ARgh. okay. this is gg to be the last post i'm gg to blog in a long while. i so have to start studying.. no more blogging for me. so yah, haha dun bother reading about my life.. for the next 50 plus days? well.. at least till prelims end.

life is getting a bit crazy for me.. i'm really really starting to think what God's purpose for my life is after reading the book. is life just my temporary stay on earth as what the book says? so why are we studying so damn hard anyway? its not as if we are all going to live forever. shouldn't we take the time to do worthwhile stuff like.. i dunno... just sth besides studying. i'm really seriously honestly tired of everything in my life.

*stares at the ceiling* WHATS MY PURPOSE, GOD?  tell me so i won't feel sick of my life! 

we fought the day before again.. he asked me if i really wanted 'us' to continue. i wasn't sure. i wanted to give him up due to the many factors that is self-explainable. but then again.. i just love him so much. i spent a long time crying before i replied. i said yes. i want 'us' to continue. did i do the right thing? or did i do the wrong thing? all i know is i love him. is it wrong to be with someone who u are not supposed to be with actuallY? i don't know. sigh. i really don't know.

its back to maths.