firstly, to the person who insulted my friend:

i really dun give a crap abt you. but seriously, u are very wrong. yina, out of the 5 of us, changed the most out. and to start with, she was/is never ugly. so please mind your words and do not insult my friends- esp my jie meis. because this is, not in any way, tolerable.

i repeat, DO NOT insult my friends.

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a loooooooooooooooong time ago, in some pasir ris chalet while we had cell group. God spoke to me by giving me a vision, when i was really down. he said "I have always loved you". =)

my first vision
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i wanted to blog abt this last week,but the week has been so crazy and tiring, i don't have time to record any of it down, and so i shall now.

2 weeks ago, we had cell at pastor's house. it was my first attendance in eons, man! haha.. anyway, while we were worshipping, i had a vision of a pair of heels. haha. not just any pair of heels, but a VERY pretty one, in fact. it had many strings attached to it.. and it was very elegant. at first, i thought it was sth i was imagining and told myself to stop thinking abt shopping (ha.) since i was in need for a pair of heels. so i focused my mind back on God and i got another vision. this time, God simplified it for me. hahaha.. he showed me a knot- made up of many ropes. then it hit me. i ain't imagining man. haha.. so i released His word to the rest. God was telling us that the zone had to be united, then, like a knot, we can lift the heaviest object that we are faced with. =)

my second vision from God.

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last week, we had an overnight prayer meeting in church. feeling excited and desperate for God to talk to me after what i've been thru recently, i was looking forward to that session-very very very much.

it wasn't long before we knelt on the floor and were totally soaked in God's presence. but what hit me most at the point in time was to look at the wall that was in front of us. and so i did. the wall, was decorated with posters and the songs of the phonics class the children attended. Hence, there was a sun which had a smiling face, 3 blue clouds, and several birdsthat was pasted right on top of the wall. somebody had hung a wooden cross on the wall, in line with the sun, clouds and birds. i wish i had a pic to show you, i will, once i have it.

then it came upon me that the smiling sun was like God, the blue clouds- the holy spirit, and the birds, us.

it struck me then and there that what i was seeing, was an awesome sight- that somehow, what we were doing in that room that night, will come to pass in future: us, kneeling down, facing the sun, the clouds and with the birds, and Christ in the sky. =) i can't really describe the feeling la. aiyah. it was just awesome.

initially, again, i thought it was my own imagination, until Joyce said she saw a very bright light, which i took it as confirmation after the verse psalm 67:1 came to my mind that the sun was depicting God looking at us from heaven and smiling. oh boy! =)

my third vision from God. =)
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later on that night, in the spirit of worship, pastor asked us to repent all our sins before God- on how we have taken him lightly and etc. at that point in time, i saw zigzag lines, which then evolved into waves splashing against the beach. so while pastor was gg on and on about asking us to repent, there was a million and one things running thru my head!! haha.. that was quite hip, i mean.. was God trying to tell me that like how the waves splash across the beach, He will also forgive our sins akin to the waves filling up the holes in the sands and making the beach perfect and untouched- in other words, whole again? so again, i prayed for confirmation from God before i said anything.

"dear God," i prayed, " please God, if that is what u want me to tell them again, show me sth else that is related to water.."

and so i focus my mind on the cross when all of a sudden, i saw lines spurting out in a shape of fingers from a palm: fountain, the word appeared in my mind. i got soooooooooo excited. haha.. then pastor said "build an altar to God and lay ur troubles, worries, everything to Him", and as i did that mentally, water spurted out of my altar like a geyser!! at the same time, becky sang "rain down on me". haha..

"enough of water! haha i get the point, God!" i said in my heart.

and so i released it to the youth again, not really realising whts the link. haha.. and to my surprise, after revealing what God has showed me.. pastor smiled at me and said that, one of the aunties during a prayer meeting while praying for dicky as a proxy for the youths said she saw water spurting out of a water hole in full force while they were praying for us. confirmations, confirmations, confirmations.

=)

we are/will growing!!!

=)

my fourth vision from God.
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my recent one for my darling mentos while i prayed for her till i cried.

note to mentos: since there isn't any aunty ann to record, let me write down what i still remember:

God showed me a pink float that was floating on the water.. somehow at the corner of my vision was a black patch.. i fig that it was ur hair under the water.. then i saw ur hands too.. somehow.. u were drowning. but u weren't grabbing the pink float which was ur only hope..

God is telling you that firstly, he knows you are drowned by the troubles of the world. but you aren't grabbing on to Him. focus on Him, babe. dun look to the world for answers, because you won't be able to breathe. look to Him and cling on to Him for ur dear life.

that vision was the most clear to me, and i felt it in my heart.

talk to me if u have to, sweety. love you. =)

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i watched da vinci on thursday with na. the show is totally blasphemous. to those who watched/read the book again: please remember when the gospel of mary magdelene was written. also, seriously, how would leonardo know how was it like at the last supper to paint a pic of it. like seriously. he wasn't even there la. dotdotdot. many other loopholes if ppl think the story is true.

and 'apple'?! Sheesh!!! haha.. i think thats so funny la.

please guys, seek the truth.

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life is short. and yours may be gone at the least expected timing.

as we grieved over Lena, i pray, that her family esp and our seniors, will find God's peace.

to my friends: if i ever leave in such an unexpected way too, just know that i love all of u very much.

say your "i love yous" when you can.