a post from my room

my man is a darling. =)

a remy- i am so one of the firsts in the country- and a bag of m&ms of weird colours i've never seen before.

yep...ok, perhaps more than a darling. =)

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great. i managed to leech off free connection. hhaha. typing in the comfort of my room. great. its been long since i last did that. =)

so much has happened since.. God knows when. ever since it started, things starts to lose its balance.

i like to believe that life is like a see saw. there is a need to maintain a balance on both sides of life. if one is neglected, the sea saw tilts, favouring the other side, vice versa. and perhaps that is what is happening to me.

perhaps i neglected her a fair bit. been selfish, if i can admit. but i just can't help but wonder if its totally my fault? sigh. then again, what is the point. i still am at fault anyway.

gosh. pastor. i need counselling. i really can' t take it much longer. i can't wait to leave them behind and just fly off.

o. how selfish. .................but i just can't help ittttt. and i think i know how they feel.

you know there are just certain times when u reached a certain situation in life when u just really want to forget/erase/demolish/remove certain feelings, people, whatever you have. and then you get so emo and everything and then you just want to spend time with Him/him.

perhaps that canoe vision was for me.. "its not easy, but i will get there somehow."

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flying off in less than a month. quite a bit of things not gotten. haven't gotten my camera and my crumpler.

have to settle bank details by this week.

really want to thank God for giving us the cheapest double room accomodation that we need/wanted. 2 out of 7 rooms were given to us. =)

i think i look forward to the plane ride rather than staying there. -.^

ok i'm weird.

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ken, i miss you.

well, yea. again, still, continuosusly, whatever. haha long way to go till dec 30 huh. corn suggests i write a letter to you and eat bakwa while i'm at it, so the oil will drip all over the paper and send it over to you.

OR

i can just simply buy and eat the ba kwa and write on the paper which is richly 'submerged' into bahkwa oil and send it to you. se say, the smell is stronger.

your choice, darling. hahahaha