of heart felt things. =)

i'm quite surprised with what i did actually. i wouldn't believe i actually poured my heart out to pastor and aunty stef regarding certain issues. its not a norm for me to tell an adul t much about how i feel, let alone pastor. ha.

so we discussed certain issues. funny how the question just came out. as i told them abt things ppl dun noe, it did feel right to tell them, however.

true enough, i really got what i wanted: Godly counsel. at least now i know what i should do and how to go about doing it. its not really much of how much i want stuff to happen but how much i want Him to let things happen.

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friendship is a wonderful thing.

it keeps you happy to know that u are not alone; tht you have someone to count on to hear ur worries, and to infer that somebody really cares for you. In return, sometimes u feel obliged- oblige to return the same amount of love,care and concern; oblige to reciprocate the same kind of kindness. if you don't, sometimes you feel evil; you feel terrible. and sometimes you feel that you are caught in between 2 frens. 2 frens that love and care for you as much. does gender get the better of the issue here?

i said before everything depends on definition. and definition is subjective.

to some, brotherhood is more impt than any girl that lives, even if she's the only one left in this world. and sometimes, its just the other way round. to love is to be vulnerable, so as to speak, then: for this and other reasons.

perhaps, there's nothing to feel anything much of this issue since i've gotten over it. but there are just other more related issues awaiting ur immediate attention.

friendship is an important element in life and it is a pity if pple do not treasure it. friends are forever: as cliche as how that can sound, there's nothing that can deny that.

To you, you really wouldn't noe how hard it is to look you in the eye and smile. i told you last night that, in my perspective, its just not right to hurt anybody. i apologise for being so tired when i talked to u last night and that my words were so incoherent and so anti climax. but i'm glad you understood. but as i concluded my little incoherent, cannot-make-it speech last night, i meant everyword i said- that i truly treasure our friendship. on that note, do be transparent with me and tell me everything thats on your mind- and don't lie to me please. i'm all ears.

you were never a substitute or whatever you tried labelling urself as. you were my friend. my good true friend. =)

i'm really sorry that i've hurt you. i love you. =)

p.s/ it is not a CLOSURE. dammit. haha.. say like we will never be talking anymore like that. cheh. =p

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so life carries on..

swocswocswocswoc! =)

thank u darling winnie and lianyee for taking care of meeeee.. =)