. hehe)
3. big white shirts.
4. big pencil box. (enough to put my calculator)
5. big white shirts.
6. big pullover would be quite nice..
7. big white shirts.
8. just wish me happy birthdae. (i'll be happy enough. really.)
1. big white shirts.
2. big nice bag. (big enough to stuff stuff in. hehe)
3. big white shirts.
4. big pencil box. (enough to put my calculator)
5. big white shirts.
6. big pullover would be quite nice..
7. big white shirts.
8. just wish me happy birthdae. (i'll be happy enough. really.)
Wednesday, April 28, 2004
Tuesday, March 09, 2004
Daniel Bedingfield - If You're Not The One
If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I
sums up how i feel.. doesn't it... *siGHz*
love you~ *MUACKZ*
If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I
sums up how i feel.. doesn't it... *siGHz*
love you~ *MUACKZ*
